Vivian woke up the next morning with her bed empty. Gabriel had probably left to go out and get everything settled. She slowly sat up and wrapped her arms around her knees. She rocked back and forth slowly and took a moment to register everything in. She was not only the head bitch of her pack, but she had a blooming relationship with Gabriel, and she had to deal with the fact that her mother was getting way too serious with Tomas. She wasn't sure if her reasoning behind disliking Tomas was because he was well…over the top, or because he was not her father. She'd talked about her father with her mother before, but she never really sat and thought about how everything made her feel.
This was nice, a moment to sit back and relax, alone. Not that she minded being in a pack of course. They were her…family, except for Astrid of course. She shook her head. "Don't think about her, about them…any of them." She whispered to herself. "It's time to move on, toward the future" She already knew she was changing, growing up more. 6 months ago, she never would have told Bingo off, or voiced her opinions to Kelly. And she definitely would not have been able to face Aiden. Not without crying. It was difficult being the leader, rather than staying independent, in the background. Now she could not complain she could not make mistakes. She could not slip up and allow any of the pack members to assume that she was weak, or they may try to replace her. She did worry about that of course. As much as she wanted to push it out of her mind, sometimes thoughts of not living up to her parent's ability to lead. Not making her father proud. Her…pack proud;
She was so confused about everything. How to be an alpha; how to know what to do with a man far more experienced than her in more ways than one; and most of all, how to get over that…human for once and for all. She had no intentions of leaving Gabriel of course; she was starting to enjoy what they had together. But when you truly believe you love…loved someone, you couldn't just snap and get over them just like that. She considered asking her mother how she got over her father, but she figured one of two things would happen. Either her mother would burst into tears, or she would accuse Vivian of attempting to say something bad about Tomas. But maybe that was just it, maybe her mother had never gotten over her father. Vivian bit her lip, worriedly. What if that meant that she would never get over…him? That couldn't be the case could it? "No, NO." she muttered to herself. "Their bond was much stronger than ours; they did…more than we did." She convinced herself.
She also considered talking to Gabriel about all of her thoughts as well, seeing how they were mates, but she figured he'd either think she was rejecting him, or longing to return to…to…Aiden. If she knew Gabriel though, he would hide it. She smirked. He'd give her the best advice no matter how much it hurt. Because that was how he was. It was part of what made him a great leader. It was also a quality she had decided earlier that she would have liked to mimic. It was just that everything was moving too fast. How do you pretend everything is okay when you're simply so lost? Part of her didn't want to ask Gabriel. Part of her didn't want to see too much into his vulnerable side because he was supposed to be her rock. He was the confident, sexy alpha male that she'd always be able to count on. She decided then, she wouldn't tell him, she would learn to be strong, like him.
She relaxed the hold on her legs, and leaned back, thinking some more, before stretching out of bed, and throwing on some clothes. She headed toward the kitchen, and pretended to yawn, in case anyone was out there. It was better for them to think she had just woken up rather than sitting on a bed for who knew how long. When she entered the kitchen she saw her mother sitting on a stool, smiling to herself. When she heard Vivian's footsteps, her head snapped up, and she smiled at her. "Hello there Vivie" She said softly. Vivian approached her cautiously, wondering if she had possibly overheard any of the conversations between Vivian and Gabriel about the possible move. She took a deep breath and gave her mother a small smile, hoping to make it look like she wasn't thinking of ways to approach an explanation.
"Hi" she blurted out. "How is everything?" She ducked her head slightly, and began playing with her hair nervously as she sat beside her mother. When she felt her mother's hand pat her back, comfortingly, she raised her head, and finally looked into her mother's eyes. Her mother could not have possibly known a thing because she was smiling wide. She looked extremely eager to tell Vivian something. "What is it?" she murmured. "Um, where is your um, your…Tomas?"
"He left, went for a walk" she smiled. "Wanted to give us some alone time so that we could talk." She brought Vivian's hands onto the counter, and placed her own hands on top of Vivian's. "Vivian" her mother began to say excitedly. "I have something to tell you." She smiled. Vivian cautiously replied:
"Um, I have something to tell you, a-as well" she said slowly. And her teeth were suddenly on her lips again. A radiant smile lit up her mother's features.
"Okay, well you first," she said almost giddily. Vivian was not falling for that trap. She didn't want to wipe the smile off her mother's face just yet.
"No," she said at first to herself. And then she said it again, to her mother. "No, I'd rather you begin, you go" she said timidly. Luckily her mother was too excited to notice how uncomfortable she was. How did you tell your mother who you lived alone with for years that you were planning on moving in with Gabriel, let alone accepting him? She had made a point to keep her and Gabriel's relationship private, at least private from anyone who might spill it to her mother before she had gotten a chance to let her known. She would have told her earlier, if Tomas wasn't everywhere she turned her head. It was a bit of a relief having a bit of a break from him.
"Okay. Well, Tomas and I are…having a baby." Vivian's eyes widened. "Yup, we've been trying for a little while now." First she took a moment to register the shock, and then she couldn't help the sarcastic words that fell out of her mouth.
"So…THAT'S what all of those sounds were" She let out a nervous laugh. Her mother however found this amusing and simply patted her head as if she were a child.
"Silly-silly Vivie," she sighed dreamily, removing both of her hands from Vivian and unconsciously rubbing circles on her belly. She suddenly snapped to attention and grinned at Vivian. "Ask me how Tomas took it," Before Vivian could open her mouth to humor her mother, Esme had already continued. "He was ecstatic! Extremely excited, and we thought about it, and I think it's time he moved in with us on the big move." Vivian was tempted to scoff and make a comment about how he practically lived here already, but she figured now was a time as any to break the ice. She knew she'd never end up doing it if she continued to put it off.
"Well" Vivian piped up. "Speaking of moving in—" but her mother wasn't listening, she was too excited at the moment. Vivian watched as her mother got up out of the stool slowly, clutching her belly, as if she were months pregnant. Vivian sighed, there was no use now, she figured she may as well head back to her room and think some more until Gabriel returned. Maybe they could tell her together. They were a couple now…sort of, so they may as well begin doing things together. Well, more…things together than they were doing. Not that she minded.
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