It's been a month since Edward left me. It caught me so off guard and I don't think I can ever get over him. In the past month nothing has happened. Well, I guess I can't say nothing happened I lost weight from not eating, I have lost touch with any previous friends, and I don't care anymore. I don't care about anything. I continue to take care of Charlie cooking and such. I can tell he's not happy with me. I know it probably hurts him to see me like this. I can't help it I'm nothing without him. Nothing.
I don't feel like hanging around the house. It stuffy and I hate it a need air. I grab my key and head for my new car. Yes, a new car. My truck died when I tried to kill myself three weeks ago. As far as anyone else is concerned it was an accident. I kind of like my new car. I got a Volvo because it reminded me of the Cullens. Of Edward.
I drove past all the local shops. I needed to go somewhere where I'm comfortable. I needed to go to my second home. I pulled in to the Cullens house. I hadn't been there since they left. I open the front door and walked in. Some of their stuff they had taken with them. A lot of furniture was still there. Edward's piano was still there. I put my fingers over the dust-covered keys. I liked how they fit perfectly there. I press down and listen to the high-pitched ringing it made. TO my surprise I was crying. I missed they way he used to play my lullaby for me. I wished I could here it again. I missed the way his arms wrapped around me. I had held back by silent tears but now let them turn in to full out sobs. I lay down on the piano bench wishing only to be in his embrace.
"Bella?" asked a voice behind me.
I screamed and fell off the piano bench.
"Jasper", I said getting up. "Why are you back?"
"I was sent to get the remainder of our things. Bella you look like shit." He said his face apologetic. " Is this all because of Edward?"
All I was able to do was nod.
"God, he caused a hell of a mess for all of us." Jasper talked not seeming to be directly addressing me.
"What do you mean I thought you wanted to leave me." I said through silent sobs.
"Come on, Bella. I know you're not stupid. None of us wanted to leave you. Edward thought it would be best. He wanted to keep your from getting hurt. Didn't he tell you that?"
"He also told me he didn't love me." I whispered.
"Your Kidding" Jasper said. I shook my head..
"Come on Bella. I'm going to take you back with me."
"Jasper, he doesn't want me" I protested. I didn't want to have my heart broken again.
"Of Course he loves you. He has always loved you. The entire family loves you." Jasper almost yelled.
" Wait! Change me"
"What….Bella I can't"
" I don't always want to be the fragile human. I want to be like you. I don't want to be vulnerable. The reason Edward left me is because I was human." I cried.
"Bella, I don't think I'll be able to stop" he protested.
I guess my weak pleading eyes won him over because the last thing I remember it a sharp pain in my neck.