Chapter Notes: The general consensus of the last chapter was that everyone felt bad for Mike but could care less for Jessica. I find that morbidly humorous.
Last chapter ended on a sad note and I am now working on an outtake in Mike's POV.
The End As We Know It
Previously: Everyone had now gathered around Edward, asking if he was okay. When all of the men began to talk about what to do with Jessica's body, I noticed that Mike was missing. Just as I was about to ask where he was, I heard a gunshot ring through the air.
Chapter 7: Coming Undone
The talking immediately ceased and everyone turned their heads to the sound of the gunshot. A sick feeling was beginning to form in the pit of my stomach and I wrapped my arms around my waist.
Edward immediately took off running towards the sound and Jasper and Sam were right behind him with their guns drawn. I watched as they opened the doors to the hallway and disappeared from my sight.
"It was Mike," I whispered to myself. I heard a loud gasp next to me and turned to see Alice's gray eyes staring back at me in shock.
"You think he...?" Alice's voice drifted off as she shook her head in disbelief. I slowly nodded my head at her and she put her right hand over her mouth.
"I could have stopped him, too. I thought about going over to him but I decided against it. I thought he would want to be left alone," I whispered to her. She stepped over to me and put her hand on my arm.
"You had no way of knowing he would have done something like this," she reassured me, "besides, we don't even know if he did do...that." I shook my head at her. I knew that he had done it. The dead look in his eyes right after he had killed Jessica should have been a warning that this would have happened.
For five minutes, we all sat around the cafeteria and impatiently waited for the three men to return. When they finally walked through the doors, the look on their faces confirmed my suspicions. I bowed my head and Alice put a comforting hand on my back.
"What was it?" Carlisle asked his son after a long period of silence.
"Mike...h-he killed himself," Edward spoke quietly. I looked up at Edward and what I saw broke my heart. His once playful green eyes had darkened with sorrow. He almost seemed lost and it somewhat confused me. Why would he choose now to act this way? Was all of this finally getting to him too?
"Selfish bastard!" Jacob suddenly yelled, his voice echoing through the room. I quickly turned my head to glare at him and noticed that everyone else had their eyes on him as well.
"What are you talking about?!" I said through clenched teeth.
"We may very well be some of the last humans on Earth and he goes and blows his fucking brains out! Not to mention he wasted needed bullets."
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I screamed at him, "Everyone around us is dying and you have the audacity to call him selfish?! He wasn't selfish, Jacob. He was feeling hopeless. What did you want him to do? Walk around as if his wife wasn't dead? Smile as if everything was okay? Newsflash, Jacob! Everything is not okay!" I took a step toward him, my hand twitching at my side. I wanted nothing more in that moment than to smack him across the face.
"No shit, sherlock!" He yelled at me, "We are locked in a school surrounded by fucking zombies. Not to mention the fact that dumb-fuck and his wife almost got us killed by hiding the fact that she was bitten!"
"She was scared."
"No, she was stupid. Do you honestly think she would have told anyone that she was bitten if Mike hadn't found out about it?"
I lowered my head and shook it slowly.
"Exactly. She would have kept her mouth shut and by the time we realized something was wrong, half of us would be bitten or dead. She was a whore anyways."
"How could you...how could you say that?" I asked quietly.
"It's true, Bella. She admitted to me and Angela that she had cheated on Mike a lot," Leah spoke from behind Jake. I noticed that Angela was nodding her head in agreement with what she was saying.
"What does her cheating on Mike have to do with her keeping the bite a secret? You all avoided her when she was dying. You didn't see the sadness in her eyes because none of you even gave her a chance. You immediately shunned her when you found out she was infected"
"I honestly don't understand why you acted all nice with her. She was just a diseased bitch," Leah said loudly.
My face was red with anger and I willed myself to not cry in front of everyone. I needed to come off as strong right now.
"Bella," Esme suddenly whispered into my ear, "come with me. You need to calm down." She gently tugged on my arm and I willingly followed her as she led us to the gym.
I had not stepped foot into the gym since arriving at the school and I had to ask myself why we were staying in the cafeteria when the gym was so much roomier. The windows were high up, meaning sunlight could filter through them and light up the whole gym without the worry of anything getting in. This would be the perfect place to stay during the day time. I sat down at the bottom of the bleachers and remained silent.
It was Esme that broke the silence first, "Have you ever heard the expression, 'There's never an atheist in a foxhole?'"
I wasn't sure where she was going with this, "Um, yes."
"We are never going to get out of this if we don't have some sort of faith to get by with." I raised an eyebrow at her, "I'm not asking you to be a religious person, Bella. I'm just telling you to have some faith that we are going to get out of here. Fight for something. It doesn't have to be God or anything. It could be your family or some friends. Just fight. Don't give up like Mike did."
"How can you have faith when the world is ending?" I asked quietly.
"The answer to that is simple for me. I have my husband, and my son. And if I lose them, I will still keep fighting until the very end...for them."
I looked at her in disbelief. We had only been here for a few days and I already felt as if I was going insane. She made everything sound so simple, so easy. Did she not see that I didn't have my family with me?
"But you have them near you. You see them and know that they are safe. My mom and dad are out there with those things and I don't even know if they are still alive. I can honestly understand why Mike did what he did."
"How can you say something like that, Bella? You would really take the cowards way out?" I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. I'd like to think that I wouldn't commit suicide, but I had never been in a position where I had genuinely thought about it. Esme must have sensed my hesitation since she continued speaking without waiting for an answer.
"My mother committed suicide when I was twelve years old, you know. To this day, no one knows why she did it." I started to apologize but she stopped me again, "Please don't say 'I'm sorry'. I heard it constantly as a child and it never helped me. For so long, I felt that it was my fault that she had taken her life. My father...he was never the same after that.
"Suicide is a selfish act, Bella. It is the easy way out and it hurts more than just yourself. We may not have known Mike well enough to grieve in a way his family would, but his suicide will effect us in some way."
"Esme...I don't know what to say," I was speechless. Tears were streaking down my face and I made no move to stop them.
"Just say that you will fight. Say that you will stand with us when things get tough. And whether you realize it or not, we need you here. Promise me you will hang in there, Bella."
She took me into her arms and held me as I broke down. It felt so comforting, as if my own mother had embraced me and I completely took advantage of the feeling.
I stayed in her arms for a few minutes and when I finally felt calm enough, I pulled away. As I went to lean back I caught a whiff of my hair and scrunched up my nose. Esme noticed.
"What's wrong?" She asked worriedly.
She chuckled, "I think it is time for me to do some laundry and for everyone to hit the showers." She nodded her head towards where the locker rooms were located.
"How did we forget about the showers in the locker rooms?"
"I have no idea, but you and the others should really use them soon," she said before laughing loudly and I joined right in with her.
End Notes: I know this chapter is shorter than most but my mind has been working against me lately so I haven't been able to write much.
So you get to look into Esme's past a little bit. I thought about having her past include her attempting suicide but I decided against it, and had her mother commit suicide instead.
If Bella is coming off as a little crazy, it is intentional. I wanted to make her have this internal battle with herself. I know that if I was in her position, I would go insane.
I hope you enjoyed this chapter!