My entry for Jack Week '09.

Jack Kelly, the name held great meaning to some people. To me it meant heartbreak and family. Jack was like a big brother to me. I loved him more than anyone else in the world. I thought he loved me to. Well not anymore, I realize now that there are more important things in life to him.

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I came to the lodging house in the middle of January. Jack found me half frozen to death. He watched over me for 3 weeks. He was there when I first opened my eyes. He helped me sell my first pape. We did everything together. He took me everywhere, to see Spot, to the leaders meetings, and to Medda's. One day all that changed. For about a week I realized Jack was becoming distant. He stopped taking me with him. One day he didn't come home. The next day I tried to talk to him, but he said it was none of my business. He started ignoring me more and more. Finally, I'd had enough. I left, I had nowhere better to go so I headed to the "fun house" I'd heard the boys talk about. They said I was too young but they let me be pre show entertainment. I worked there and for Medda, but I made her promise me she wouldn't tell anyone. I always wore a mask for my show's. I snuck around town and saw that Jack had ditched me for some new girl named Alexis. He looked absolutely happy. Fine, if he was happy I would be too. I enjoyed my job at Medda's and during one show I decided not to where my mask. Everything started out great. Medda did awesome and then it was my turn. I got on stage and instantly realized it was a bad idea not to wear my mask. Half the boys looked like the recognized me, not Jack though. He had a new girl draped all over him. I took a deep breath and started my song.

You're one the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
she's going off about something that you said
'cause she doesn't get your humor like i do
i'm in the room, it's a typical tuesday night
i'm listenin' to the kinda music she doesn't like
and she'll never know your story, like i do

but she wears short skirts, i wear t-shirts
she's cheer captain and i'm on the bleachers
dreamin' 'bout the the day when you wake up and find
that what you're lookin' for has been here the whole time.
if you could see that i'm the one who understands you
been here all along so why can't you see
you belong with me, you belong with me

walkin' the street with you and your worn out jeans
i can't help thinkin' this is how it ought to be
laughin' on a park bench, thinkin' to myself
"hey, isn't this easy?"
and you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
i haven't seen it in a while, since she brought you down
you say you're fine, i know you better than that
whatchu doin' with a girl like that?

she wears high heels, i wear sneakers
she's cheer captain and i'm on the bleachers
dreamin' 'bout the the day when you wake up and find
that what you're lookin' for has been here the whole time.
if you could see that i'm the one who understands you
been here all along so why can't you see
you belong with me
standin' by here, waiting at your back door
all this time how could you not know, baby
you belong with me, you belong with me

ohh, i remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night
i'm the one who makes you laugh, when you know you're 'bout to cry
i know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
think i know where you belong, think i know it's with me.
can't you see the i'm the one who understands you
been here all along so why can't you see?
you belong with me.
standin' by here, waiting at your back door
all this time how could you not know, baby
you belong with me, you belong with me.

you belong with me, have you ever thought just maybe?
you belong with me... you belong with me.

I bowed and quickly left the stage. I ran to my dressing room and changed as fast as I could. I ran out the door hoping to avoid the newsies. To late, they were already waiting for me. I ran back into my dressing room and climbed out the window onto the fire escape. I hit the ground and took off for Jefferson Avenue. I heard someone yell and foot steps behind. I ran faster, they were gaining on me, I was almost there. I threw open the door just as they caught up with me. I heard their gasps and turned around, "Relax, I'm pre show entertainment. I still have very little dignity." I ran inside slamming the door behind me. I cried myself to sleep that night. The next morning I woke up and helped clean up around the house. Then, I headed for Medda's. I wore my mask but I knew it wouldn't matter. I stepped out of my dressing room and straight into Medda's arms. "I'm sorry, sweetheart. I didn't think they would recognize you," she said. "It's alright. The show must go on," I responded. Once again I was the closing act. This time I was incredibly nervous. Most of the boys looked at me with shame in their eyes. I couldn't blame them. Jack still looked absolutely clueless. I couldn't believe it. I didn't need him anymore, I would get a new family.

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
Its hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

I ran off stage so they wouldn't see me crying. Maybe I could convince them I was happy without them. But there was no way I could convince myself.

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