I laid in the hospital bed knowing this was the one moment in my life Mr. Hart couldn't take away from me. As I held my baby boy tears started forming in my eyes. I couldn't believe Tyler and I brought him into the world. "Vi, do you have any ideas for a name?" Tyler asked me.

"How about Joshua Taylor?" I said.

"Perfect." He said as he kissed my forehead which was drenched in sweat.

"Ty you wanna hold him?"

"I would love to." And with that he took Josh from my arms and I fell asleep. Labor is a lot harder than it looks.

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"Mama. Book peaze?" My 1 year old asked me as he pulled at my leg.

"Okay. Go pick one out." I said as I shooed him away. He spent 3 minutes looking for a book and finally chooses "Put Me in the Zoo". I tucked him into bed and began to read it to him. By the time I got to page 20 Josh was fast asleep. "Goodnight my love." I whispered to him and then I kissed him on the forehead.

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I sat in the doctor's office with my 2 year old crying his aqua blue eyes out. "Josh it's gonna be okay. The doctor's not gonna hurt you. He just wants to find out what's making you feel so bad."

"Really?" He said with his head still down.

"Yep. He just wants to make you feel better so we can play hide and seek again. Now put on a brave face for mommy, please?"

"Okay."

"Joshua Newstead." A nurse said.

'Yes?' I said.

"The doctor will see you now."

"Come on buddy." I said picking him up. "Hello Dr. Steve."

"Hi Violet, hey Josh." Dr. Steve said. "So what seems to be the problem today?"

"Well Josh has had a fever around 102 the past 3 days and he says his head, throat, and stomach hurt."

"Well it looks like he has that flu bug that's going around, but I'll have to draw some blood to make sure."

"What does that mean?" Josh asked.

"He's just gonna give you a small poke and get that red stuff that comes out." I said.

"Oh."

"It might hurt a little bit. So do you want to sit in mommy's lap?" He nodded his head up and down. Then he climbed up in my lap. He closed his eyes and Dr. Steve took his blood. "You're a brave boy Josh." he said. "I'll be back in a minute. "

"You're mama's big boy aren't you?"

Yep." The doctor came back a few minutes later and told us Josh had the flu. We came home and Josh fell asleep as soon as his head hit the bed. I tucked him in and gave him a kiss on the forehead. "Feel my better my brave little boy"

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"Ty will you get Josh ready while I take a shower?" I asked Tyler one morning. Today Josh was coming with me to work.

"Sure honey." He said, than gave me a quick peck on the lips. When I got out I saw Josh in his superman t-shirt and blue jeans.

"Sweetheart go eat some breakfast and by the time you get done we'll leave okay?"

"Okay, Mommy." It took me 20 minutes to get my hair dried and get dressed. But luckily Josh had just finished so we got out the door pretty fast.

"Kathy, I'd like you to meet my son Josh."

"Hi Josh. "Kathy said to my 3 year old. Josh just waved.

"I'm sorry he's just shy around other people." I said.

"It's okay. Tommy was the same way until he started pre-school."

"Hey Violet who's this little boy?" Doralee asked as she came in the office.

"This is my son Josh. Josh this is Doralee." Again Josh just waved. "Doralee do you think you could give Josh a little tour since Mr. Hart's not here."

"Wait he's not here?" Doralee said in shock.

"Yah he called in sick today." Josh spent his day at Consolidated until naptime with Doralee. After his nap he watched me work.

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"Josh are you ready for pre-school?" I called up the stairs.

"I think I am. Can you check?" He said as he came downstairs.

"Sure. Crayons?" He nodded yes. "Notebook?" He nodded yes again. "Pencil?" And for the last time he nodded yes. "I think you're all ready to go."

"Come here big boy. Give daddy a kiss before you go." Tyler said. Josh did as he was told and kissed Tyler on the cheek. "Have fun at pre-school Josh."

"Okay Daddy. I love you."

"I love you too, Josh."

8 hrs. later.

"Tyler, I'm home." I said as I walked in the front door.

"Hi sweetie."

"Hi mommy." Josh said.

"Hey baby. How was you first day at preschool?"

"It was really fun. We played games and colored and there's this really cute girl named Sally who played wit me."

"That's great honey."

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