I decided the summary of this story would be the song, my immortal – Evanescence

Summary: -AlicePOV-

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my
Childish fears

-BellaPOV-

And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


-AlicePOV-

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

-BellaPOV-

You used to captivate me
by your resinating light
now I am bound
by the life you left behind


-AlicePOV-

Your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me


-BellaPOV-


These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

-AlicePOV-

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

-BellaPOV-


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I feel alone, all alone

-AlicePOV-

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have
All of me....

I don't own twilight or the song my immortal by evanescence.

Alice Bella

Set in new moon

Well here we are…. Enjoy

The italics in this story means it's either a memory or the song lyrics, or a note, or a vision. Yeahh

My Immortal

~Crystal.

-AlicePOV-

Edward left her…left Bella heartbroken, every night I saw her in my visions. She wasn't getting better. I had told Edward but he wouldn't listen. Every time I tried to make him go back, let me go back he would grab me and tell me about my time in the asylum…my weakness. He knew what had really happened to me while I was in the asylum. He knew the thoughts that have haunted me to this day. It hurt me every second I was away from Bella, knowing how much it affected her by leaving. All I wanted was to go to her, have her in my arms, and not be afraid of Edward threatening to do what the guards in the asylum had done to me. Rape me. I sighed. I couldn't' take being away from Bella any longer…

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my
Childish fears

-BellaPOV-

"Bella" Alice said in my room while she was helping me with my algebra her voice full of sadness. I quickly looked up from the sheet full of equations onto the immortals beautiful face. I doubt that she knew but she was my girl crush…. No I wouldn't call it a crush, it was so much more. I was utterly in love with my boyfriend's sister.

I placed my hot –compared to vampires- hands on her ice cold ones. "Yes?" I smiled warmly. Every second I was with her just made me love her more.

"I-I…" She choked out, her fragile-looking frame shaking as she sobbed. All that was missing were the tears running down her flawless face. I was suddenly very worried. Seeing this wonderful girl like this hurt. I stood up from my bed grabbing her hand and pulling the lean vampire with me holding both of her hands. "Alice what's wrong?"

"B-B-Bella I shouldn't be here but…" Alice cried out getting more and more hysterical "… I had to say goodbye." My hands lost their grip on the pain-stricken vampire who was sobbing tearlessly, now dangling by my sides. "Goodbye…? Alice?" I questioned in awe already feeling light-headed. Alice is leaving? I started hyperventilating.

"Al-Al-Alice" I clutched onto her, "What-what are you… what?" I looked at her. "Edwards leaving and we are going with him. Edward was trying to make me leave without saying goodbye." Alice cried out more high pitched then usual.

My world shattered in seconds

I found myself collapsed on my floor. "Leave, just leave" Alice didn't love me. "Bella, please I'm so sorry" Alice said her voice full of sorrow as she crouched down next to me. "I needed to say goodbye…" she whispered. I turned my head away ignoring Alice's apologies until she was gone. I laid there unable to move unable to do anything but cry.

And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave

I started crying again like every other night, my tears mixing with the rain coming down on my face at the memory in my head, the memory I replayed in my mind every night even though it's been almost a year now. The memory of the last time I saw Alice. I sat in the forest, the place I could be alone to think of her. I tried so hard to forget her to stay in my room and forget her after how much she hurt me, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. Instead I sat in the middle of this forest on a large cold marble rock asking her to come back in hope she remembers me.

"Alice… I need you, please come back, please" I said out loud into the darkness. I sighed thinking about my first day back at school after the Cullen's departure, how I followed Lauren around like a dog. Kind of like how Mike used to follow me around. Lauren was there with short hair she cut it like Alice's but it lay flat across her face, not spiky and bouncy like Alice. But still Lauren was the closest thing I had to remind me of Alice… I think I freaked Lauren out. I shook all my thoughts from my head and started walking back to my house not wearing a raincoat even though it was raining. The cold reminded me of Alice. So now I'd get sick if it meant remembering her.

I sneaked back into my room and picked up a singlet and a pair of shorts. Shower time. I stepped into the shower. Freezing cold water raining down on me but I smiled as it did. I loved the cold water the reminder of when Alice hugged me.

