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Declaimer: I don't own twilight or any of the songs used in my story.

Chapter One


I walked up the stairs and stood in the doorway of our room looking at my beloved. She was curled up into a tight ball on our massive bed, starring out the window. She has been in this exact same position for six years. Never moving, never hunting; not so much as breathing. It broke my heart to see her this way.

However, my Alice wasn't the only one that has changed. The entire family had. Carlisle doesn't read anymore, and only continues to work at the hospital to keep up our little charade. Esme, my poor mother, cries all the time. She doesn't decorate and she doesn't draw blueprints anymore. Emmitt, our big bear of a brother, doesn't laugh anymore. He doesn't joke, doesn't want to fight, and doesn't play video games. And even Rosalie, our tough sister who only thinks about herself, that Rosalie doesn't work on cars anymore.

Then there is Edward. He almost never leaves his room, however unlike Alice he can be persuaded to hunt. Usually he is in the same position as Alice, in his room curled up on his bed. They both have something else in common. Their talents have seemed to disappear. Alice hasn't seen a vision in six years, and Edward doesn't hear thoughts. Ever since that day, the day of Alice's last vision.

I can see it clearly now as if it was just yesterday:


It has been six months since we left Forks. Six months since I lost control and tore our family apart. I still feel ashamed for what I did, for being so weak, and it caused us to lose a family member.

We were all in our new home in New Hampshire. Esme finally convinced Edward, Alice, and I to come home. We were all in the living room when it happened.

We all knew what was happening as soon as the blank stare crossed Alice's face, and Edward's head snapped to look at her. Soon both of them were shaking, and the look on their faces was that of pure horror. They both dived at something that wasn't there, but in their minds.

NOOOO!!!! They screamed at the same time.

Then the vision was over, and they were both dry sobbing. The feelings of pain, despair and loss was radiating from their bodies, so strongly that it knocked me to the ground.

This was the day that our Bella died, and they had gotten a front row seat.

End Flashback

I sighed at the memory and walked over to my Alice. I sat next to her and rubbed her back, trying to calm her, but the pain, loss, and despair was to strong. However, at my touch I could feel the love she has for me, and then even more pain for what she is doing to me.

"Alice honey, we are all going to go hunting, even Edward. Will you please join us?" I asked.

She didn't say anything, just closed her pitch black eyes. I knew that it was a long shot but I had to ask.

"Ok, love, I will be back as soon as I can. An hour at most." I said as I bent down and kissed her forehead before leaving.


I knew what I was doing to my Jasper, and it made me feel even worse. But I just couldn't snap out of it, I lost my best friend, my sister. I loved her more then she knew, more than any of them knew.

After my vision of her death; no, that's not entirely true, her suicide, I haven't moved from my bed. It is my fault; I should have stood up for her, argued with Edward harder. I should have been able to save her, but my vision came too late and now she was gone forever.

After Jasper left the room I could hear him talking with our family downstairs.

"Will she not come?" Carlisle asked

"No, but we knew it was a long shot in the first place." My Jasper told him in a sullen tone.

"My poor daughter!" Esme sobbed.

"Maybe one of us should stay with her." Carlisle suggested

"I don't want to go anyway, and if Alice is staying I want to stay as well." Edward said. The pain, anguish, loss, and despair plain in his voice.

"No Edward, you need to hunt." Carlisle scolded. And Edward sighed in defeat.

"We will all go. Let's just make it quick." Jasper said. They all ran out the back door and into the woods.

I felt terrible for the pain I was causing my family. I closed my eyes tightly, and started to sob. I cried for the pain I was causing my family, for the hurt I was causing my mate, and for the death of our Bella.

I gasped as I was suddenly drawn into a vision. The first since that day.


I was seeing myself gingerly get off the bed; my eyes were a startling black. I walked across the room and to the little radio that sat on our desk. I could see myself turn it on and then turn and sit on the end of the bed.

End of vision

I was shocked, I just had a vision.

Well, I was always one to follow them.

I slowly stood, making sure I didn't fall from my lack of movement for the past six years. However, I knew my vampire body would never betray me that way.

I slowly walked over to the radio and turned it on. In my vision I didn't change the station, so I walked back over to the bed and sat down, waiting.

A song started to play that I have never heard before, which wasn't shocking because I haven't listened to music in six years.

(Nobody Knows)

Nobody knows, nobody knows but me
That I sometimes cry, if I could pretend that I'm asleep
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls
I think nobody knows, nobody knows, no

Nobody likes, nobody likes to lose their inner voice
The one I used to hear before my life made a choice
But I think nobody knows, no no
Nobody knows, no

Baby, oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown?

And I've lost my way back home
I think nobody knows, no
I said nobody knows
Nobody cares

It's win or lose, not how you play the game
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name
But I think nobody knows, no no
Nobody knows, no no no no

Baby, oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown?

And I've lost my way back home
And oh, no no no no
Nobody knows
No no no no no no

Tomorrow I'll be there my friend
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone
No no no

Nobody knows
Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart
The way I do when I'm lying in the dark
And the world is asleep

I think nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me

The voice seemed so familiar, yet I was sure I had never heard it before. And the song, it was so sad, yet it was like it was sung for me to hear. I didn't understand. I continued to listen as the radio announcer came back on.

"So Bella, do you mind telling us about the song we just heard? What was your inspiration?" the announcer said.

I sat up straighter when she said Bella's name. It couldn't be.

"I wrote this song about six years ago after the love of my life left me. With him he took a very important person, my best friend, Alice, who was like my sister. She was my guardian angel." Bella said to the announcer, her tone was so sad, almost died.

"Wow, well we are running out of time, please tell us about your upcoming concert."

"Well, I have concert in Vancouver tomorrow night. I will be singing the songs from my latest album Eternity Alone." Bella answered.

"Thank you for being here Bella! And make sure all you out there have tickets for her show!" The announcer finished.

I was shocked, and I could feel my mouth hanging open.

After a minute I thawed. I quickly ran to my closet to change, I have been in the same clothes for the past six years, what was I thinking! I grabbed my phone, bank card and keys.

I was going to find my Bella, my best friend, my sister.

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