"Hey Bella, what are you staring at?". That's the question that my best friend Alice Cullen asked me, she should know I mean look at him, tall, handsome no beautiful , those green pricing eyes, that oddly hot and yet messy bronze hair, and those peek a boo muscles. How could she ask me what was I staring at? Maybe it's because she doesn't she her bother that way I guess. I still today this day can't believe how I have kept my true feelings for her brother, Edward Cullen from her let alone Edward. We were and are the best of friends, always hanging out with each other since the day we were born. My mom always says that I am an open book, so how did I keep this a secret all these years that I Isabella Marie Swan was in complete love with Edward Cullen, one of my best and closest friends in the world.
He was the first person that I went to when my parents were divorcing, the person whom I cried to everyday when my mom left me and my dad as soon as the papers were signed and left to go god knows where, leaving me here in boring old forks (The smallest, coldest and wettest place on earth). At least I had my best friends still and my dad even though we didn't talk much (but with Charlie you didn't have to).
"HELLO……… earth to Bella, are you in there?" Alice said once again waving her hand in front of my face trying to see if she could get my attention.
"Is she okay? What happened Alice?" Edward said, god I could listen to his voice forever, it was sweet and velvety smooth. Too bad I could never tell him this or the small fact that he was the love of my life. I mean how could anyone let alone Edward truly love me. Plain Jane, Bella swan? I had average long brown hair, was tragically pale, with big brown eyes, and yes I was skinny but that also meant that I was well let's face it, small breasted. And forget about telling Alice she would tell me to go for it and give me a make over. God how she loves playing Bella Barbie.
"I don't know? She's just spacing" Alice said "Bella now stop it we are going to be late for class" she says this while pulling my arm towards first period. That snapped me out of it.
"huh? Oh okay sorry" I mumbled embarrassed and probably blushing.
" what ever come on……. I still can't believe that you wore that outfit today…. I mean come on you only have three weeks until prom and you still need a date Bella…….i mean how do you except to get a date wearing stuff like that? You really need to show off a bit more bells" even though I know she means well, it still hurts sometimes when she talks like this…. I mean this is me, shouldn't I try to find a guy who wants me and not the Barbie that I am far from?
"Well that's easy Alice"
"Really how so Bella please tell me?"
"Well, I am not going to prom, so I don't really see why I need a date" i explained easily
"Oh no you don't Bella you are going to prom, even if I have to drag your cute but there …. And trust me I am not the only one who thinks this rose does too, and I bet that the guys want you to be there too….. I mean this is one of the last times that we are all going to dress up other then graduation and party before we leave for school."
"I know that rose and Emmet and you and jazz want me there…."
"So do I" Edwards says as he sneaks an arm around my shoulder and then whispers " by the way I think you look perfect today don't listen to Alice any of the guys here are too good for you anyways" Edward said it low enough so that Alice didn't hear him. And of course my cruse of a blush haunts my face again; I had forgotten he was still here. But he leaves soon enough when his girl friend or the biggest slut in the world calls him; well more likes yells at him to get over there.
"but Bella come on, even if……you.…..don't…..you know have a date we will all have fun….please "Alice gives me her puppy dog eyes…..damn it I can never say no to her when she does that, its not fair.
"Okay Alice I will go."
"yay" Alice does a little dance and skips into her class, waving goodbye, while I head two doors down to mine. All during class the only thing that I could think of is how good and right Edwards arm around me feels and how much I wish that I was stronger so that I could tell him, but also I wish I could have stood my ground on the no prom thing. I hate how sometimes I feel like an extension of alice and the gang and not really my own person.
Alice is this little ball of black spikes and energy. She's small, smart, and sassy. She has the best fashion sense in the group, even topping rose who is a teen model in high school ( something about keeping it real) she tall, blonde and perfect. Perfect shape, eyes, grades, and mechanic. Oh and they have the best boyfriends. Jasper is Alice's boy and rose's brother. He is smart ( his best is in history, is the only one who beat me in a grade ever, but its only in history) he has muscles mainly because he is the wrestling star, blonde, and could basically be a model……he is just way too shy to do anything like that. And Emmet is my brother (that I never had), but we have hardly anything in common, he is big, huge with muscles, at first you are terrified, but really he's a teddy , funny, loud, and well totally at one with himself, he knows who he is and doesn't let anyone tell him otherwise. That's the group the gang, other than Edward, I know all of his physical attributes but he's also smart, cute and kind. The only thing that I don't like about him is his girlfriend Tanya.
Tanya is perfect also strawberry blonde hair that falls perfectly even on a rainy day on her back has legs that never end, curves in the places that they are supposed to be, big boobs, red lips, and blue icy eyes. But she also has an icy heart, she's always yelling at Edward. I couldn't tell you how many times a day that she yells at him and for the worst reasons why. Alice loves her in a way because she like Alice loves to shop. And rose likes her because; well because she makes the group look good, like her, not me.