DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR ANY OF THE CHARCTERS IN IT. THEY ALL BELONG TO THE FAB STEPHANIE MEYERS.
Me. Or my life in a nutshell. I was never always like this. Just the past 2 years. 2 years since I left her. Bella. My Bella. The love of my life, well existence really. Without her I'm just a half of a person. Half of the man I could be.
I was happy, in love, but I left to save her. To shield her from me, from the pain me and my kind will no doubt eventually cause her. She had a right to a normal life….for a regular husband…kids….holidays in the sun and trips to the beach.
So here I am 2 years later and no more healed from that fateful day since it happened.
Even my family have had enough. They try to hide it from me, but they let it slip, that their tired of me digging myself in a hole and hiding away. In a way I feel like I've stopped them from being sad and feeling a sense of loss. They've had to be strong for me and I don't know what I would have done without them…we may not of talked but they were there. My only sense of love and family.
But we weren't the same family as we once were. They loved Bella. They all miss her as well. We lost one of us.
Esme, feels like she's lost a daughter, and Carlisle spends even more time at the hospital than he ever has before. Emmet isn't as bubbly, sure he has those days when he's happy and the old him makes an appearance, but never like he used to. Jasper is a mess trying to handle all the sadness and anger coming from everyone, but the one that has shocked us all is Rosalie, she misses Bella and feels guilty for being so mean. Finally, there's Alice. Poor Alice. She's constantly sad never jumping around and she hardly goes shopping. And it's all my fault!
Today, I thought I would make an appearance.
Its only time I did, all I do these days is sit in my room, thinking about her. About how much I miss her. About what our lives would have been like if I hadn't left and what her life is like now…whether she's met anyone who's replaced me yet?
As I walked down the stairs I felt, saw and heard the shock on my family faces.
"Whoa what's up little bro, you've actually moved?" Emmet was of course the first to break the silence.
Esme came next
"Hush Emmet!" as she said this Rose slapped Emmet on the back of the head and Esme came forward to embrace me into a hug
"I'm so glad you've come back to us" as she said this guilt racked my body and I could only imagine that if she could she would be sobbing.
As I looked up I noticed everyone was gathered around the table. A look of confusion crossed my face as I asked what was going on
Carlisle was the first to answer my question
"Why don't you take a seat son" as I moved across the room and sat down I noticed Alice looked slightly happy and everyone had a look of anticipation on their faces, as if they were looking forward to something.
On the look of confusion on my face he spoke again
"We received an invitation this morning, from Volterra. It appears that Aro is throwing a ball, well more of a party. We have no idea what it's for and Alice can't see anything. The only thing the invite tells us is that it's for someone called Elizabeth. We have no more information. We were just discussing if we should go or not"
On this my whole family looked at me, in the end I knew it came to my decision. I was the one who hadn't moved in the last two years, and they wouldn't go without me.
As I glanced around the table I finally saw the looks of happiness on their faces, they had something that could bring themselves back from the hole we had been living in. I'd still be miserable but I had to do this…for them.
"I think we should go" as I told them looks of joy crossed their faces. But I could hear their thoughts, ones of pity and fear for how I would hold up.
Alice shot up squeezed me into a tight hug and ran to get ready. From what I was then told we would be leaving in an hour and so everyone simultaneously left the room to get prepared.
As Carlisle moved past me I heard his thoughts
Thank you son, I know how much pain you are in, but thank you for helping the rest of them, thank you for being so selfless.
He simply gave my shoulder another squeeze and carried on.
The next morning, we reached the Volterra castle. Home to the Volturi of Italy. Royalty to the vampire world.
As I thought about this I had flashbacks to the day i sat on her sofa and told her how I would never live if she had died, how I would come here and give up my life because without her it was worthless.
As I shook my head to clear it of those thoughts Alice gave me a smile, and just then I remembered how much pain I had caused her. I took her away from her best friend, the only new friend she had made in decades and then I told her not to look for her in her visions. And then like the good sister she was she did it.
I couldn't hurt her any more, and that was when I made the promise to myself that I would never again be that selfish.
As we walked through the tunnels of the castle I lagged behind, not truly wanting to be there, to busy emerged in my thoughts of my love.
We were then met by Aro who insisted on a tour of the castle.
As we wound through the different rooms and listened to Aro ramble on I had the strange feeling that everyone in the castle was looking at us, and whispering to each other.
It was strange but I was just being paranoid. Why would everyone be looking at us, except for the obvious. We were a bigger family than most and we were vegetarians, but they'd seen us before and it had never been like this.
As I listened to the thoughts of my family they didn't seem to notice it, but they were just happy to be here.
Me on the other hand, I would rather be at home looking at my photo of her wallowing in self pity.
Aro suddenly brought us to another stop to show us a conservatory or something like that; I really had no want to be here.
Just then a little girl came running through the door.
At this gasps escaped from my family. How could there be a child??
She launched into his arms and a look of pure love crossed over Aro's face. We stood in shock staring on at this strange scene being played out before us.
"Gwamps!!!!!! Where have you been all day, me and mommy missed you! We were playing in the gardens, I'll tell you a secret though, she's too slow for me I even managed to hide and she didn't find me for agessssssssss" she had the sweetest little voice and all the women in my family were cooing at the cuteness of the gorgeous little girl.
Just as Carlisle was about to speak up, another voice was heard and at this all the breath escaped my body as my eyes bugged out. It couldn't be…
"What did I tell you about disrupting your grampie, he's busy today, showing guests………..around" just as she finished she looked up at us, she seemed to be surveying us with a look of horror on her face.
