Ok, I know I suck at replies and updating but Real Life kicked me when I was down. I want to thank everyone that review, read and alert me and this story. You all have kept me sane through this. To my girls, you know who you are. You hold a special place in my heart. Thanks Erin for my TayLau fix. Ash thanks for listening to me rant about everything.
That being said I have to say now that Jess in this story is 8 going on 9. What she says in this chapter is a combination of things my 8yr old son said. It may be out there but it is true. Please don't hate me too hard. Bonus points to those who can tell me where this song comes from.
As always I don't own Twilight but I wish I could have Tay.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, venom lacing each word. "You left us. You didn't want us anymore."
"I didn't leave you sweetheart. Your mother and I were having problems. I love you and your brother, nothing will ever change that." How dare he?
"You smug ass bastard. The only thing that went wrong in our marriage was you and the fact that you couldn't keep your dick in your fucking pants." My mother yelled as she crushed my body into hers. I felt the tears fall from her eyes onto my cheeks. "Don't you dare come in here and tell her that you never meant to hurt her. Tell her the truth dammit. Tell her how you never wanted to be with us. You only wanted Candy. Tell her how you were the one that dragged Jake into this. Which, by the way I should thank you for. Seems like you were able to get at least one thing right."
"Daddy" I yelled calling the one person I knew who was able to earn that title. "Daddy, please help me."
I felt my mother tense at my words. She thought I wanted him to take me away from her. I looked up into her eyes to see the hurt that my words caused. Oh God how I wanted to take her pain away. I didn't mean to hurt her but I wanted my daddy to wrap his arms around me and take the nightmare away. I had to make her understand that the person I wanted was not in this room at the time. Just as I opened my mouth to tell her this I heard the voice of my true father ring through my ears.
"Jess baby, what…" The words fell into hushed whispers as Daddy took in the scene before him. "What the fuck are you doing here?"
"I'm here for my kids. I didn't stop loving them and you can't keep them from me."
"I don't want you. I want my daddy. I screamed as I pulled out of my mother's arms and ran to the only man I knew loved me without reason. I ran into the arms of my true father, Jacob Black. "Daddy please make him go away. I don't want Edward here." I sobbed into his chest. He shushed me running his large hands through my hair, quietly telling me that he was here.
"Jess baby, come to me. He is not your father. I am."
Rage rose to my chest and stung my heart. My voice became calm and filled with pain. "You gave me up when you left my mother. You have no idea how bad it was do you? All you wanted to do was be with Candy, you didn't want me or Brian. You are selfish and you are not my father." Even I was shocked at the calmness of my voice. "I had to watch mommy everyday crying over you. She didn't eat; she wouldn't even talk to us. You hurt Uncle Em, you tried to hurt mommy and you didn't give a damn about me. I was supposed to be your Princess. Well fuck that, not anymore."
"Watch your mouth young lady. I am still your father and you will respect me. Do you understand? Jake is a whore and he is not your father. You have my blood flowing through your veins not his. You will show me respect."
"Oh that's rich coming from you, Edward." I said stressing the fact that I refused to call him what he wanted. My mother looked on with pride in her tear filled eyes. I wiggled out of daddy's arms and walked slowly over to stand before Edward. I grabbed his hands and put them around my neck not caring that I heard the soft gasps behind me. "If you love me, like you say you do then show me. Choke me like you did mommy. I saw the finger marks around her neck. Is that how you show your love, Daddy? Are you going to call me a whore like you did with her? Why Edward, why did you leave us? What did we do that was so wrong?"
"Honey you did nothing wrong. I messed up. I am so sorry baby, please forgive me" He begged. "I just want you and Brian to be happy. Please say you forgive me?" He said as he lowered his hands to his sides.
"No Edward." I cried. "It can't be that damn easy. You are not my father anymore. You gave me up when you walked out. You have another life and another family. One that you chose to have. Jake is my daddy now. I may have your blood in my veins but that's where it ends. Our eyes are not the same, our hair is not the same and there is no way in hell I want to even see you again." I crossed the room and looked into the deep brown eyes of Jacob. "Jacob, will you be my daddy now?"
Edward sobbed out a 'No Honey'. Mommy just sobbed and Jake picked me up into his arms, crushed me to his chest and gave me the best present I could have ever hope for. Today was the day that Jacob Black became my father and I became his daughter.
"Yes pretty pixie, I would love to be your daddy, I love you Jess." He said his voice thick with emotion. Momma joined us in our embrace and I fell into the sea of new family. Uncle Em came in followed by Brian and Leah. Brian rushed to our sides, looked up at daddy and smiled.
"Daddy, why are you crying? I thought we had fun at the mall. Mommy we had fun at the mall. Auntie Leah came and we went ring shopping with Uncle Em." He said with a bright smile on his face. "Mommy what does Ice Bitch mean?" He asked. Mom's eyes went wild and Edward took that time to make his presence known to Brian.
