Hi everyone :) Thought I would update something so everyone knows I'm still around.
"You and Aiden looked pretty cozy earlier," Jen said as she nudged me in the side.
"He was just being nice," I mumbled, trying to focus on my college applications to keep the blush from my face. "Stop reading into things and finish up."
After the movie, we all went back to school and to the boys' suite to finish our college applications. Most of them were done on the computer, but there were some that had to be written since representatives were coming to interview us on campus.
"When can we get ice cream?" Drew whined. "I don't want to do this anymore."
"Go get ice cream then and bring some back for us," I told him. "I have an interview with Notre Dame on Halloween, I have to finish their app."
"Fine, fine," Drew said as he stood up and grabbed Aiden by the collar. "Let's go."
"Why do I have to go?"
"Because I said so."
When they left, Jen grabbed my pen out of my hand and pulled my arm so I faced her.
"What'st with the manhandling?" I asked.
"You hung out with Aiden today and you both came back alive. What's the deal?"
"Where's Tyler and Mia?" I asked, trying to change the subject.
"Tyler's room," she said, and I made a face. "I know. Now stop avoiding the question."
"Nothing's the deal. We can be civil to each other, I suppose. We used to be civil to each other."
"Yes, and then you two suddenly stopped and no one has gotten any story out of either of you. Which is odd."
"No, it's not when there's no story to tell. We just grew apart, that's what happens."
"Not that quickly."
"Everyone's different, Jen. Now can I please have my pen back?"
"Fine," she sighed as she threw the pen at me. "One day, Alessandra, you will tell me what happened between the two of you. I'm your best friend, you should be able to come to me about everything."
"I do come to you about everything, Jennifer. There's just no story, nothing to talk about."
There was a story, though. One that I didn't want to tell because it was still a bit too painful to talk about. Aiden and I didn't grow apart, we turned on each other. He became a playboy jerk, I became a cold-hearted bitch. All of junior year we were bitter enemies. Sometimes we'd go so far out of our ways to hurt each other that we'd end up in detention, but most of the time we just ignored each other except for the spiteful comments. I didn't want things to end that way, but they did. Neither of us have acknowledged what happened, and while we probably should do that for closure, we wouldn't. I'd rather move miles away for college knowing that I left that asshole here in Chicago then to have "closure" and wish we could have started again and see if we would have worked out.
"I just don't undestand."
"There's nothing to understand," I snapped. "I don't want to talk about it because it's nothing. Next year I won't be here, why bother fixing anything with anyone when I plan on not seeing them again."
"So when you come visit you'll just ignore him, pretend like he doesn't exist?"
"Who says I'll come visit?" I mumbled as I filled in the rest of my application.
"You plan on never coming back to visit your family, or your friends? You won't come back to visit me?" Jen said, her voice sounding hurt.
"Of course I'll come visit for holidays and I'll be here during the summers, but I'm not going to travel so far for like weekends and such," I explained. "I just need to get away from everything."
"Because you have it so rough," Jen said sarcastically. "Have you thought about what your dad thinks about you leaving?"
"He's not happy, but he knows I can't stay here."
"I come bearing ice cream!" Drew said as he walked in with Aiden holding a paper bag. "Is everything okay?"
"Fine," I said and glared at Jen. "She's just upset that I wanna leave the fine city of Chicago."
"I'm upset because of what she's leaving behind."
"Families always around, Jen. You know you're family to me."
"I'm not talking about family, I'm talking about missed opportunities. Sometimes they happen at the wrong time, but they come back," she said, her eyes flashing toward Aiden.
"Opportunities like that don't work out for a reason. No need to go back and reopen old wounds that are just starting to get better," I told her.
"I'm so confused," Drew whispered to Aiden, who just shrugged and shook his head.
I got up and grabbed my ice cream from the bag and sat down at the counter to eat it. Tyler and Mia finally emerged from his bedroom with huge grins on their faces. I cringed as I looked down at my ice cream and continued eating it.
"We're going to stay here tonight, Ali. So you'll have the suite to yourself," Jen said.
"You're going to leave me alone after you forced me to stay and watch that movie," I said angrily. "You're kidding right."
"You can stay here if you want," Tyler suggested. "You could sleep on the couch."
"I'll do that, thanks," I said as I stabbed my ice cream with my spoon. "I didn't think you were that mad at me, Jen, that you'd leave me alone."
"You're not alone, you're with your friends, who you'll be leaving in a year," she said.
"You are really lucky you're my best friend," I said as I got up to throw my ice cream out. "I have to get pajamas to sleep in."
