It's been two days, and Edward hasn't come to see me. I've been confined to my room by both Alice and Charlie, and I was completely miserable. If Edward were coming every night, the time would be bearable, but he wasn't coming. I opened my window every night, only to spend my night alone and wondering.
Did he hate me? Had he left again?
I would know in the morning, if he came to pick me up for school.
Again, I had a restless night; wondering and praying for Edward to appear.
"Getting a ride to school today?" Charlie asked gruffly the next morning. Alice had told Charlie that Edward and I were fighting, and to keep an eye on me.
"I don't know." I said honestly. "I'll drive myself if he doesn't show, I promise." Charlie hesitated while putting on his jacket.
"Alright, Bells. Just…..be careful." He said, kissing my forehead before leaving the house.
I sat out on the porch steps for over a half hour, and Edward never showed up. I didn't bother driving myself to school; the tears in my eyes would have made it impossible to drive. I stomped up the stairs to my room, ripping my make up bag off the floor and searching for what I needed. What I needed to feel again. But I couldn't find it. The razor wasn't in the bag. Confused, I dumped the bag out on the floor, pawing through the contents.
"Looking for this?" A silken voice asked from the corner. I jumped and whirled around. Edward was mere inches away from me now; holding my razor between two fingers.
"I'm sorry." I whispered. "But you haven't come to see me, I thought you had left again." Edward set the blade down on my nightstand.
"Alice." He said shortly. "And that's a pathetic excuse."
"Don't do this." I begged, trying to hug him. He was stiff and unmoving. "I miss you, Edward." He relaxed against me and buried his face into my hair. "I love you." I reminded him, softly kissing his neck.
"I love you." He said, leaning so that his forehead touched mine. "Bella…do you still want to….become a monster?" Edward asked quietly, making my heart skip a beat.
"No." I whispered against his chest. "I want to be like you, and you are no monster, Edward Cullen." Edward lightly pushed me away and stared at me.
"No, Bella. You don't know what I've done. I've killed people; innocent people. I've lied, murdered, coveted, and stolen. I am a monster. It's who I am."
"Why won't you do this for me?" I asked, pleading with him. "All I ask is to be with you forever. You told me that it would happen, Edward. But when?" Edward turned around; his back to me. "Answer me!" I said angrily.
"You really want this?" He growled, not turning to face me. "You want to have to live each and every day craving something you can't have?"
"I've already done that." I murmured, and his shoulders tensed. "I crave you, Edward. And when you left me….you have no idea what I went through. Who I became." We were both silent again, until Edward slowly turned around to face me.
"You could give all this up?" He asked, gesturing around. "Charlie? School? Angela, Jessica, Mike? Renée?"
"I'd still have you." I said quietly, intertwining my hands with his. "And that's all I want: To be with you forever and always."
I'm so, so sorry I'm ending this story so abruptly but I'm quite stumped on it. But realize that in the very few months I've been on the site, I've written approximately 110,000 words for my eleven stories?! Whew! But I want to thank everyone for their support, and if I ever continue this story in the future, I'll let you know. Always,
Xoxo- Melodyella aka Mellie