"Bella..? Are you there" I froze… Alice. I ran out of the shower slipping and went crashing onto my knee but I quickly got back up grabbing a towel and wrapping it around me running into my room. It was empty. I've lost count of how many times that this has happened.

I have not resurfaced.

Your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

I looked down in disappointment the feeling of hope had vanished yet again. I looked down at my arm, the big scar from my wrist to my elbow next to the bite mark James had left me with, then down at my leg, more scars…

"Jacob lets ride the bikes now" I said straightforwardly wanting to ride them this second to try and get the pain of Alice out of my head, the pain I carried with me every second. I was getting tired of him coming onto me. Why did all the guys I know want me like that? I needed a friend right now and Jacob wasn't helping me. I mounted myself on my bike as Jacob grinned and mounted his bike quickly, he touched my arm lightly, "Lets go then."

Wow… I was terrified and it was amazing! Flying down the road not taking the time or the care to look at the speedometer. I heard Jacobs's desperate pleas to slow down but I ignored them the pain of Alice leaving was gone, replaced by fear. I didn't realise there was a bend in this road and it was too late to slow down. I closed my eyes and sharply turned the bike on the wet road. I felt the gravel of the road on my leg then I was flung into a tree. I closed my eyes, ignoring the pain in my arm and leg. "Alice..." I sighed.

I didn't remember much after that except I was annoyingly and uncomfortably hot. I got dressed and went to bed clutching at my chest where my heart once used to be.

These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

-AlicePOV-

I walked out of the front door of our new house and there he was watching me, making sure I didn't try and leave. I hadn't smiled genuinely since we left. I should have stayed and looked after my Bella. I grimaced at Edward and walked back inside. I was the one that looked after her and was there for her after Edwards mistakes.

"Hi Bella!" I greeted her enthusiastically in the empty hallway, but she kept her head down, her face covered by her hood of her jumper. I skipped over to her. "Bella? What's wrong?" I asked placing my hand on her shoulder trying to look at her face but she turned away. "Did someone hurt you?" I quizzed carefully. She nodded. I immediately thought of Edward but I didn't want to upset her so I said "Who? Bella you can trust me, please"

She looked up and I saw it, her beautiful face covered in dark bruises. "Edward" she whispered wrapping her arms around my slender waist clutching onto me. I was shocked I growled too low for Bella to hear but I wiped a tear from her face and wrapped my arms around the crying human trying to calm her down the best I could. "Please don't… tell him" She pleaded into my shoulder. "Of course Bella I wont tell him" I said even though I wanted to rip him into little bits I couldn't do that to Bella.

I let Edward hurt Bella one too many times, I am going back to forks wether he likes it or not. I started planning.

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

-BellaPOV-

I had to, I forced myself to. I stepped out of my ancient truck and walked nervously to the Cullen's mansions unoccupied front door, using the key Alice gave me I unlocked the front door and stepped into the sunlit living room. The first thing I noticed was Edwards's grand piano, covered with a white sheet. I touched it stripping the sheet off before slamming my fist down on the shiny black frame. It wasn't enough. I ran back to my truck fetching a shovel tears running down my face in anger. I smashed the shovel down on his piano hearing the wood crack I brought down the shovel again and again with all my strength.

"I hate you, you fucking bastard" I yelled out loud "You took Alice…Alice" I whimpered. He took her away from me; he took Alice, Alice who managed to make me laugh and smile. I hated him, and I wanted to hate Alice too, but I couldn't. Wait…. Alice's room was upstairs and I was wasting my time getting angry at Edward. I dropped the dented shovel and walked upstairs into Alice's room, it was just like it was before. I pulled the yellow sheets off her furniture carefully. Of course she would have yellow sheets. I walked into her walk-in closet.

Wow… was it always this big? I inhaled deeply and froze… I smelt it, I smelt her. It was faint but I smelt Alice. Oh god it smelt so good, I grabbed her clothes and inhaled. I wanted more, I needed more. I raided her panties drawer and brought numerous pairs onto my face. I closed my eyes and sniffed. I didn't car how it looked, Alice's scent was so much stronger on her panties. I stuffed my coat with them, including a few thongs and stepped out of her closet and over to her bed running my hands along her silk sheets. My hand found itself on a piece of paper I looked over at it, it was a not. Alice wouldn't leave this here accidentally not this perfect vampire. I picked up the note and read it silently.

