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Chapter 17: Guilt
After she was sure that King Charlie was asleep, Queen Renee quietly slipped out of their bed. She put on her robe over her long nightdress, and tied it loosely. She felt the pocket of her robe to make sure the key that she had put in there several days before was still there. Once she confirmed that it was, she turned on the bathroom light and closed the door, so that if King Charlie woke up and noticed her absence, he would think she was just in the bathroom.
Then she quietly opened their bedroom door, making sure it didn't stick, and stepped out into the hall closing the door softly behind her. Queen Renee padded down the hallway, and down the stairs, careful not to make any noise. She opened up the front door, and slipped outside.
Once she got outside Queen Renee walked past the guards, making it seem like she was going to the Grand Garden. When she got out of their view, she took off in a run off toward the side of the Garden. She stopped when she reached the shed that was off to the left of the Garden, where the ride-on lawn mower and garden tools were kept.
This is where she and Phil had been meeting for the past several days. Queen Renee had taken two keys for the shed from King Charlie's key safe-one for Phil and one for herself. Inside the shed behind the ride-on lawn mower there was plenty of space for she and Phil.
Queen Renee looked around to make sure no one was watching, and then took the key out of her pocket. She quickly unlocked the door and stepped inside, closing and locking it behind her.
Queen Renee turned to see a smiling Phil standing on the other side of the room. She grinned and shimmied past the ride-own lawn mower, and threw herself into his arms and kissed him.
"Hey," Queen Renee whispered.
"How was your day?" Phil asked.
Queen Renee sighed. "Painful. Things between Bella and Charlie are extremely tense. You can feel the unhappiness and the anger in the air. I hate seeing Bella so upset."
Phil sat down on a blanket that he must have lain on the floor earlier. He pulled Queen Renee down next to him and wrapped his arm around her, pulling her close. "That's too bad. But I thought that things have been that way for a long time?"
"They have, but these past couple of days it's been even worse," Queen Renee explained. "Two days ago Bella overheard Charlie basically telling me that the reason he wanted Bella to be with Mike, was because he knew that Mike would make a good king someday. And that he didn't want her to be with Edward because of how it would look for the kingdom. She blew up at Charlie, and things have been awful ever since."
"I can't believe that's why he wanted her to marry Prince Mike," Phil said, disgusted. "What an asshole. You know, if I didn't have such a good reason for staying, I'd quit."
Queen Renee couldn't help but smile. "I'm glad that you are still here. I'd go crazy if you weren't."
"I know, that's why I stick around. I don't want any lost lives on my hands," Phil teased.
Queen Renee chuckled. "Anyway, enough about my miserable day. How was your's?"
Phil laughed, and started into a funny story about something that happened at work that day.
Queen Renee wasn't sure how long they talked for. Conversation with Phil was just easy, and she enjoyed talking to him. It wasn't awkward or uncomfortable like talking with King Charlie was. She didn't have to watch what she said, she could express her opinions on anything freely, and talk about how she felt about things. When she was talking with Phil, Queen Renee laughed easily, and felt light and happy. Sometimes she almost forgot about all of the stress in her life.
Phil had just been telling a story about something that happened when he was a teenager, when he smiled and cupped his hand against her face. "You're so beautiful. You know that?"
Queen Renee smiled and leaned in to kiss him. She pulled herself into his lap, and took off her robe, tossing it to the side. Understanding what she wanted, Phil laid her down on the blanket and kicked off his shoes. His leaned over her, and she leaned up to meet his lips. Their lips moved in synch to each other, and Phil's hands were all over her. Queen Renee pulled up Phil's t-shirt, and he helped her by taking it off. Queen Renee ran her hands over Phil's toned stomach and shoulders. Phil was very fit, you had to be to be a guardsmen.
Queen Renee felt like she was bursting with happiness. The feeling filled every part of her body, and she wasn't sure how it all stayed in her. There wasn't anywhere she'd rather be than right there with Phil. The only thing that mattered at that moment was she and Phil, and how good they felt.
Phil lips traveled down from Queen Renee's lips to her neck. He ran his hand up the back of her thigh, and grabbed the end up her nightdress, sliding it up. Queen Renee helped him pull it up over her head, and then Phil tossed her nightdress off to the side. Their lips met again, and Phil's hand began to slide up her side.
Then they heard a noise in the distance. It had sounded like someone shouting. They both froze, and listened. Neither of them seemed to be breathing, and fear ran through Queen Renee. Had they been caught? Her heart pounded loudly in her ears, and she thought that she could almost hear Phil's heart too.
"Renee!" It sounded like Charlie's voice, and it was far away.
They both cursed and shot up, frantically pulling their clothes on.
Once she had pulled her nightdress over her head, Queen Renee pulled open the blind of the only window in the shed and looked out. King Charlie was nowhere in sight, and she could only see the high rose bushes of the Garden. She guessed that he had probably gone into the Garden.
"I have to go meet him," Queen Renee whispered frantically.
Phil's eyes widened. "What?"
Queen Renee fumbled with the ties of her robe. "I'm not going to tell him. I'll make it seem like I was just in the Garden."
Phil nodded. "Okay, good idea."
"Don't leave until at least twenty minutes after I have," Queen Renee told him.
