Disclaimer: The Winchesters don't belong to me.

A/N: This was written for a Fathers' Day drabble challenge over on Supernaturalville.

It's been a hard year. Family lost and found.

And lost again.

If Dean knew what a conventional family was, he would know where to go for support. As it is he turns inward, rejects Sam, rejects Bobby, refuses to answer his phone.

The only person he talks to is his dad. And how screwed up is that? Dad's dead and yet to Dean he's immortal. He'll live forever in his oldest's head. Dean can hear his voice at every turn, follows orders only he can hear.

Sam doesn't know what hurts most, laying his father to rest or watching his brother fall apart.