Everyone's thoughts were going crazy. It was Bella. Bella was here in Volterra, and she was a vampire, what was going on?
Both me and Alice took a step forward to approach her, but as we did she took one back. The hurt displayed across our faces, but I was still too shocked about what was happening to be too hurt at this moment.
As all of this was happening Carlisle was looking at the girl, but his thoughts weren't making any sense
Those eyes, just like his bright green, and her hair brown like hers but with his bronze tints, it can't be, there's no way, what is going on?
What did he mean? Who was he? And her? Who was Carlisle talking about?
I followed his gaze back towards the child and everyone seemed to follow. What was happening? What was Bella doing here and who was this child?
Bella still held our gaze as she spoke
"Sweetie why don't you go back into the garden and get a head start on hiding, ill be out in a sec" at this Aro released her from his arms and let her down, she started to runback towards the garden like Bella had told her when she shouted back
"Sure momma lets see if you can find me this time" and she chuckled to herself
Wait wait wait!!!!!! Did she just call Bella momma? Bella was her mother? That wasn't possible. What was happening?
Everyone turned to look at Bella before she turned to Aro and seemed to be glaring at him as he told her
"Daughter, I was just showing our guests around, they are staying with us for the party, it has been so long since I have seen my good friend Carlisle" again my family gasped as he called Bella, our Bella his daughter
My families feelings shone through their eyes as I saw Bella taking them all in, as she skimmed over Rosalie she had to do what seemed to be a double take as she saw the compassion, she truly seemed shocked.
What do I do? The love of my life has just reappeared into my life and I am just standing there like an idiot, before I knew what was happening her name escaped from between my lips
"Be..lla" it was only just hearable but I knew she heard as she took a step back. Again another blow struck me.
She then spoke to Aro
"We will be talking later Father" a short sentence but her meaning spoke loud and clear, she wasn't happy and I think everyone in the room knew why.
It killed me to know that my mere presence hurt her so much. I was only trying to do what was best.
With that she turned from the room and strode out as we all stared at her retreating form.
We all looked at Aro begging for answers but he merely stood his ground.
"well I fear the surprise is ruined, that was Elizabeth the birthday girl, and if I am not mistaken I think my dear friend Carlisle here has discovered what link she has to your family" with that they both turned to look at me
"What? What is going on? How does Bella have a daughter?" they both just continued to stare
Carlisle stood before me looking me straight in the eyes
"Edward, did you take a good look at that little girl? The resemblance between her and Bella was obviously clear, but there was someone else she appeared to be like" it was as if I was meant to know something
That child was at least three, but Bella had no daughter when we knew her, I was truly confused.
Again Carlisle spoke
"Edward, she has bronze in her hair, and she had your eyes…your human eyes" What?! What?!
"Edward I think she's yours!" with this he seemed to have a questioning look in his eyes, this couldn't be, we only made love once, when I knew I would have to leave her and just couldn't stop myself from sharing that one final part of myself and gave her every part of my love to show her just how much I cared, I hoped that it would some how show her that I never really wanted to leave or let her go, plus, I couldn't have children.
No! No! It just wasn't possible
Everyone turned to look at me and I didn't know what to do. Aro again ushered us out of the room after learning this as if I was just meant to take it in and accept it instantly and not have questions.
He then proceeded to tell us to feel free to walk about on our own as he had business to attend to. Everyone continued to walk but I was still trying to process this information. Carlisle told me that we would talk about it when we got back to the room and everyone else was still trying to figure out what this meant.
A little while later as we were walking down a corridor towards our room I saw the 2 of them coming towards us. The 2 most beautiful women in the world. Bella appeared to be in deep thought but Elizabeth, my daughter, wow that is strange to say, was dancing ahead.
She came barrelling towards us as I heard Bella take in a breath.
She then looked up at me
"hello my name is Elizabeth Jane Volturi" and then it hit me, Elizabeth, just like my real mother, I smiled to myself as I told her this and then wondered what that could mean, did Bella name her this on purpose?
This seemed to brighten her up as she started to ramble on all I could make out was
"Really that's cool. You're new aren't you? I haven't seen you before? That's my mommy over there" she the proceeded to point to Bella who was now walking towards us.
She told Liz to keep on walking which hurt a little, she didn't want her around us. I then followed her with my eyes and saw her jump into someone's arms.
Who was that? Why was my daughter so happy to see him?
As Bella walked past me I could not stop myself from spitting out my daughters name as if in question
"Elizabeth?" she turned and gave me a deathly stare as if I had no right to ask about her she then proceeded to answer.
"Yes. It's a beautiful name don't you think? I thought I would name her after someone in her family" as she said this I knew, it finally sunk in that I was infact a father. Me.
She then continued to stroll off and towards this strange man and give him a tight hug.
I couldn't stop myself from growling as I saw this. What right did he have to touch my Bella?
She then walked off with them both and left us standing there.
Alone in the hall, shocked and with questions brimming in our heads.
All I could think was
"I have a daughter"
ARRGHH! FINALLY ANOTHER CHAPTER! SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG I WAS ON HOLIDAY AND WASN'T ABLE TO WRITE.
I KNOW THIS CHAPTER IS NOT AS GOOD AS THE OTHERS BUT I SEEM TO FIND IT HARDER TO WRITE IN EDWARDS POV.
PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK AND HOW I CAN IMPROVE!
WILL TRY TO UPDATE SOON!