"I Can't Let Go"

Chapter 7:
I Can't Let Go...

Nurik0o Mikagami


Author's Thanks:
To touya-mou:
Hey! For no apparent reason at all! Ur reviews disappeared! Eeks! What happened?! *Sniffles* BUT... No fear! Cos' I remember you DID review, and I also remembered what was your review! HeE~ ^_^ Thank you so much for reading! I really really really appreciate it! *Smiles* So let's see if I'll finish off this story by this chapter! I can't say if u can have Raiha or not in this story, cos' if I say anything, then the plot will be known to everyone! HeE~ But you'll know it when this story ends! *LoLz*

To Darkness XI:
Wah! HeE~ *Huggles* HeE~ I really appreciate your every chapter review! You have got NO IDEA at all how grateful I am. It's my first fic! So I am glad someone reads all the way since chapter 1! *Sniffles* Sooo TOUCHED! ^_^ Firstly, thank you for reading! Really! And also! I saw u signed my guestbook on my webby! Awww!!! Arigatoo! ^_^ HeE~ Thou' I must agree the webby's kinda dead. I'm kinda doing a revamp, but getting really tired to do it, so I'm taking my own amai time! Hahaha~ ^_^
An oh yah! Tofu really tastes good! My favourite food! *LoLz*

To Phoebe aka pia:
Honto GOMEN for a mistaken identity problem! HeE~ I'm SOOOO GLAD u're a new reader! You know how much it means to me when there's a new reader's review?! PRICELESS! HeE~ ^_^ It just means soooo MUCH! *Giggles* Yup! So as you said, I'll continue this fic! HeE~ Don't wanna leave it unfinished, I mean after all, it'll be ending soon! ^_^ So once more, ARIGATOO for reading! *MuackZ* Anyway, I'm sorry I couldn't make the story anymore touching than it was, cos' ya'noe? My english's kinda... bad? (-_-);;

To mia:
HEY! You're backie! HeE~ ^_^ Irrashi-Masen! *LoLz* Nah! It's okay you did not review previously! Remember?! It's never compulsory! HeE~ But I really appreciate it that you read my fic too! Ahhh! I'm gonna tear soon! *Giggles* I tried to review some stories too, and the review box din' pop up too, and I realised FF.net kinda getting down more frequent nowadays, MUST be more anime fanatics out there now! HeE~ Yup! NEW CHAPTER! Hope you like it ne?! And of course, ARIGATOO GOZAIMASU! ^_^

To Wind Goddess:
YEAH! You're back too! Hehe~ My my! U have been busy? Do take care yah?! Don't stress yourself out! Yah! Cos' I've been to the doctor recently, and he says I'm too stressed out, so that's why I'm having some kind of hyperventilation. HeE~ ^0^;; Eeks.. Terrible! Domon kun... Well, he'll play quite a big part from this chapter onwards, IF there are any more chapters of course. HeE~ ^_^ So we shall see what will happen! HeE~ Of course, remember to take care, and THANK YOU for reading! *SMILES*

To kreuz4eva:
Hello Mi-Chan! HeE~ Kinda like I'm calling Mikagami! *LoLz* Ah! You're a new reader aren't you?! HeE~ Well, here's my final chapter to my fic! I think you might hate it much! But then again, I really wanna thank you for reading my fic! It's really a pleasure everytime I see a new review! ^_^ Arigatoo! ^_^

To ice water:
Konnichiwa!! NEW READER ALERT! *LoLz* Thank you for reading my fic! Well, will it be a ToFuu pairing?! HeE~ Your answer will be in this chapter! Final chapter, so this is it for you! I hope you'll like the ending, but it's tough to like it, and I understand! ^_^ So once again, thank you! I really appreciate your review! Arigatoo!

To sweet*me:
HarlowZ! ^_^ HeE~ I see you like Mikagami! HeE~ Yup! I think you're probably one of a few who wish that this fic will turn out to be a RaiFuu fic! HeE~ Well, I can't spill the beans now can I?! But oh well, do read on, you might not like the ending, but I did try my best... Really, I know it's not really good, but I really tried! So Arigatoo!

To jehara:
Kombawa! Thank you soo much for reviewing and of course reading my fic! It's a real pleasure! I really appreciate it much much! Arigatoo! This is my final chapter of this fic, I do hope you'll like it, but as what I've said, it'll be tough to like this chapter. So do let me know if you like this chapter or not alright?! =) Once again, thank you!


