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Prologue

It had been five years since I last saw the Cullens and a lot had changed. Edward was no longer a part of my life but I had something to remind me of him. I had my babies and they were the most important thing in my life. They filled the huge hole their father left in my heart when he left, but I still suffered. It still hurted to think of him and sometimes when looking at my kids I could see the resemblance between them and Edward. That always brought memories that I wanted to keep away for the sake of my sanity.

A week before my birthday Edward gave in and pushed away the boundaries he had carefully set. That day I had asked him if we could go to our meadow. As always he didn't waste any time. He liked those peaceful moments as much as I did, when we couldn't be interrupted by Alice's bubbly personality or Emmet's booming laughter. We got carried away but I don't regret one second of it.

Flashback

"I like it so much here; it's so beautiful, so peaceful." I commented while taking in the meadow. I could never get tired of looking at it. Every time we came here I would notice something I hadn't the last time.

"It's nothing compared to you." I could fell my blush creeping to my cheeks." I love when you blush."

"Well I love you, every single part of you." I said looking deep in his eyes. They were bright golden. He had just gone hunting the night before.

"I love you too Bella. My Bella" He said bending forward to kiss me. This time, instead of pulling away like always did, he deepened the kiss. I was surprised but soon forgot it. Only he could make me feel so alive and loved.

That's when he threw all his boundaries through the window. I was now laying under him. He was supporting his weight with his arms in order not to hurt me. He kissed me again, more urgently now, until I could no longer stand the lack of oxygen. As I caught my breath he started kissing my neck. He had never gone so far but I wasn't going to complain. I wanted him more than anything.

"Bella maybe we should stop."

"Why?" I asked breathlessly "You don't want to?"

"Of course I do. God Bella! You can't imagine how much I want you. I'm just afraid of hurting you. I don't know if I'll be able to… stop myself before I hurt you. I don't know if I can control my strength…"

"Shh!" I said placing my finger on his lips "I know you won't hurt me. I trust you."

"But…"

"No! I love you Edward! And I trust you. You won't hurt me."

"Are you sure you want to do this?"

"I never wanted anything so much. I love you Edward!" I said looking into his deep golden eyes. I could see the lust but mostly the love his eyes held. That made me trust him more than anything for I knew that his love for me would stop him from hurting me.

End of Flashback

A few days later came my disastrous birthday party followed by their departure. I still didn't know how his feelings could have changed so suddenly. Maybe what happened that afternoon had ruined our relationship. Maybe we had done it too soon. But as I said I don't regret it because if that had never happened I wouldn't have my beautiful children.

After they left I was so broken I thought I would never live again. I just wanted to die. When I found out I was pregnant, two weeks after they left, I didn't know what to think. The first thought that came to my mind was that the test was wrong. It wasn't possible for vampires to have kids. Edward was a vampire. How could I be pregnant?

It was a very difficult time and I would have never survived without Luke. He is a vegetarian vampire (and a doctor) and has been with me since I found out I was pregnant. He took care of me and helped me through my 'extremely dangerous pregnancy' as he put it. It may have been dangerous but what else had I left? The least I could do was giving these children a chance to live, even if it cost my life. I knew that if something had happened to me, Luke would have taken good care of them and try to find the Cullens. He's like my older brother and has helped me a lot taking care of the triplets. They are my family and my life.

That period passed and now I have the most wonderful children and the best brother anyone could ask for, and I loved them with all my being.


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