A/N: In this final chapter, I wanted to show how connected they are to each other and how much they can accomplish if they stay together, even though they push each other away sometimes. I wanted to thank all my readers and alll those who commented for taking this journey with me. Thanks again to my wonderful beta, Hana, for hanging in there with me until the very end! *hugs* Please R&R. Thanks!
Chapter 10 – Kindred Spirits
She squeezed his hand. "I love you, Clark." Forever and ever.
"I know." Clark signaled to the doctor that they were done.
As Lois watched Dr. Hamilton wheel Clark out, she couldn't help the sinking feeling in her chest that Clark didn't want her anymore.
After leaving Clark at S.T.A.R. Labs, Lois went home to rest. She called the hospital, as she promised Clark she would, and told them she would come in later and sign the necessary papers. She also called Chloe letting her believe that everything was fine between them, and that Clark was out of the woods. Chloe was thrilled with the news, but after talking with her, she felt mentally and physically exhausted, so she went to her bedroom and laid down for a while.
Meanwhile, back at the Lab, instead of placing Clark in a room with sunlight, the doctor decided the sooner he got direct sunlight, the better. So, he was on the hospital terrace enjoying the sun. The doctor said his powers should return very soon, probably within a few hours.
Clark closed his eyes and sighed, wondering how he was going to let Lois go. He had to. He had no other choice. It was the only way, but just the thought of it made him feel like the sun would never come up again and that a part of him would wither and die. He tried not to think about it. It hurt too much. I'll just rest here for a while. He was finally able to get that rest he so desperately needed. And then, Clark found himself in a dream world.
I could see myself. I was older, but something wasn't right. Lois wasn't there and I wondered where she could be. I was standing in a city park looking for her. Then suddenly, she appeared before me out of nowhere.
"Clark, is that you?"
"It's me, Lois." I was so happy to see her. I pulled her into my arms.
"Can I stay here with you? He doesn't want me any more."
"Of course, he wants you."
"No, he doesn't. He knows I love him, but it's not enough."
"Of course, it's enough. He'll understand in time."
"But we've waited so long. Can I stay with you instead?"
"No, Lois, he needs you with him. He just needs a little more time."
"I need him too, but I have this terrible feeling inside."
"Lois, you have to go back now. Please be patient with him."
"I'll try, I promise. Will you hold me once more?"
She came into my arms, holding me close. She pulled back and touched my cheek.
"Will you kiss me goodbye?"
He leaned down and kissed her cheek.
"No, Clark, I mean kiss me goodbye. Kiss me like it's the last time."
I pulled her into my arms kissed her like I've wanted to do since the moment I first saw her in the park.
She kissed him back. They couldn't get close enough to each other. Neither of them wanted it to end, but all too soon they pulled back and stared into each other eyes.
"It's time to go back, Lois," Clark said. He touched her cheek. He slowly left her arms and backed away from her. "Goodbye, Lois and remember, he just needs more time, more time, more time …"
Then he was gone.
Clark awoke with a start, not understanding the dream at all. He didn't want to believe any of it. It made no sense, but he didn't want to lose the dream. He went over and over it in his mind. Lois wouldn't leave me for someone else, would she? It was me in the dream, but then it wasn't, was it? Lois was there with me, and she wanted to stay, but I sent her away to be with someone else. But who? Clark frowned. It was just a dream. It didn't mean anything, but why can't I get it out of my mind?
But then, one thought came into his head slowly at first, but now it was barreling through his mind like a bulldozer out of control. Lois belongs with me now, no one else. I've sat back and watched her date other guys, kiss other guys, be with other guys, but no more. She loves me. She wants to be with me and no one else. Clark startled himself with his own thoughts. Suddenly, he felt stronger. He felt like he could do anything, be anything he wanted to be. My powers are back.
As the dream faded, Lois slowly awoke mumbling, "Clark, don't go." As she laid in her bed remembering her dream, she knew exactly what it meant. I have to give Clark more time. I can do that. We only confessed our love barely twenty-four hours ago. If it's time he wants, then he can have it, but what if he doesn't want time? What if ... ? I can't even go there. It hurts too much. Don't think about it. Think about happier times.
Her mind suddenly flashed back to the first moment she first laid eyes on Clark Kent. His eyes were curious, his dark hair was wavy and looked soft to the touch. His ... oh dear. I really tried not to look any lower, but it was just too tempting not too. Lois shook her head remembering. She also remembered how tall and powerful he looked. There was an aura surrounding him, even now. She sighed as she looked at the clock. What time is it? How long was I asleep? Six hours? Why hasn't he called me? She shook her head annoyed. Stop it, Lois. He's probably resting, same as me.