"That is no way to speak about a lady, young man. Never let me hear those words come out of your mouth again."
"Then leave and you won't hear them." Brian shot off. Uncle Em's booming laughter rang out through the house as he headed in the direction of Edward.
"So Eddie" He laughed. "Thought you could crawl back into their lives huh? Judging by the look on your face someone handed you your ass. Which one was it?" He asked with amusement coloring his tone.
"Jess." Was all Edward could manage before his body was racked with sobs. "What have I done? Bella I am so sorry. I will give you whatever you want but please can I at least have your forgiveness. I know I don't deserve it but I have nothing left anymore. Candy left, she took everything. I'm so sorry. I am going to my mother's for the time being until I can get back on my feet. Please don't shut me out Jess. I will take you all in my life as you see fit but please don't leave me too." He said with defeat lacing his words.
Part of me wanted to forgive him but I was too mad and stubborn to do so right now. Momma glanced at me, nodding her head in my direction pointing me to my room. I quickly grabbed Brian's hand and took him into my room. Raised voices started as soon as the door was closed.
The time spent walking around the mall with Emmett, Brian and Leah seemed like months passed. After my talk with Brian this morning and knowing that he saw Edward spying on them I was not really into the whole shopping mood but I promised Em and Bri that I would be there for them. Once Brian was satisfied with the rocket launcher and Em with the ring he wanted to get for Rose, I begged them to leave. I had to get back to Bella and Jess. Something wasn't right.
I was on pins and needles the entire drive back to the house. I couldn't shake the feeling that something was off. When we pulled into the driveway I heard the yelling, I didn't expect the voice however. Jess was yelling "Daddy, please help me." I jumped out of the car not really knowing or caring if the damn thing was in park yet.
""Jess baby, what…" I yelled. I froze, rage taking over ever nerve in my body. There in front of my face was the one man I swore I would kill if he ever came around again. ""What the fuck are you doing here?"
"I came for my kids. I need them, they are still mine. Jess baby, I am your dad. Come with me please. You are all I have left." Edward pleaded while trying to mask the pain he was feeling. I almost felt sorry for him in that moment. Almost.
"No Edward." Jess cried. "It can't be that damn easy. You are not my father anymore. You gave me up when you walked out. You have another life and another family. One that you chose to have. Jake is my daddy now. I may have your blood in my veins but that's where it ends. Our eyes are not the same, our hair is not the same and there is no way in hell I want to even see you again." My heart ached for her and the pain that I knew she was holding on to. Her next question shocked me. "Jacob, will you be my daddy now?"
I don't remember too much after that. My only thought was that I loved this child in front of me with my whole heart. She hugged me once again before she grabbed Brian by the hand and led him out of the room. I snapped out of my stupor as Bella started yelling again.
"You shouldn't be here. If the police come then you go back to jail. You cheated on me and threw us way. Go back to your other family cause we don't need you anymore." Bella cried. She backed up into my arms leaning her head on my chest and latched my arms around her. I ran my fingers across her arm willing her to calm down.
"If that is how you feel then I won't bother you again baby." Bella flinched at the use of the word from him but otherwise stayed silent. Edward hung his head, crossed the room and slipped out of the door.
Leah broke the silence by uttering the words that started the second war of the day. "I knew this would happen. Thank God I gave him that number when I did huh? Now I don't feel so guilty that I gave Eddie boy Candy's number." Her hand flew to her mouth as understanding flashed through everyone's eyes. Leah was responsible for everything.
Oh shit. Bella snapped out of her trance and even Em couldn't stop her as she lunged towards Leah. "You started this? You were the one that turned my life to hell? How dare you, you backstabbing bitch. Can you not stand to see me happy? How could you do this to me? To your God children. Get the fuck out of my house. I never want to see you again." Bella cried, struggling against Emmett's grasp.
"Bella please, I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I only wanted what was best for you honey. Please forgive me." Leah begged. "Please don't throw me away too. I just wanted you to be happy. I found out about Jake and I knew you two would be perfect for each other. Damn what he did for a living. Truth is you were his second client. I followed him just like he followed Edward. Jake is what you deserve. Please don't hate me for trying to give you what I knew would make you happy."
"Get Out." Bella screamed. "Save your bullshit stories for someone else. You and Edward really know how to fuck up lives don't you. Only now I don't know who I should hate more; Edward for cheating on me or you for giving him the skank he cheated with. Em let me go and take the kids somewhere other than here. Jake we need to talk."
Yes I know I did it again. Don't hurt me too bad. I will be hiding under my covers trying to dodge the flames. See you soon. Hit the button and tell me what you think.