La Di Da! Konnichiwa every other minna-san! HeE~ Yup Yup! Glad that you're reading (if there are any). I always love to know if there are new readers around. It makes me feel good of course, who won't right?! So if there really are readers out there, thank you so much for reading! I really appreciate it. I just hope you'll like this fic! ^_^


Normal Flame of Recca characters DO NOT belong to me. They just belong to someone else who's more imaginative than I am! ^_^ Any other additional characters included in this fic will be created by me. Any coincidence in the name of these additional characters and actual person(s) will be due to the fact that I know little japanese names! HeE~ So, ya'noe... Don't SUE me!

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"You've been in there for a little long I must say."

"Domon kun!" said an astonished Raiha.

"You think you're free for a talk?"

Recca and gang had left the hospital for about half an hour ago. Recca was too furious to see his comrades so badly hurt, Yanagi went after Recca who stormed off the ICU. Kaoru and Ganko had to head back to school for their extra curriculum activities, leaving Domon alone who said he wanted to accompany his Fuuko.

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"What would you like Sir?", asked the waitress at the cafe.

"I'll have an orange juice, thank you!" Replied a smiley Raiha.

"Make that two then."

"Is that all sir? Alright then, your orders will be coming right up."

Right indeed. Their orders were placed on their table in about a minute or so. There was dead silence between this two. Uncertainties, worries, anger and guilt filled the air. There were so many questions to be answered, and so many answers to be given, but both men sitting there chose silence, at least for now, to calm their souls.

"What do you have up your sleeves this time round?" An anger filled Domon asked.

Raiha looked up from his drink, deep into Domon's fiery eyes. Guilt filled his eyes when their eyes met. Raiha could nearly see through Domon's mind. He sees a lively Fuuko punching Domon, a lively Fuuko... a once lively Fuuko...

Domon got no answer from Raiha. Yes, Domon IS furious, so much so he could probably kill any person.
Sadness... Emptiness... was what Domon saw in Raiha's eyes. There was something else that Domon felt, but yet was unable to describe, there was a spark of determination... but determination for...???

"Domon-kun... Gomen Nasai. I never wanted all these to happen. I know it's hard for you to believe me. I can't make any promises, but I will do my best to make things right."

"What do you mean? Do you think Recca and I are just gonna let you do something to our friends, and just let you go after you telling me that you're gonna make things right? Of which, we have got no idea what you're gonna do this time round? Like... What? Rip off the wires supporting them?"


"Gomen Nasai... I got carried away. I..."


"Raiha-Kun... Gomen. I...


"Raiha-Kun... Please let me know what exactly happened. I believe I have the right to know."


Raiha stared blankly at the man opposite him. He brought the Hokage pain, yes he did! Domon was right. Emotions of guilt, sadness, emptiness brought him shame, he had no courage to face Domon, but he was determined he will do something to compensate them. Even if...

"Domon-Kun... Gomen Nasai... Go... Gomen..."

Raiha told Domon everything that happened at the amusement park. He knew Domon had every right to know. Domon was surprisingly calm, gentleman who sat still throughout the whole conversation, who never raised his voiced, or rather, expressionless will be a better word to describe. Silence fell upon them once again. Domon regretted asking Raiha to tell him what both his comrades went through. Shaken... Negative thoughts rushed through his mind, he started having doubts of whether both Mikagami and Fuuko will live.





"Will... Will they even live through tonight?" Domon slowly shifted his vision to Raiha. Like a child, badly shaken after a fright, Domon looked at Raiha.


Domon looked down, staring blankly at the table.

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Lying on his bed, Raiha looked at ceiling. A gust of wind burst through his curtain, cooling down the temperature of his room to a deadly chillness. Tears welled up in his eyes as he thought of Fuuko.


The sound of a metal piece falling on the floor distracted his attention. He slowly got up from his bed, to look int he direction from where the sound came from. It was a the photo frame he had on his table, the curtains must have knocked it over, he thought. He picked up the photo frame, only to see a cheerful Fuuko and a smiley him laughing, as if mocking at his misery.

"Fuuko san..."

Raiha placed the photo frame back onto where it was, he sat down at his study table, took out a foolscap pad, and started to do some writing. When he was done with writing, he went to bed, hoping to fall asleep, but was awoken countless times whenever he dreamt of Fuuko and Mikagami and Kinichi.

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It was still school holidays, but Domon decided not to stay at home, for otherwise, he will be dragged to sell flowers for his mother. So he decided to go pay Fuuko and Mikagami a visit. His mind never left the hospital, for he was worried about both of them no doubt. Domon locked his gate, and set out for the hospital.

When he arrived at the hospital, Yanagi and Recca were running towards him happily.
"Happily? What are these two thinking of anyway?! Damn!"

"Domon Kun! Yokata! Hontoni Yokata! The doctor came up to us today, and told us that they've found donours for both Mikagami sempai and Fuuko! They are not too sure whether or not it's suitable, but they've gotta give it a try!"