She decided to get cleaned up, shower and change her clothes. Maybe I'll feel better about things after a long hot shower, and it may help clear my head. After her shower, as she changed into a long nightgown and robe, she did feel better. It was almost dinnertime, and she was suddenly very hungry. She went in the kitchen to get dinner started.
Then the doorbell rang. She looked in the peephole, and it was Clark standing there with two bags full of take out.
Lois took a deep breath and opened the door. She knew she wasn't 'decent,' but she didn't much care at the moment.
They stood there staring at each other. Then Lois turned around and went back to the kitchen.
"Lois, can I come in? I brought food." He held up the two bags of food for her to see, but she wasn't looking at him, or even speaking to him.
"Sure, come in." She went back to fixing her dinner.
"It's your favorite, Thai. Don't you want any?" She was ignoring him.
"Clark, I've already started dinner. You should have called first."
"Actually, I did call, but your cell went to voice mail. Don't you want to check it?" He put the food on the kitchen table.
"I believe you, Clark. I was pretty tired, and I suppose I didn't hear it."
"Yeah, I was pretty tired too. I took a nap, and I had the strangest dream."
"Yeah, even now thinking about it, I still can't make heads or tails out of it."
"Why don't you tell me about it?" Lois was curious now.
"Do you really want to hear about it, or are you just going through the motions? You don't seem to want me here."
"Clark, you're the one who doesn't want me. I was really hurt when you sent me away. Why did you do that?"
"I'm sorry, Lois, I didn't mean to hurt you. I never want to hurt you. I just thought it best we take some time and think about … things."
Lois put down the knife and stared at him. "Clark, that's all we ever do. We think and think, but we don't talk to one another. We don't open up. Don't you want to know how I'm feeling? I want to know how you feel about everything, and I want to know how you feel about us." She then went straight to the heart of the matter. "Do you want us to be together or not?"
"Lois, it's not that simple and you know it."
She went to him then, took has hand in hers. "It really is that simple. I love you and you love me. What's complicated about that?" She held up her hand to stop him from speaking. "I know what you're going to say, but let me finish. When I first found out about you, the first thing that came into my mind was … 'he must feel so alone,' and I wanted to tell you that you didn't have to be alone anymore.' She touched his cheek. "Well, say something." She smiled at him.
"Oh, god, I can't fight you, I can't." He pulled her into his arms then, holding her against his heart. He kissed her and it felt like he had come home at last. She kissed him back. She moaned then, and she welcomed him inside. Their tongues fought for domination. It didn't matter. They were both the victors.
Clark pulled back for a moment, resting his forehead against hers, trying to control his breathing. "Lois, I have to tell you something. My powers are back, and I don't know if we should do this." He looked into her eyes and what he saw there made him think there was nothing they couldn't do together.
Lois smiled and touched his check. "It's time, Clark. We both want this, and there's no point in denying it any longer."
Clark wondered how he had gotten so lucky. "I love you, Lois," Clark said, as he pulled her into his arms.
"I love you too, Clark."
Later that same evening, during their much delayed dinner together, Clark apologized. "I'm sorry I pushed you away, Lois. I just ... I just couldn't bear the thought of you getting hurt because of me or anything bad happening to you. I just wanted to protect you ... always."
Lois was very touched by his apology. "I know." She smiled and squeezed his hand. He then went on to tell her everything about himself. He noticed she seemed particularly interested in one of his abilities ... flying. He had to admit it was an ability he was not overly fond of, but she seemed very enthusiastic about it, asking him more and more questions about it, like an excited child. He just shook his head at her, wondering how her mind works.
The next day, Lois couldn't get Clark's dream out of her head. So, she asked him to tell her all about it. She listened to him in awe, as he told her about it, and she could not believe it.
They had both had the same dream at the same time, only Clark thought she had wanted to go to someone else. Oh, Clark. She let him think that, because she couldn't tell him the truth ... not yet anyway. Maybe one day.
A/N: Thank you for taking this journey with me. I hope you enjoyed it, as much as I liked writing it! Reviews are love!!
PS: If it feels like something is missing, there is. I've written a 'Mature' one shot that will be posted separately as an epilogue to this story. Look for it tomorrow. Don't miss it!! :D:D