DISCLAIMER: No matter how much I wish I owned CSI NY and the hotness that is Danny Messer, I don't. All rights belong to CBS but if they would like to donate Mr Messer to me then I wouldn't complain at all and I promise to look after him.

A/N: This is and A/U fic so Lindsay works at the crime lab but isn't married to Danny and they don't have a child together. Please read and review.

WARNING: Contains some swearing in later chapters.

SUMMARY: Lindsay Monroe has a secret which she can't tell anyone about but when her world is turned upside down, will Danny forgive her for lying and be the friend that she need his to be?

TITLE: The Secret Life of Lindsay Monroe.


The Secret Life of Lindsay Monroe – I Wish I Could Tell You

The crime lab was unusually quiet as Lindsay Monroe walked down the corridor. The soft murmur of gossiping lab techs made her smile as she heard Chelsea, one of the newer technicians, telling Adam about how she had a date with her next door neighbour who looked amazingly like Orlando Bloom but as she rounded the corner, all hell seemed to brake loose. Danny flew down the corridor and nearly knocked her over, glancing back over his shoulder and shouting down the corridor to her, "Sorry Montana!"

Lindsay simply rolled her eyes but gasped when Stella and Mac nearly did the same. Stella however, unlike the men, stopped and grabbed Lindsay's arm to steady her. "Sorry Lindsay, we've umm…we've got a new lead and we have to hurry up; our suspect is heading for the airport."

"Well good luck with that." She offered Stella an understanding smile and watched as the older woman chased after Danny and Mac. "So much for a quiet day." Turning around, she headed for the staff room and smiled when she saw Hawkes sitting reading a newspaper. Pushing open the door, she walked in and pulled a bottle of water out of the fridge before sitting in a chair opposite Hawkes.

He looked up and smiled at her before putting down the article he was looking at. "Hey Lindsay."

"Hey, anythin' interesting?" She gestured to the newspaper with her head and he shook his head.

"Not really but I finish my shift in half an hour so if I hide out here then I might be able to leave on time." She let out a small chuckle and he made himself more comfortable in his chair. "So what brings you here? You on a break?"

"No there's nothin' for me to do." He raised an eyebrow and a confused expression crossed his face. "Well Stella, Danny and Mac are on the only murder case of the day and Adam's been workin' overtime to make money for his holiday so there's no evidence to process…I've never been so bored in my entire life before."

"I know the feelin', when you want a day off it's too busy and when you don't need one there's nothin' to do." She nodded and leant back in her own chair, letting her eyes flutter closed. "You okay?" Concern filled his voice and she nodded.

"Yeah, I'm just a bit tired; I haven't slept properly for the past few days." Opening her eyes, she looked over at him and gave him a reassuring smile. "I'll be fine." He eventually nodded and let it drop, knowing that he would get nothing else out of her.

Half an hour passed pretty quickly as the two made light conversation and Hawkes looked at his watch before a wide grin crossed his face. "Well, I'm done for the day…what time d'you finish?"

Looking at her own watch, she groaned. "I have another three hours of this." He smiled sympathetically and rested a hand on her shoulder before giving it a light squeeze. "Well you go and enjoy the rest of your day, just remember me while you're out havin' fun." He laughed as she threw him a teasing smirk.

"I will, I'll see you tomorrow Lindsay." She nodded and he left the break room, heading for his locker so that he could get his coat and bag before leaving. Lindsay meanwhile, stood up and headed for Adam's lab, determined to find something to ease the boredom.

On the way over however, she walked straight into Danny who was walking the other way. "Would you watch…?" He trailed off as he looked down and realised who it was. "Oh hey Montana, you okay?" He held out a hand to her and waited for her to react.

"Yeah, sorry I should have watched where I was goin'." Taking his hand, she got to her feet then straightened her shirt and smiled at him. "Thought you'd gone with Stella and Mac."

"I did but when we got to the car they told me to wait here and find somethin' productive to do." She nodded then looked around at the empty corridor. "I'm lookin' for somethin' to do I swear." Holding his hands up defensively; he laughed and looked at her with a raised eyebrow. "So what you doin' anyway?"

"Umm, lookin' for somethin' productive to do actually." Her words were laced with annoyance and concern filled Danny's cobalt eyes.

"You sure you're alright Lindsay?" Taking hold of one of her hands, he pulled her against the wall and looked intently at her.

"I've just not been sleepin' too well, I'll be fine." He wasn't convinced so laced his fingers with hers and pulled her back to the break room. "Danny, I've just come from here."

"Well now we're back and you've had a nice walk." Pushing her gently into the room, he managed to get her to sit down in the same chair which she had occupied a few minutes ago. "Talk to me Lindsay."

"I…what do you want me to say?" Her voice was defensive and Danny knew that she was hiding something.

"What's wrong? You haven't been yourself these past few days Montana and I just wanna help." Sincerity crossed his face and she sighed before leaning back into her chair.

"It's just family stuff; you don't need to worry about me." She tried to keep her voice steady and he nodded, not wanting to push it.

"Alright I'll let it drop but if you decide you wanna talk about it then you know where I am." She nodded and stood up, heading for the door once again. "Hey Lindsay?"

Turning to face him, she raised an eyebrow and grabbed the door handle. "Yeah?"

"You know I'm always gonna worry about you anyway, you're my best friend…just wanted you to know that." His voice was soft but his rougher Staten Island accent still came through and she smiled.

"I know Danny, thanks." She opened the door but didn't walk through it, walking back over to Danny instead. Leaning up on tiptoes, she kissed his cheek and whispered in his ear the six words he had never wanted to hear from her. "I wish I could tell you." With that, she left the break room and headed for the locker room, needing to get her emotions back in track as she felt a tear slip down her cheek.

Danny meanwhile, sank into a chair and covered his face; wondering just what kind of secret Lindsay was keeping from him. He came up with all sorts of horrific ideas but decided that rather than going behind her back to find out, he would try to fix things between them instead. Pulling his cell phone out of his pocket, he quickly typed a message and pressed 'send' then leant back into his chair and waited for a reply.

Pulling the phone out of her pocket, Lindsay opened the message and smiled. It read, 'Montana, we don't have to talk about it but can we go out for a drink tonight; just wanna spend time with you?'

The message Danny got back read, 'See you tonight cowboy; would love to go for a drink.' Happy with her answer, Danny jumped out of his chair and headed for Macs office to see if he and Stella were back yet; the wide smile on his face not slipping once.


A/N: Thanks for reading, please review and let me know what you thought about this chapter. I'm not sure it worked personally but the story will get better as Lindsay's secret is revealed but what is she hiding? Anyway, reviews make me update quicker ;)