Hahaa, it's your Eveliina here again. Yes, I'm not updateing my gravitation-story, I don't know how to contunue it, but do not be worried my sweetheart, when I get the right kick into my butt I will. So this is my first Death Note-fiction ever!! And I'm really exited about it. I felt so sad when I wrote the first chapter.
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DEATH NOTE: The Fear

Chapter 1: Pray it won't fade away

By Eveliina

Remember those wall I build. Well baby, they're thumbling down. And they didn't even put up a fight, they didn't even make a sound.
I found a way to let you in, but I never really had a doubt, standing in the light of you halo, I got my angel now.

It was raining.

It was raining hard.

I stood on the roof of the Headquarter, my eyes locked on the cold and gray sky. The time had come, and I felt it. I felt it in my heart.

I had done something, something that many of us couldn't do. I revealed the biggest secret, resolved the hardest mystery. I just didn't get the words out of my mouth. I couldn't bring myself to do it. And maybe I didn't want to. Maybe I was satisfied to the fact that he knew he had lost.

I won, but I didn't feel any pleasure from it.

I didn't accept it.

I didn't want to accept that…

YAGAMI LIGHT WAS KIRA

Everything started from a little sparkle and now something burned inside me, burning me alive.

Rain was beating my face, I felt a hot tear building into my eye and rolling down to my cheek.

I hadn't won completely, even thought I caught Kira, had Kira got something from me. Yagami Light had won my heart. So we were even. We lost, but we still won.

Light Yagami… Yagami Light…

I wanted him. I needed him.

We two were completely the same, except that our sense of justice was only thing to separate us. I admired Light's intelligent, his genius which reached up to my level. I admired his looks. His beauty which somehow fascinate me.

And now I had to give up all that. I had to give up the only friend I have ever had. I had to stifle the fire inside me.

I had to give up my love, for my world. For my justice.

I didn't want it.

In the corner of my eye, I noticed someone moving.

A blink of honey-like brown hair and a piece of white collar-shirt. Yagami Light had followed me to the roof. I looked at his direction.

"What are you doing out here, Ryuuzaki?" He scremed, but because of the rain hitting so hard on the roof, I didn't hear a word. I rose my hand to my ear.

"What are you doing out here, Ryuuzaki?" He repeated, surely a little bit louder, but I still didn't hear his voice. I couldn't stop myself, when a smile climbed into my lips at the same time when I rose my hand once more to my ear, telling him I didn't hear his words.

So Light stepped into the rain.

When he got next to me, he asked again.

"What are you doing out here, Ryuuzaki?"

I couldn't meet his glance.

"Nothing worth mentioning. The sound of the bells…"

"Bells?" Light said and looked at me for a long moment.

I looked into the sky to cover my tears.

"It's gone."

Light stood silently next to me. I gathered my courage and looked straight into his eyes. Rain beat down into our faces, but we didn't care. Light knew his victory. Light also knew his lost.

The raindrops made their way down to his face. And I swear that a part of those pearls were tears.

For the first time, in the whole time we had been together, I saw the fear in Yagami Light's eyes. The fear he didn't even want to hide behind his mask. He knew exactly the same as I did. Of course he knew, we were the same. Dare I saym that we were soul mates. Soul mates, never getting each other.

He knew.

Had knew for a long time. That I love him. And he loves me too.

I stepped one step closer to him.

I wanted to comfort him, tell him that everything is going to be ok, that there was nothing to be afraid of. But I couldn't lie. I couldn't. And Light knew it.

His plan had failed him. And he didn't noticed it soon enough.

We shared something different, something that no one couldn't understand. Only we knew it. And Light didn't want to let go of it.

He fought back, he tried to repress one's feelings. But for nothing. I noticed his inner fight in his heart.

We fought back, against our feelings, but when the darkness climbed into the sky, we couldn't resist the temptation. We waited for a right moment. And when it came, was Light's kiss so passionate, that it scared me.

That kissed started Light's road to destruction.

We never took our feeling to the next level, because we knew it was wrong.

But now, on the roof, it didn't matter anymore. Everything would still be over.

I placed my other hand on his back if his neck and I stroke his wet hair. He pressed his forehead on my forehead. I stepped closer, just a little bit.

And I kissed him gently.

I stepped backwards, so I could see his face one more time. I stroke his hair, cheeks and lips. He looked straight into my eyes, and locked into the them. He looked straight into my soul, with those brown eyes of his.

We stood there a moment, which felt to short. A moment which should have last forever.

He pressed his forehead again onto into mine. I felt his warm breath on my face when he whispered:

"It's time to go."

I nodded. I knew it. It was time to front the other task members. It was time to say goodbye to Kira. It was time to let go of Light. And it hurt.

I swore I'd never fall again. But this don't feel like falling. Gravity can't forget, to pull me back to the ground again.
Feels like I've been awakned. Every rule I had you breakin', the risk that I'm takin'. I'm never gonna shut you out.


AUTHOR'S NOTE, PLEASE READ:

So, I want to explain the sound of the bells a little. In anime L says he hears the bell, from the church. He knows he is going to die. But on my story, he doesn't hear them. He realiizes that his life is not in danger anymore, no need to repair a funeral for him. His happy about that. But, he knows, that obviously Light is going to die, due the crimes he had done. And that makes him cry. Light and L have developed their relation ship little by little, and I hope I can wrote some flashback strating from next chapter.

Song used: Beyoncé - Halo

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