This is my first song fic I have ever done for BtVS so please bear with me folks and don't forget to review and let me know what you thought about it. I might continue it if I get at least three reviews. I'm working on another Buffy fic called Blue Eyes but that one is in process of re-fixing so for those of you who read it sorry! _ still working out the kinks to chapter two guys.

Summery: takes place after the 'Big Fight' in Angel. Spike heads back to England and Buffy finds out about him being back so enjoy

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Spike stood on the stage in front of the small crowd in the pub. A glass of Jack Daniels in one hand and a microphone in the other. He had decided to come here after arriving back in London. He felt he had no place back in Los Angeles so he parted ways with Angel and managed to get a job in a local pub to help him get enough cash to move around and stay on the down low. He didn't need anymore people finding out about him still kicking the can around, unless Andrew told the watcher or the slayer then there would be sum problems there.

The owner of the pub offered him the room upstairs in exchange for protection from demons and vampires who might cause trouble at the pub. He also got to keep any tips given by the lovely ladies that visit the pub on karaoke night. So here he is right now in front of the stage taking a request for a customer. He took another sip of his drink and brought the microphone to his lips.

How are you feeling

Do you feel ok?

Cos I don't

He closed his eyes and let the music wash over him, pumping him up like when he used to fight demons and the slayer.

It keeps me reeling

Will I ever be the same?

No I won't

Spike had flashbacks of when he and the Scooby-Gang fought against Glory to save Dawn, he felt helpless when he couldn't save Buffy when she fell of the tower, to going up against The First in Sunnydale and Buffy admitting to loving him. It pained him to tell her that but he knew he had to finish so she wouldn't have to fight anymore.

It's a cold day in a cruel world

I really wished I could've saved you

Then who would save me from myself?

Right now, well, I could use a stiff drink

To kill the pain that's deep inside my bones

He pictured Buffy and the Immortal together and thought that she might have been better of with the Immortal than sum hopeless romantic souled vampire like him. He would never be able to give her a family and a warm home or walks in the beach by the sunset. He cursed himself for being a vampire but then again he wouldn't of met her. All he could do now was have a drink and just continue on with his mission.

Have you been dreaming?

I don't dream at all

I have nightmares

Memories careenin'

Have you come to kill what's left

Of my smile

There's no vacancy in paradise

I really wished I could have saved you

Then who would have saved me from myself

Right now, well, I could use a stiff drink

To kill the pain that's deep inside my bones

I really wished I could have saved you

Then who would have saved me from myself

I really wished I could have saved you

He yelled into the mike letting out all he was feeling with the song. At times he could relate to some of the songs he sang, they were his way of letting out all the emotions he had trapped within him.

I'll never forget you,

I'll never forget you,

I'll never forget you,

I'll never forget you.

He thought of the Dru, Buffy, Dawn, Red, even Harris and the Watcher. He knew that for as long as he unlived he was never going to forget them. Specially nibblet and Buffy.

I really wished I could have saved you,

I really wished I could have saved you,

I really wished I could have saved you,

I really wished I could have saved you.

After the last few notes ended he bowed and went to place the microphone back in its place. "Thank you everybody and remember if you have any request just ask the bartender for the list and if your bloody brave enough then head on up and sign in for a turn" he said then winked at the crowd of woman coming up to the stage. He got off the stage and headed to the bar to relieve the poor sap for a break. " Hey James I'll take it from here you can head out to your break mate"

"ah thanks man, you think you could handle it?" James asked and pointed behind him to the crowd of woman forming.

"I think I got mate but head on out or else Lily would throw a fit again." Spike smirked at him and began to prepare the drinks ordered. It was going to be another interesting night.