"Honto Yanagi san? Hontoni?" Domon was delighted to hear this news. He turned to Recca who nodded his head to confirm the news. Yanagi was tearing so much from joy, but Recca still had a worried look on his face, although Domon is not too sure why.

Recca and Domon sent Yanagi home, and both of them started their walk home. "Recca... You're not happy that they found a donor?"

"Huh? Oh... No. It's just that... The doctor did warn us that the blood types are not the same, so it might cause a problem, but Hime said she will be able to perform some form of 'treatment', such that both Fuuko and Mikagami system will accept the donor's organs. The doctor said they have to give it a shot, for otherwise, Mikagami will not live for long. Fuuko is currently put on a dialysis machine, so as to lessen the burden on her kidneys. It's just that... so many things happen just in one day, it's not really that easy to digest all these stuffs so easily. What if Hime fails?"


Recca turned at the junction before, leaving Domon walking home alone now. There wasn't much talking when both of them were walking. What Recca had just said... kinda surprised Domon. Probably he was really a little too naive, thinking that finding a donor will save both Mikagami and Fuuko.

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"You're finally home."

Domon looked up from the ground to the person who just spoken.

Raiha just smiled and said, "I need to talk to you." And after which, both Domon and Raiha walked to a nearby park.

"Did you go to the hospital today? Both of them found a donor."

"The doctor told me about it. Glad to know that they're currently still hanging on."

Their conversation lasted for a few more hours before Raiha left first, after which Domon sat at the park for some time before heading home.

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The operation will commence in about 5 hours time. Recca and everyone else of the Hokage team were already at the hospital. Everyone with worried looks on their faces. Domon was exceptionally quiet, but it was normal, as everyone knew how much he cared for Fuuko, so Yanagi just gently placed her hand on his shoulder, to reassure him that everything will be fine, for she herself will try her best to save them both.

"Yanagi san... They will live. I know that... I... Know..."

This time, Yanagi felt that something was amiss about Domon, he wasn't quite himself. He never behaved in such a manner.
Something is wrong...

The operation is about to start, Fuuko and Mikagami will be placed in the operating theatres just next to each other. As they were being pushed into the operating theatre, the Hokage team started whispering words like, "Hang on in there!" to Mikagami and Fuuko. Except Domon.

The operation has been in progress for 3 hours already, and yet, neither Mikagami or Fuuko has been pushed out yet. Recca paced up and down, with Yanagi following his every step, except slower. Domon... his vision never left the ground infront from where he sat. "Recca... He's in there with her, don't worry. She'll live for him."

"She'll live of course! So will him! They'd better!"

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Finally, Fuuko's operation is over first, for hers is not as complicated as compared to Mikagami's. The doctor came out, and said, "The operation is a very successful one. Her will to live is quite strong. She'll live hopefully, provided her system adapts to the new kidneys."

"What about Mikagami?" Recca asked.

"I've got no idea about his progress. Please wait patiently. He'll be out of the operating theatre in about a few hours. The doctor in charge will then brief you again about his condition. In the meantime, you can visit Miss Kirisawa, but please do so quietly, the patient needs lots of rest."

"Thank you doctor!" Recca said, and the next thing, he and Yanagi went to visit Fuuko, for Yanagi had to perform her "operation" on Fuuko. Leaving Domon, Kaoru and Ganko along the corridor of the hospital where Mikagami's operating theatre is.

Recca and Yanagi came back after not too long, asking Kaoru, Ganko and Domon to go visit Fuuko. Ganko and Kaoru went, but Domon insisted that he'll wait for Mikagami's operation to be over first.

"How's Fuuko?" Domon asked.

"She's alright, but I'll heal her over a period of few days. For I have to heal Mikagami sempai as well. So I can't heal her immediately for it'll take up too much of my energy."

Not long after, Mikagami came out from the operating theatre. The doctor said, his operation too was a success overall, although he isn't too optimistic, for he expects some complications to arise over the next period of days due to the incompatibility of the donor's heart, but they'll do all they can to monitor him, such that the possiblity of major complications will be minimised.

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Domon finally went to visit Fuuko, she looked slightly redder, not as pale as before, this comforted him. He went over to her, sat down, and started to talk to her.

"Fuuko... Gambatte ne! Mikagami will live. I know he will, so live for him."

And so, he sat there for about 10 minutes more before he left, and visited Mikagami. Mikagami looked rather pale, there doesn't seem to have much progress. Just as he was about to sit down on the chair beside Mikagami, the alarm went off from one of the machine. Doctors and nurses rushed in almost immediately, and told Domon to wait outside.