Dear Bella,

First of all, I'm so very sorry. If you ever get this, I promise I'll come back as soon as Edward lets me. I already miss you. It hurt so much to do this to you because, Bella, I am in love with you, I love you as much maybe even more then Edward. I cherish every second with you and right at this second no matter it be five months since I left or ten years, I miss you. Don't worry I would never and will never forget you. You have all of me.

Forever your's Alice.

I collapsed onto her bed, all this new information overwhelming me. Clutching the bed sheets I closed my eyes

"Alice! No… stop!" I protested in-between my laughter silently not wanting her to. Thankfully she ignored my protests and continued to sit on my hips while her hands and fingers assaulted my underarms. I squirmed and giggled uncontrollably underneath her. I managed to flip her onto her back now with me sitting on her I pinned her wrists down on her bed. She went along with it unlike Edward who would use his vampire strength against me. I leaned down so my chest was pressed against hers and my mouth was an inch away from her ear. "And I thought you were a vampire" I whispered teasingly into her ear pulling back and looking at the shocked vampire.

"Oh Bella, I will show you vampire" She grinned easily flipping me back onto my back pressing her cool body against mine. My hands instantly wrapped themselves around the vampire's waist pulling her closer to me. "Alice" I gasped breathlessly my hands lowering themselves down Alice's body. Her mouth was hanging open and I looked back at her staring at me. Her cool smooth fingers lead themselves up my arms and traced down my sides grasping my waist. Her lips started closing the gap from mine; her eyes closed her lips just at mine.

She froze and her body went rigid her eyes shot open and one word uttered from her mouth "Edward." Her lips were so close to mine I could feel her icy breath on my lips and shivered. She immediately sat upright on me again, her fingers once again assaulting my underarms. "Alice?" I gasped confused but then saw Edward coming in through Alice's window. Alice stopped tickling me and looked up at Edward.

'What are you doing to Bella" He frowned. "Ah I was about to murder her, If only you had come in a minuet later, she would of died of laughter." Alice smiled sweetly at an unimpressed looking Edward. "Such immaturity" He exclaimed shaking his head a little and walking out of Alice's room. Oh god Alice kiss me, I thought over and over glad Edward wasn't able to read my mind.

I opened my eyes and sighed. "Alice where are you?"

You used to captivate me
y your resinating light
Now I am bound
by the life you left behind

-AlicePOV-

Edward was long gone, with Tanya no doubt. I stood up ready to leave the house but suddenly froze.

"Alice..! Alice?!" Bella screamed while she was in my room. "Where are you!? I need you." She moved over to my mirror and drove her hand through it, her blood immediately flowing from her wrists she collapsed onto my floor.

"No!" I whispered. Every night I saw the pained-dead face of Bella. She didn't look human anymore, her eyes sockets were bruised and her skin was too pale. But I didn't go to her, help her. Now it was too late. Maybe I would make it. No I will make it. I quickly raced out of the house running as fast as I could towards Bella. Ever night, 326 to be exact, I heard her desperate pleas for me to come back. I wouldn't ignore her anymore. I wouldn't ignore myself; I wouldn't only listen to Edward.

Your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

-BellaPOV-

"Alice..! Alice?!" I screamed standing in the middle of Alice's room. "Where are you!? I need you." I started moving closer to Alice's mirror. I couldn't take this pain anymore. The mirror would end it all. My hand moved up and drove itself towards the mirror but stopped. I wanted Alice. She will come back. Without planning or thinking of what I was doing I ran outside into the woods.


These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

-AlicePOV-

I didn't try and look for Bella's future it would only slow me down I had to get to her but it would take at least half an hour. My thoughts went back to remember the times I had protected Bella. Held her hand.

