My attempt at an angsty songfic! I don't really like them but I felt that this one should be done. to all those who are waiting for the next few chapters of Abby's Collage, i've got a bit of a writers block on that story sorry! ill update really soon though!

John Mayors dreaming with a broken heart!! :)

Tony's eyes shot open. He glanced around but didn't see what he was looking for.

Ziva.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

she had left without a single word of goodbye to him. His heart had torn into when the plane had left without her. It was all his fault. He had let his feelings get in the way.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

She would never come back. At least no where near him she wouldn't. He had killed her boyfriend. Even if Rivkin was just using Ziva, he had broken her heart and he knew it.

He hated himself for it. All he did now was think of Ziva. If she was ok, if she was coming back, if she would ever forgive him. He didn't care if she came back just to kill him, because maybe he deserved it.

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Baby won't you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Tony climbed back into bed, his eyes glinting with unshed tears. He soon fell into an uneasy sleep, praying he would never wake again.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

there you go! Tell me what you think and don't be shy!!! :)