HI! Okay this was based the week after Edward left in New Moon the day Bella comes back to school. I thought about her having to study it with Edward, but I decided it would be more heartfelt putting in this time of new Moon. Enjoy!

Disclaim: I don't won twilight (I had 2 say it or I might be spending a long time of my life on a hard bench and lose a lot of money!) I may not own twilight but I sure have fun writing stuff about it!

"Okay class, this term we will be looking at the Spanish influenza and the impact it had in Chicago." Our history teacher Mr Launter said.

I felt as if someone had just stabbed me in the chest. All I need now was for someone to remind me about. I felt as if I was going to cry-again.

"I want everyone to research a person who died and about their life before they got ill. Also iI would like people to work in partners." He said. I knew this was going to be bad. The school

bell rang and I rushed out of the classroom and headed towards the cafeteria. Angela caught up from behind, "What happened back there? I saw it, you looked like you were going to

cry," she asked.

I shook my head, "Nothing happened, I was just thinking of-"

"Of him?" She interjected, "I saw how you both looked at each other, how much love was there. It was different than anything I ever saw. What happened to that?" Her questions I could

not answer, the pain no one could have ever felt. The numbness covered the pain, but Angela's questions had no answer I could tell. For the rest of my life I was going to fell this pain,

the secrets that are not mine to tell I have to hold onto.

I will not forget, nor will he. She was waiting for my answer, "It's not my secret to tell, nor my story to share." I walked away from her. I did not look back, but I knew her eyes followed

my back.

Not my secret to tell, not my story to share. This is going to hold me for a life time. I sat down at the table with only an apple and a drink.

Jessica sat down nest to me, "So what was that about with Angela? She told me what you said. So...what is this secret?" she asked.

I started to shake my head from side to side, "No, no, no! Can't you see? I can't tell anyone! I'm stuck with this stupid secret; this secret has a story which is mine not to tell! The secret is

holding my down and keeping my head swallowed into to it! I can't take this anymore!" I yelled, Mike, Eric and Angela joined the table at when I started my last sentence.

"What do you mean you can't take it anymore?" Eric asked. I started to cry, "That's the thing. I can' tell you guys. I can't tell you anything anymore without it having to be wrapped

around some lie. A lie that I have been included in too. If I could I would tell you, but when I say this and listen clearly." I started to sob. I didn't have much control right now, how could I when half of my mind was dead? Half my inner being was gone, like something i knew was missing but I couldn't but myself to think of it, knowing it would bring me pain.

"I cannot tell you anything!" I . "Have you guys planted that in your stupid freaking minds?" The words barley came out as I sobbed.

Angela put her hand on my shoulder, "Bella?" I turned my head towards her, "Can I speak with you? Alone?" She asked silently with sympathy in her eyes and

tone. I nodded, finding that I couldn't say anything with out it coming out in tears.

We headed outside, the clouds were cstarting to come over and made the sky without a single drop of sunlight. Thunder crack and lightning hit the earth. I stared at the sky, I didn't

realise that Angela had started talking.

"Bella? Bella?" She said and waved her hand in front of my face.

I turned to her, " What?" I said, my voice was filled with no emotion.

"Bella, I need to know what's wrong. Or I can't help you." She said, just I didn't ask for help, but she went straight there and is trying to help. That is so Angela. "Look," I took a breath, "I

don't need help. I'm fine. Really."

"Okay," she said, sympathy was still there in her eyes tho. "But if you need anything, anything at all, maybe you need to talk to someone or you need to tell someone something-" I knew

where she was heading with this.

"Angela! Listen," I said and now I stared into her eyes to get it clear, "When I say I can't tell anyone! I mean it!" I didn't like doing this to my friends, but if it got the message in, hopefully

they would forget all abouy them.

"This must be hard then?"

"Yeah, it is."

"Okay then, well do you want to do the report together?"

"What report?"

"The one we got about five minutes ago. You know the one in history about the Spanish influenza."


"Okay then, see ya around then,"

"Okay," She headed back inside while I headed towards the library.

Him had told me about what he remembered; I knew some, but not enough.

OKay, this chapter has recently has in the day i published it, i edited it, so only on or two people are effected. Well the second chapter will be up in two minutes:)