] -- [My Life Would Suck Without You] -- [
Paul: Chapter 03
'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me and honestly,
My life would suck without you
Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you
His head bowed slightly, I guess this means you're sorry…
My eyes trailed his form- he looked horrible like he hadn't slept or eaten in a while. His hair was messy and yet he still so beautiful to me. My throat was growing dry, "W-why are you here?" it was a mere whisper but he heard it.
Yet he said nothing, he did nothing and continued to stand there head bowed in silence.
I forced myself to retreat back into the cold shell, "Why are you here…"
"I'm sorry…" it was a quiet whisper that only I could was forced to fall from his lips.
My eyes grew in anguish, "Why? Damn it why? What happened to the 'I'm never coming back,' why are you here now?" I moaned.
He stared at me the warmth back in his eyes once again, "Please… Nikki I-"
I winced quickly saying, "Don't call me that…"
He flinched slightly at my tone but complied, "Nicole- please I didn't mean it, I didn't mean any of it…"
"Then why say it all? You can't do this type of shit to me!"
"Please forgive me… I was just stressed and-" he was desperate; I knew that, he often used that soft puppy tone with me whenever he felt guilty for something he did to me. I would always forgive him when it was the tone.
Not this time though. "That's bullshit!"
"I'm sorry okay! I didn't mean it damn it!"
My lips twisted into a nasty sneer, "You never would have said it if you didn't you jerk!"
"Shut up and listen to me Nicole!" he snapped, eyes narrowing.
I scoffed with a cynical chuckle, "Fuck you Paul, you can't make me do anything I don't want too."
"Damn it Nikki I'm trying to-"
"I don't give a shit, you're wasting my time! You wanted someone normal didn't you? Well go find someone normal then!"
It hurts to repeat the words you fed me that night.
"I didn't-" but I cut him off.
"You liar! 'I want someone else, anyone but you and the problems you cause me!' Remember that?" I shot back heatedly bringing up his own words.
"I said I was sorry!" he snapped tersely.
I laughed bitterly, "Words! Empty words considering they're coming from your mouth. Get off my property!" I shouted my resentment boiling.
He faltered looking at me in surprise, "What?"
Did he really think I would just pretend this never happened?
My anger grew as I felt the sensation to harm something fester in me, "Get the fuck off my property or I'll blast you off of it and I'll fucking enjoy it!"
He was tense, his lips marred in a frown and his eyes showed desperation, "No, we belong together Nicole and you fucking know it!"
Forever united here somehow…
I scoff glaring into the seemingly desperate eyes, "So when I say it, it means nothing but you say it and all of a sudden it's the law? I don't think so!"
Please leave… it hurts so much…
He growled in frustration, "Damn it Nicole please stop making it harder than it is."
You're not one to swallow your pride.
I shook my head holding on to the door, my eyes felt tired and I wanted nothing more than to be snuggled deep in my bed away from this mess. "Go away!" I shout desperately, my eyes wide.
Please just go away, I don't know what to do…
"No! Listen to me!"
My head shakes again, my eyes still wide, "Go away! Just go away damn it! Go away!" I repeat over and over like a broken record as I hold in my tears.
There's a rush of footsteps, "Paul stop it! She's getting hysterical!" Collin cried out holding on to my arms.
He faltered momentarily before he tensed and snarled, "What the hell are you doing here?"
Collin only scoffed glaring, "I'm making sure she doesn't kill herself no thanks to you!"
I saw his body shaking slightly but the tremors subsided, "Stay out of this!"
"Not when she's on the verge of self-destructing! She's my friend too!"
My head throbbed horribly at all the screaming, my hand pressed against it lightly before I yelled, "Shut up both of you!" I wheeled around finger pointing at the staircase "You go upstairs and stay there!" Collin only sneered at Paul.
Glaring at him until he conceded I turned back to my current problem, "You leave Collin alone and get off of my property!"
Looking indignant he glared at the staircase, "He has no right to be here, you're my imprint not his!" his voice was cold and angry- the hints of possessiveness normally thrilled me but now it only cause my blistering rage to grow.
You did this remember…
Flexing my hand out of habit to hit something I returned his glare, "You broke up with me remember you have no right to be here anymore!"
He sighed deeply, his fists were clenched tightly as he replied desperately, "I said I was sorry!"
I scoffed indignantly, "And I said that sorry isn't good enough, so good bye Paul!"
His eyes darkened as his lips pulled back into a cruel snarl and he slammed his hand into the door frame with a resounding crack before shouting hatefully, "Fine screw you! Go get killed by some demon for all I care!"
I flinched at the loud crack, my head throbbed at his words but I was a prideful creature and I'd be damned if I let his have the last words.
"I hope a leech kills your sorry ass!" I shout in anger before slamming the door shut.
My breathing was heavy, there are tears of frustration and sadness in my eyes as my legs give out on me and I slide down the door abruptly. My head hit the door, tears pour down my cheeks and I screech as loud as my vocal cords let me, releasing this manic-depressing-miserable-stabbing at my heart pain. I sob and I scream ignoring the angry howls of the wolf as it drifts farther into the woods. My nails dig into my palm drawing out blood as I cry hysterically… I know Collin is watching me with pity in his eyes.
But I really don't care because the further the howls sound the more my head throbs and my heart bleeds, because as he runs away he's taking a piece of me…
Seconds later my whitelighter orbs in looking frantic, I see the way he falters as I curl up on the wooden floor crying hysterically, my palms bleeding, my eyes vacant, and my body limp except for the jerks of the sobbing.
"Oh Nikki…" he whispers softly, "Why did you pick a fight?"
I was stupid I know…
"You belong together forever united… remember Nicole?" his voice was so soft but the words hurt as I registered what he was saying. I felt horrible. I felt weak and broken… I hated feeling this way…
Leave me alone, please!
"He loves you Nicole, he can only love you…" those lines- I hated them filled with hope and light, I hated them right now. "Fine screw you! Go get killed by some demon for all I care!" I visibly winced and shivered as those words came back to me.
You're pretty messed up too Paul, I shuddered at the thought as I replayed everything.
"L-leave m-me a-alone…" was all I managed to choke out as my eyes drifted close into the cold and dark oblivion I craved. I barely register Colin being forced out of the house by Christopher, I don't react as his hand strokes my matted hair or my tear stained cheeks, I don't say anything as he orbs away to his own home leaving me sprawled in front of my door whimpering like a broken child.
I was stupid for telling you goodbye…
I'm nothing without you…
I recently started getting inspired with this story so here's the new chapter.