Recca and the rest were wondering why Domon was pushed out, they questioned Domon simultaneously, leaving a stunned Domon in a daze, Domon seem to be in a world of his own. Not long, Mikagami was pushed out of the ICU, and was to be sent into the operating theatre again. The doctor explained that Mikagami isn't accepting the heart as expected, and this is causing some complications to his other organs.

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In the meantime, at Kurei's mansion, Neon went into Raiha's room so that she could tidy his room, but she knew she did not have much to tidy, except for messy study table, as usual!

But this time round, his table was neat and tidy, but there were 2 letters on his table, one addressed to Kurei, and the other to herself. She opened the letter, and started reading...

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As the rest of the Hokage frooze to where they stood after hearing what the doctor had to say, Domon ran after Mikagami, and shouted, "MIKAGAMI! LIVE! FOR RAIHA! ACCEPT HIS HEART!! MIKAGAMI! DO U HEAR ME?!!! BOTH OF YOU LOVE FUUKO WITH YOUR HEARTS! BOTH YOUR HEARTS BEAT FOR HER DON'T THEY??? SO IT SHOULD BE THE SAME ISN'T IT?!!! ACCEPT HIS HEART!!! ACCEPT HIS SACRIFICE MIKAGAMI!!! ACCEPT HIS APOLOGY!!!!"

The rest of the Hokage heard Domon, and were stunned... Domon finally lost his cool, he could no longer remain calm. When Raiha told him about his plans, Domon stoned, while Raiha walked away from the park.


Meantime, Neon, in tears, dashed down the stairs to where Kurei was, and passed him the letter addressed to him, while she ran upstairs again, to get dressed. She will go to the hospital, to pay her last respect to her comrade, NO... Her friend, probably best ever...

As she got dressed, Neon's mind was filled with the words in Raiha's letter, "Sorry Neon for not keeping my promise to always be there for Kurei, please take good care of Kurei when I'm no longer here. I'm sorry I left without telling you, but Neon...
Towards Fuuko....
I Can't Let Go of her...

"Neon... I Can't Let Go..."

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Years have passed, after graduating from university, both held high position jobs. And 2 years after working, they decided to get married, and now, 2 years after their marriage, they're expecting their first child! Mikagami is panicky, pacing up and down the corridor, his heart pumping faster as every second pass.

The rest of the Hokage are there, Yanagi and Recca with their 1 year old child, Yoshino. Ganko and Kaoru were also present, with the rest of the Hokage suspecting whether they're an item. Domon is still single, but there were rumours of him wooing his collegue and work. Neon and Kurei were also at the hospital, to much of the Hokage's surprise, but they were no strangers to Mikagami and Fuuko, for Mikagami and Fuuko often paid Kurei and Neon visits, and they often meet whenever it was Raiha's death anniversary.

"oWAaaaaa oWwaaaaa"

A baby's cry was heard, and Fuuko was pushed out of the operating theatre, Mikagami rushed over to her bed while she is being pushed back to her room. The rest of the crowd followed behind the lovely couple. Back in her room, Mikagami sat next to Fuuko on her bed, and Fuuko was in a sitting position, resting on her bed. Everyone was congratulating her and Mikagami on their newborn, and while she was busy thanking them for coming, a nurse comes into her ward, with her baby.

"Would you like to carry him?" Asked the nurse.

"Yes, thank you."

The nurse gently handed the baby over to Fuuko. Fuuko carried her child carefully, and Mikagami gently stroking the baby's face, hands and legs. Whispers could be heard from the crowd in the ward, such as, "Ah! What a cute lil' angel they've got there!" and "Kawaii!!!".

Suddenly, amongst the whisper, Recca spoke aloud, "Have you guys thought of name for your baby yet?"

Both Fuuko and Mikagami looked at each other for a moment, they have never discussed this issue before, but yet they said in unison...
"Yes... His name will be... Raiha!"

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Author's Notes:
Okie! I'm done! I'm sorry for taking so long to post this chapter! I have been thinking how to end this story. But yup! This is the end of my fic! FINALLY!! So how is it?! Sorry if it's a disappointment, I know it's a terrible ending! I know! Gomen!!!!

So here's my last thanks to all of you who have read my fic, Arigato! And also to those who reviewed my fic! Arigatoo! So well, this is it!

Sorry to those who hate me for killing off Raiha, Gomen Nasai! I don't wish to as well, but, it has to end somehow. So R&R is not compulsory, but I do wish to know how you feel after reading this fic, flames are welcomed, for I did receive flames of course! So... Here's Nurik0o Mikagami penning off, and my last goodbyes to "I Can't Let Go"!