A/N : Okay so it's been a long while since I have written anything. I figured the best way to start up again is to add on to something I have already written. I have been on meds for the past 5-6 years so my imagination kinda went out the window. Med free now and I am so happy I can write again. I will let you know that my spelling sucks ( mostly from being in the hospital more then school while growing up ) But my best friend (Kiera) looks over my work now before I publish. I promised an update soon but I was out with the flu all week last week so I didn't get much done. I have four chapters done so far and I finally finished the first smut with C/B. Also YAY I finally went to Forks this past summer and went on a hike to 2nd beach. :-D

I would also like to Thank Trya ViciousNightGoddess/viciousviolet for being my 100th review. I love you guys so much for pushing me to write.


Wednesday came and went. I never saw Dr. Cullen again. When I got home from the appointment that day, my mom was waiting at the door crying. I don't really remember what all she said between her tears, sniffling, and blubbering. The only word I could recognize was eviction. Apparently my hair brain mother forgot to pay the rent three months in a row.

I guess after Phil left last year things had been going downhill for a while. When the electric got turned off last June I had picked up a part time job at some outlet mall to help with the bills. But apparently that wasn't enough. I had never been so devastated in my life. I was going to have to say goodbye to my sunny life in Arizona. After everything that had happened in the doctor's office, I thought things were starting to look up. With Jacob back in La Push and him being my only true friend besides my mother I wasn't really leaving much behind. I mean I wanted to eventually go to college here and I was already accepted into ASU. There wasn't much we could do.

After consoling my mom, I went up to my bedroom to make a few calls. And sadly Dr. Cullen wasn't one of them. I talked to Jacob for over an hour. He told me we could stay with him but I laughed at the thought. He lived in a two bedroom cabin with his disabled father who was also my birth fathers best friend. That's when Jacob told me to call my dad, and If I didn't he would.

So that's how I ended up here; in the rainy town of Forks. My dad converted the basement into a master bedroom with a walk-in closet with an attached bathroom, so my mom could have the bedroom next to his. In the beginning I thought he was reading too much into it. I didn't think we were going to be here for long. But in the end I wasn't reading enough into it. My mother and father were back together and Jacob found his dream girl, someone named Leah. And yet again I was alone.

I was surrounded by happy couples, and my doctor hundreds of miles away.


3 years later

"So do you think he'll ask me out?"

"Huh?" I was jerked out of my thoughts of one of the many sexual fantasies about Carlisle when Alice took a breather to actually ask me a question. Usually I was good at just nodding and agreeing to pass as a good friend.

"Did you hear a single word I said?" Alice stopped in the middle of the school's crowded hallway with her arms crossed tapping her foot. All she needed was a tail and cat ears and she would look like a cute little kitten. I guess it works on everyone else when getting what she wants but for me…..I just wanted to hug her, take her home, and give her a bowl of milk. I almost laughed at the thought.

"I'm sorry Ally, you know with exams coming up I can't keep my mind straight." I whined, knowing what buttons to push. "I mean seriously who decided to put the alphabet into algebra. If I fail I'm going to lose my whole tuition. I was lucky I got a free ride to begin with."

It was a low blow but it always worked. I love Alice as much as anyone could love a spoiled rich girl with the energy of a toddler on speed. But she was now my only companion in Seattle, and she's the kind of person you can't help but love…or hate depending on the day. And seeing as we're dorm mates I sort of had to put up with her but I didn't mind.

"I'm sorry Bella, your right. I just can't get him out of my head. He's so romantic. The other day I found a dozen yellow roses in my locker. Now, how he got into my locker to begin with, I'll never know. You know, now that I think about it maybe…." And this is where I start to fade out again.

I continued to nod and agree until we made it to my favorite class. English Lit; with Professor Whitlock. Damn he was sexy. I mean nothing compared to my Doctor but…..He was a close second. Although I think he has a thing for Alice. It was kind of creepy at first but I got used to it. I don't think Alice knows, and I'm not going to be the one to tell her. The last thing I need is for Alice to get kicked out of WSU for getting caught fucking the teaching in the middle of exams week.


"I hate you." Alice whined as we got our fuel for the rest of the day in the food court.

"What'd I do now?" Alice always had a reason to complain about something. So I wasn't worried.

"He's staring at you again."

"Ugh!" I paid for both mine and Ally's food before heading to one of the empty tables as far away from stalker boy as possible.

"You can have him Alice; He kind of gives me the creeps."

"Oh come on, you can't say you haven't thought about it. I mean look at his hair. Who has hair that nice who's not a model?"

"He's a brooder Alice, It comes with the territory." They all look the same to me. Even if Edward wasn't a fictional character, he could pull it off.

"And please do tell. What the hell are you talking about?" I could tell she didn't really care as her eyes were zeroing in on the one and only James Gordon. I still couldn't understand her interest in him. Sure he was hot, and he knew it and used it to his advantage. Right now he seemed to only have eyes for Alice, and seeing how they both always got what they wanted, I could only see it ending badly.

"Think about it Alice, Use that thing in your head that people identify as a brain." And here comes the stink eye.

"Let me explain. Angel; from Buffy the Vampire slayer is a brooder. Stephen; from The Vampire Diaries…again, a brooder. Now please, do me a favor and look at Mr. Mason and tell me what's so different?"

"Uh, let's see." She stated while flinging a pea at my nose. "For one, I'm sure he's not a vampire, and two, He's a real person." She looked at Edward and it dawned on her.

"Bella honey, you really need to get your head out of the books. You're never going to find a Damon or Spike if you keep turning everyone down. We have been best friends for almost three years and I haven't seen you date once. If it wasn't for your attraction to Spike and Damon I would say maybe you were looking at the wrong sex." She looked at me with pity in her eyes. "But hey on a brighter note, maybe I can get Mr. Big Hair Brooder to open up." She pushed up her boobs, cleaned her teeth with her sleeve, grabbed her fruit cup and left to do just that. I could tell it was more for show to make James jealous, and from the glare he was giving Eddie Boy, my guess would be its working.

When I first met Alice, I think I actually hated her. After moving to Forks it only took me 3 months to get back out. As soon as I realized we were staying I applied to WSU and got an acceptance letter a month later. My mother had bought me an 'I'm sorry' car. Since Seattle is over 3 hours away from Forks, I applied for a dorm mate and that's where I met Alice Brandon, or Mary when I'm mad at her.

At first I thought she was the Cordelia to my Buffy. However, I soon found out she had a lot of baggage she was hiding. She always wears a mask of peppy happiness in front of people. But the first night alone together we got really shit faced on our other best friend Jose, and that's when I learned firsthand to never judge a book by its cover.

When Alice was fourteen she got hit by a drunk driver on her way home from school; she was in a coma for 3 months before waking up with amnesia. She couldn't remember anything before the accident. I mean, she knew her name and she knew who her parents were but she lost just about all her friends. All the friends she couldn't remember forgot about her. No one cared enough to try and help her remember and put themselves back into her life. So she acts happy and plays along, but really she's still that confused teenager wondering who she really is, and where her friends are. So I promised myself that I would always be there and never leave her like everyone else. I also entrusted her with my doctor. That way she always has some type of safety net to keep me in her life. For some reason it makes her feel better, though we both know she'll never use it against me.

I may never see Carlisle again. But that man tainted me. He was so high on a pedestal that no other man could reach it. Just in that short period of time we were together he left more than marks on my body. He was deeply imprinted on my heart.


A/N: I know it's short and nothing really happens but hey it's a start. I'll have the next chapter up soon. This will also be in multi Pov's

R&R please. I need to know if this is worth finishing. *HUGZ*