This is my first attempt at writing a story, I hope you enjoy it.

It is set 5 years after Rose left the Academy and everyone behind her.

Chapter 1... Loving is hard

The mountain was still snow capped, even though it was July. I sighed...I came here often in the last 3 weeks. It was my place of peace. I watched the ripples in the water, and saw the reflection of the purple pink sky almost disappear into the dark. I dug my toes into the sand...it was still warm from the hot day. "Ok time to move" I said to myself. Putting my socks and boots on, I rose. I took a deep breath in, relishing in the crisp clean air. It was time to move on...he isn't here. I felt sick, I was sure he was here; all the signs lead me here. I took one last look at the mountains that I loved and would miss.

I turned...and he was there. His broad shoulders, his lean muscles, his beautiful brown hair, his perfect lips...his gorgeous red eyes... wait red eyes...no no

" Roza" he whispered his eyes meeting mine. I froze..All I can see are those beautiful red eyes..I could get lost in those eyes..They are only for me.

" I love you Roza, how I have missed you. You have missed me haven't you?". He smiles

"Yes"...oh my have I ever..I say.

" You want to come with me don't you?" He smiles again. Oh that smile I could melt.

"Yes!" I sigh.

"You want to become like me, a strigoi don't you?" He breaths out.

"Oh yes!" ..Wait ..What..For some reason that makes me stop. I can't remember why, but it does.

He blinks, and my brain slams in my head. I shake..My whole body shudders.

"Dimitri" I whisper. I look down and the whole world makes sense again.

"Roza...I.." he stammers eyes wide. I smile, yes I have caught on...compulsion. I bring my guard back down and it's like a veil over my brain.

"No Dimitri, your compulsion isn't working". I say

" Oh Roza, I have missed you". He smiles, taking a step towards me. My hand moves to my stake, strapped to my side. His eyes follow my hand, and he stops moving.

"Roza, what are you doing? It's me..Dimitri..Your Dimitri!" He says eyes wide, and hands in front of him.

"No! You are not my Dimitri. You're a blood sucking murderer. My Dimitri is dead." I say smiling at how I know, I have not followed his plan.

"ROZA, I LOVE YOU! I want you to join me, come with me. We can be together for eternity. I am not dead, I am right here. " He says with a fake concerned voice.

" NO! You're not my Dimitri, but your right you're not dead..But you will be soon." I looked at him, his eyes burned with anger.

"YOUR MINE! YOU WILL BE MINE FOREVER! I WILL KEEP YOU CLOSE TO ME. I WILL HAVE YOU, YOU CAN'T JUST WALK AWAY. NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO I WILL FIND YOU!" He yells at me.

I looked at him, he was so angry. His fist's were balled up...his stance was rigid...his eye brows were furrowed...his mouth was cocked to the side...he looked like a very angry god. Except his eyes..They were red and wide... they danced at me..Like flames threating to jump out at me. He looked like...a monster.

"NO! I AM NOT YOURS! YOU ARE NOT HIM! YOU WILL NOT HUNT ME, BECAUSE I HAVE HUNTED YOU! I AM HERE TO TAKE DOWN THE BODY YOU HAVE TAKEN! I COULD NEVER LOVE YOU...I HATE YOU!" I screamed at him.

"You take me down?" he asked. He laughed..A very hallow laugh. Empty of love, passion, longing..But mostly living.

"YES!" I yelled, and with that I lunged at him. I flew through the air, punching him in the face. He flinched, but didn't move. Shit..Not good. I swirled around to kick him, and he caught my leg lifted and slammed me to the ground. Pinning my wrists with his hands, and my body with his. He smiled at me.. Oh god, those fangs.. How did I think I could beat him. I was going to die. I had let everyone down, I promised too much to... Lissa, Adrian... but the one that hurt the most was Dimtri. I promised him I could save him, and I couldn't. He sank down into my neck..Oh god it hurt. I screamed.

I swallowed hard, faces flashed in my head..Lissa...Dimitri...Adrian...Christian...Eddie. Over and over again, going faster and faster. These were the people I promised and I have let them down. I couldn't beat him, I wasn't strong enough. Now I was going to die!

Memories started to flood into me; the first time I saw him, practicing in the gym, the conversation in the van, the night of the lust charm, being in his arms, the cabin....words in my head. Yes Roza, I did want you. I still do. I wish...we could be together, oh Roza, I love you, if you were turned into strigoi what would you want...I would want to die..ME TOO! The words...oh how they hurt...they screamed in my head.

I looked at Dimitri as he raised his head from my neck. Oh how I loved him.

"Dimitri?" I whispered.

"Yes Roza" he smiled..And that's when I saw his fangs. Coated in blood... in my blood. Something snapped inside me. NO...NO...NO...NO! I stopped struggling, he must of taken this as a sign as me giving in. He loosened his grip on my wrist. I looked deep into his eyes.

"I love you" I whispered. He looked at me satisfaction on his face. I snapped my wrist back...grabbed my stake...and plunged it into his chest. Exactly like he taught me. He looked at me...his eyes were brown. Smiling at me he breathed in and said;

"I love you...you saved me". And then he closed his eyes, breathed out...and died.

Tears streamed out...as I laid there and held him. I had done it. I killed the man I loved.

I woke screaming "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" Looking around I took in my surroundings. I was in a room..Painted light green. A closet with clothes and shoes... a nightstand with a lamp, alarm clock and cell phone on it... and a small three drawer dresser.

I sighed..I remember now, I am in Russia. It was another dream..It felt so real...it was real...it had happened. Just not last night..It had happened three years ago.

Hope you like it..please read and review..honest reviews are very welcome!!!

SK