"I'll go with you," Aiden said as he threw out his finished ice cream as well. "Wouldn't want to disturb the lovebirds."
"No, because that'd be terrible," I said as I glared at my friends and brother before leaving.
Aiden followed me upstairs to my room and sat down on my couch after I opened the door.
"You wanna do something?" he asked as I walked into my room to grab my pajamas, toothbrush, and teddy bear.
"Like what?" I asked when I walked out of my room and stood in front of him.
"Oh, I don't know," he said as he grabbed my hips and pulled me down on top of him. He began to kiss my neck as his hands inched closer to inside my pants, but I stopped him from going any futher. "Something along the lines of this?"
"As much as I would like to," I said as I moved off of him. "I've been given my monthly gift. I don't think you will enjoy that too much."
"Nope, no I would not," he said, his face filled with disgust. "How bad is it?"
"Not bad, pretty light actually. Nothing major going on."
"So, if I was really desperate, it wouldn't be too gross?"
"No, it wouldn't," I said and laughed. "But that's not going to happen. I'd feel gross and weird letting you do that."
"Desperate times call for desperate measures," he said as he pulled me closer to him.
"We had sex last night," I said as I pushed him away from me. "You are so far from desperate, you're just pathetic."
"I am not. I have needs," he pouted.
"No. My brother is right next to your room."
"We're alone now," he said suggestively.
"It doesn't take this long to get pajamas. You can wait, you won't die."
"Fine," he sighed as he opened the door for me. "Is everything okay between you and Jen?"
"Yeah, she just keeps asking me about something that I don't particularly want to talk about."
"Is that something us?"
"Yeap," I said, popping the 'p'.
"Ali," he sighed, but I stopped him.
"I don't want to talk about it. I haven't told Drew, I haven't told Jen or Mia. Last person I wanna talk about what happened is you. You know what you did," I said icily.
"I honestly have no idea what I did. You just got really cold and distant one day and that was that."
"That's exactly what happened. Let's just leave it at that," I said as I opened the door to the boys' suite and found them all making out. "Can you at least make it to your bedrooms? I have to sleep in here tonight!"
"Sorry," the all mumbled before getting up and walking to their respective bedrooms.
"See you in the morning, sleep tight," Jen said as he hugged me. "I'm sorry, by the way."
"Me too. Goodnight," I said as she walked into Drew's room. "Try not to be too loud!"
"No promises, lil sis!" Drew said as he slammed his door shut.
"Three minutes," I muttered as I laid down on the couch and grabbed the blanket to put over me.
"You could sleep in my bed you know, I'll sleep out here," Aiden said.
"No thanks. Don't wanna kick you out of your own bed," I said as I rolled over to face the couch and not him. "Night."
"Goodnight Ali," he said before he leaned down and placed a gently kiss on the top of my head. "Sweet dreams."
Sweet dreams, my ass. I woke up in the middle of the night, sweating and trying to regain control of my breathing. All I could dream about were those dolls, and that little girl from the Halloween decorations. At one point, she turned towards me and asked for help. That's when I woke up, half-screaming, half-crying.
"Are you okay?" Aiden asked as he opened his door and came out to check on me. "I heard screaming."
I began to nod my head 'yes' to him, to say I was fine, but it quickly turned into a 'no' and I felt some more tears come out. Aiden stood awkwardly at his door for a moment before coming over to me and sitting down. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and pulled me into his chest. I held onto his t-shirt as I cried, feeling bad that I was staining it.
"Nightmare?" he asked and I nodded. "It's just a dream, it's not real."
"It was real, though. That little girl," I shivered. "I hate dolls."
"I have nightmares a lot, you know," I said quietly, unsure of why I was telling him this.
"Of the little girl?"
"No, the movie brought that one up," I said as I sniffed a bit. "I'm lost in a dark, creepy forest, and I just keep running. I have no sense of direction and no idea why I'm running. I never know if I'm running from something or running to something. It's scary."
"Like I said, they're just dreams."
"They started when my mom left. Then they went away."
"Why'd they go away?"
"They went away when I was with you," I said quietly.
'You're with me now," he said after a moment.
"You don't stay."
"Will you stay?"
"Tonight," he said as he moved the two of us so we were both lying down on the couch.
"Tonight," I repeated as I snuggled closer to him. "Promise?"
Figured I'd update on a story that I have a lot of chapters already written for. I've been so swamped with school work it's insane, I barely have time to update my Facebook status let know update on here with a full chapter.
I haven't forgotten any of my unfinished stories that I do plan on finishing, it's just be so crazy. I'm not giving up, they'll get finished eventually. Just don't give up on me just yet :)
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