Phil nodded, and Queen Renee took off quickly towards the door. Phil grabbed her hand and pulled her back.
"What?" Queen Renee asked.
Phil leaned in and kissed her. "I love you."
Queen Renee smiled. "I love you too."
Then she quickly went around the lawn mower, and unlocked the door. Queen Renee went around the small shed, and watched around the corner. Once she was sure that there was no one around, she took off in a sprint toward the back entrance of the Garden.
Queen Renee ran quickly through the Garden, her bare feet slapping against the cobblestone path. She had to go a good way into the Garden, so that King Charlie would think she had been in there for awhile. After a few minutes, she stopped to catch her breath. Once her breathing had returned to normal, she started walking.
Sure enough, after a few minutes she heard King Charlie's voice calling her name. Queen Renee sighed, and felt agitated. Of course King Charlie had to come and ruin her night with Phil. She knew that she had to deal with him though if she wanted to keep seeing Phil.
"I'm here Charlie!" Queen Renee called.
King Charlie came into view down the path, and ran toward her. He had on had pyjamas, with his robe on over them.
"Renee, what are you doing out here?" King Charlie demanded, out of breath.
"I couldn't sleep," Queen Renee stated.
King Charlie gave her a exasperated look. "Well you could have left a note. I woke up, and you weren't there. I thought that you must have been in the bathroom, so I tried to go back to sleep. When you never came out, I knocked on the door and found out that you weren't in there. I've been looking all over for you."
Queen Renee frowned. "Charlie, you know that I like to come here when I can't sleep. What, were you worried that I was trying to escape? Just like Bella?" When King Charlie didn't answer and his expression hardened, Queen Renee scoffed.
"Well I'm sorry that I was worried when I woke up and noticed my wife was gone," King Charlie snapped.
Queen Renee sighed, feeling guilty. She had no right to get mad at her husband for finding her while she was cheating on him with his employee. "Sorry. I'll leave a note next time."
King Charlie's expression softened. "That's all I'm asking."
They were silent for a couple of minutes. It was awkward, and they didn't really know what to say to each other. Queen Renee wondered what happened to the days when they never ran out of things to say to each other. Back when it was never awkward or uncomfortable to be alone together.
"Anyway," King Charlie said, clearing his throat. "I think I'm going to head up to bed. Are you coming?"
The thought of going back to bed seemed impossible to Queen Renee. She was much too awake. "No, I think I'm going to stay out here for awhile."
King Charlie nodded, and turned to go-but then he stopped. He turned back around, and the look on his face made Queen Renee feel uncomfortable. It was soft, and full of love. He came up to her and wrapped his arms around her waist.
"What is it?" Queen Renee asked.
King Charlie gave her a slight smile. "Look Renee, I know things haven't been very good between us lately. You don't agree with what I'm doing to Bella, and we've been fighting all the time. We've been looking at each other as the enemy.
But I want you to know that you're still the best thing that's ever happened to me. And that I miss you. None of those things have gotten in the way of how much I love you."
That moment was the first time Queen Renee ever felt truly guilty about cheating on King Charlie. She had felt bad about it sometimes, but never for long, and not that much. The feeling twisted in her stomach, and her eyes dropped from his. Even though he was stubborn, pushy and selfish, King Charlie had never done any wrong to Queen Renee. He had only ever loved her, but she didn't return it back.
Queen Renee wasn't sure how she mustered the small smile on her face. "Thank-you."
King Charlie smiled. He didn't even notice her lack of response about her love for him. Or if he did, he didn't show it. Queen Renee was grateful for this.
When he leaned in and kissed her, Queen Renee had to force herself to stand there. It seemed wrong to her to kiss anyone but Phil. Which was ironic considering the man kissing her was actually her husband.
She felt nothing as King Charlie kissed her. There was no happy feelings, or butterflies like there was when she kissed Phil. Just a pressure on her lips. She waited for it to be over.
King Charlie pulled back and smiled. "Okay, I'm going to go back to bed. Are you sure you don't want to come?"
Queen Renee nodded, all of a sudden feeling like she wanted to cry. She wasn't sure why, but the feeling was there. "Yes, I'm sure."
King Charlie nodded and kissed her quickly once more before heading back toward the castle. Queen Renee crossed her arms, and watched him go, trying to swallow the lump that had appeared in her throat.
Once King Charlie was out of view, Queen Renee turned back and started looking for a bench, fighting tears. When she found one, she sat down and tried to pull herself together. But then the tears just overflowed and ran down her face. She choked out a sob, and put her face into her hands.
It didn't make sense for her to be upset. Queen Renee was cheating on King Charlie. If anyone should be upset, it should be King Charlie. If he knew, that is. She should be happy. Maybe a little guilty, but happy. She should feel joyful and light, free of her loveless relationship with her husband. So why was she crying?
Queen Renee realized that she still did feel the things she should, but at that moment all of the guilt she had been ignoring poured down onto her. Before she was able to shrug off the guilt, because of the way King Charlie had been acting. But when he said those things to her, she felt horrible and guilty. It reminded her that King Charlie did love her-even if she didn't love him.
So Queen Renee just let herself cry, hoping to rid herself of these feelings so she could go back to being happy again.
Wow, another chapter ending with a crying person. Sorry if I'm depressing you guys here! Haaha. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it! Tell me what you think.