"Bella?" I called out. "Are you hungry?" I asked while we were in the hotel in phoenix. I didn't want to bother her but maybe all this stress and nervousness made her hungry. I didn't know how this hunger thing worked for humans. I opened the door carefully but she wasn't there. I was hit with a vision. The ballet studio. She was with James."Jasper! Call Edward now!" I yelled out "The ballet studio she's with James hurry!" I raced out of the hotel with vampire speed I ran out towards the Ballet studio. I walked in to find Bella in Edwards's arms, James right behind him. James grabbed Edwards's ankle and pulled him back. Bella dropped from Edwards grip sliding into a pile of broken glass.

I rushed over to her. "Bella! Bella, Its okay" I said crouching next to her resting my hand on her thigh. It was wet I brought my hand up to my face and smelt it; her blood Closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. God it smelt so good, looking back down to see her thigh bleeding. I heard Carlisle, Emmett and Jasper come down. "Carlisle, The blood!" I cried out ignoring Edward and James fight, Emmett and jasper would take care of him. I was only worried about Bella. She was groaning loudly in pain. "Bella? Where are you hurt" I asked trying to sound as calm as possible.

"My wrist… it's burning" She said clenching her teeth together. I instantly looked up. He bit her, James bit her. "Carlisle!" I called out once again the urgency in my voice increased. He came over. "Edward, he will have to suck the venom out" He informed calmly. "No! he will kill her, its going to happen she is going to become a vampire please Carlisle" I whispered grabbing Bella's hand as she squeezed it tightly, so tightly I could feel it. Edward came over looking at Carlisle frightened, "I won't be able to stop." He whispered. "You will be Edward I know you will" Carlisle ushered. I knew better I wasn't going to go anywhere while he was doing it. He pressed his mouth down on the bite and began sucking the venom from Bella's blood.

"Enough Edward you're killing her" Carlisle said a tone of urgency in his calm voice "Enough."

"Edward stop!" I yelled growls coming through my words. He didn't listen he kept drinking her blood. I leapt onto him pushing him away. He hissed and sank his teeth into my arm. I yelped and pulled away returning to Bella. "Alice... Alice… you're here" She smiled before falling unconscious.

I had to get to her!

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
All of me

-BellaPOV-

I found my way to the boulder I sat on every night I started sobbing; I've been too weak to stay away from her, from the house. I've been too weak to tell myself she has gone. After reading that letter it only hurt more. She was still with me, but I still felt all alone.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I feel alone, all alone

-AlicePOV-

I arrived at the front door of my old house, the place I called my home. I smelt her scent it smelt so good. I didn't slow down racing up the stairs into my room. It was empty. No blood my mirror was still intact. Where was she? Her house? I didn't have time to think. I raced back outside and through the forests to her house jumping through her window I froze. Her room. The place I left her.

"Bella, please I'm so sorry" I said crouching next to Bella after she collapsed onto the ground. . "I needed to say goodbye…" I whispered. She ignored me and turned her head away from me. I took her hands in mine as the tears ran down her face and her chest rocked violently from her sobs. "Bella please I'm so sorry I promise I will return" I kept apologising knowing she wasn't listening until Edward came and pulled me away.

I collapsed. Where was she? I tried to think of the places she would be. Jacobs? Angela's? The boulder. The rock the place she went every night thinking of me. Yes that was it that was where she was I jumped back out of her window and raced back into the trees.

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have
All of me....

-BellaPOV-

I wiped the tears from my eyes and sat silently on the boulder looking down. "Bella…?" I heard Alice whisper. I didn't look up. She wouldn't be there. "Bella?" Alice's voice asked again. I sighed my head still down. "I'm sorry" It whispered. I finally looked up. Alice... it was her. "Alice" I whispered my voice hoarse. "Alice!" I said louder. It was her! I jumped of the rock and started running over to her tripping over my feet onto the foliage I quickly got up and slammed into her hugging and inhaling her scent as much as I could. "Alice... Alice" I didn't know what to say I was just so happy she was here. I buried my face in her cool neck. "Bella I'm so sorry" She whispered into my hair wrapping her arms around my waist. But she pulled away suddenly. "Alice??!" I chocked out. She was staring at my jacket with a huge grin on her face. 'Why are my panties in your pockets?" She said trying not to laugh. I blushed and pulled my immortal back into my arms.