Please don't kill me. I know what you're going to say I haven't updated in over a year and a half. I am so incredibly sorry. I had that terrible writer's block and then when school started again last fall I took on way too large of a class load and it has taken up all my time. I'm so terribly sorry, but I'm here to tell you all that I haven't fallen off of the face of the planet. As I looked back on the story it's like I power wrote and updated this story so I'm hoping it hasn't been too bad. I'm planning on slowing down my updates so I can write longer chapters for you guys and hopefully they'll be better than they have been. I mean, I did write 14 chapters in two months and then stopped.
But... I'm done with school in about three weeks and then I'll have loads more time to write. :)
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Also, please review, let's see how many we can get on this chapter... and hopefully you all haven't completely forgotten about this story. :)
Bella's Point of View
I closed the door quietly behind me and went across the room to my bed. The over sized mattress and down comforter welcomed me as I fell back onto the bed. I danced my fingers along the design of the comforter and stared at the door; willing it to open or for a knock to ring through it, but neither of those happened. A yawn overcame me before I pulled the comforter closer to my chin and wondered why today had to turn out the way it did.
I woke up a couple of hours later and stared at the ceiling. I thought moving here was going to make my life simpler, even if the reason I moved here wasn't simple at all. I got up and went downstairs to the kitchen and got a glass of water. I stood in the kitchen sipping the water and listening to the complete silence. My head turned when I heard soft guitar strums began coming from Edward's office. I walked over being as quiet as I possibly could and cracked the door open. I could see him sitting behind his desk with his guitar held in front of him. His gray shirt hung clung loosely to his body, showing every muscle. I swallowed and watched him play, unaware of my presence.
"What are you playing?"
He jumped and looked up at me, anger filled his features, but when he saw me the anger instantly disappeared, "You scared me."
"Sorry, I should have knocked. What were you playing?"
He shook his head, "Nothing in particular."
"I've always wanted to learn to play guitar." I smiled before blushing and looking down. I looked back up at him from under my eyelashes and saw him smiling at me, "What?"
He shook his head, "You shouldn't be embarrassed when you blush, it's endearing." This made my face flush even more. He smiled again and looked away before looking back at me, "I can teach you if you want."
"Really? I'd be so incredibly thankful."
He laughed, "Really. Here," he set the guitar down and pulled up another chair and sat in it, leaving his chair open, "have a seat."
"You don't have to give me your seat." He shook his head, showing zero intention of moving back. I took my seat and watched him as he leaned over and handed me his guitar. When I was unable to get even a note to come out that didn't sound like a dying cat, he hesitantly put his hands over mine and helped me position my hands. He brought my right hand down and a mixture of chords softly played through the guitar. I smiled and looked up at him, he was watching me intently. I swallowed and took a deep breath, "You know, I'm not nearly as fragile as you think I am."
"I don't think you realize how fragile you actually are." My eyes were locked with his and my words came out slowly when I finally spoke.
"Who are you trying to convince?"
He shook his head, "I don't really know."
I could feel his breath on my lips and my eyes broke their lock with his and looked down at his lips. I bit my lip gently before looking back up at his eyes, what I saw in them made my decision for me. I pressed my lips to his and his reaction was almost instant. His hand was on the small of my back and the other on my side as my hands wound into his hair. His lips moved in sync with mine until my mind caught up with my actions. I pulled away from him and ran my fingers through my hair before looking away.
"I should probably get to bed. I, uh, have an early morning tomorrow." I tried my best not to notice the look on his face, but I looked anyway. The look I saw there made my heart feel like it was being torn in half.
The next morning when I went downstairs I made sure I was ready to leave if Edward was in the kitchen. I didn't see anyone down there so I made my way into the kitchen and put a couple of pieces of toast into the toaster and poured a glass of orange juice while I waited. When the bread was done I spread a little jam on the pieces and walked over to the doors to Edward's office. I looked at the stairs before gently opening them and shutting them behind me. The room had brown walls with beige curtains to match. The furniture all coordinated perfectly with each other and I laughed to myself knowing that Alice must have decorated when she came out here a few years back.
I sat down in the big lounge chair in the corner of the room and lay back against the seat while I ate. This room could easily be my favorite in the whole place. I closed my eyes and pictured myself sitting at the piano, my fingers running over the keys. A smile spread across my face as I let my dream play on.
My fingers ran across the keys to a familiar song, My Guardian Angel by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. I continued playing not noticing the doors opening and closing, or noticing the person walking over to where I sat until his lips were at my ears.
"I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to Heaven."
I let my fingers continue their path as the smooth voice continued singing the words softly into my ears.
"Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away."
I smiled at the voice, but never faultered from watching my fingers on the keys.
"Cause I'm here for you,
Please don't walk away,
And please tell me you'll stay, stay."
As the notes on the piano let out their final ring so did the voice in my ears.
"I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever."
I turned my head and smiled at him. His face inches from mine. His hands wrapped around my body and his fingers gently touched the ring on my finger. He kissed me once and looked at me again.
"I love you, Bella."
I smiled and kissed him once more before answering him, "I love you too, Edward, always."
"Bella," I felt a hand on my arm but kept my eyes closed, "Bella."
I felt the hand gently rub up and down on my arm and I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the person standing over me. I stretched gently and looked around remembering where I was before looking back at Edward.
"What time is it?"
I laid my head in my heads and looked up at him, "No use going to class now, its half over. I think I'll just stay home today."
He smiled and went over to the desk and picked up the phone, "If you don't mind I think maybe I'll join you."
I smiled, as much as I wanted to say something about what happened last night I couldn't get myself to do it. I watched as he called the office and told Mike he was taking the day off before he stood up and looked over at me.
"What's your favorite game to play?"
I looked at him, "Like board game?"
He smiled, "Any kind of game."
I thought for a moment and smiled, "I do love a good game of Monopoly, but I will warn you, I hate to lose."
He laughed and walked around the desk to the white closet doors. He pulled them open and reached up to the top shelf of the closet and pulled out the Monopoly box.
"You have the classic version."
He looked over at me, "Is there something wrong with that?"
I shook my head, "No I'm glad you have the classic. There are way too many different kinds out there. I like to keep things simple."
He laughed and patted the ground next to him as he took a seat and began setting everything up.
I reached across the board and tried to take the money from his hands.
"I have no idea what you're talking about."
He smiled at me and held the money out of my reach, "I saw you take extra money!"
I reached forward and held the end of the money in my fingers as he tried to get the money out of my grasp again. He used his free hand and tickled my side.
"That isn't fair!"
I continued to hold onto the money as he tickled me, my laughs filling the room.
"Alright, alright you win," he stopped tickling me but left his hand on my side as he sat the money down on the ground in front of us. I took the opportunity to snatch the money and stand up as my stomach growled loudly.
"You sound hungry, are you opposed to Chinese food?"
I shook my head, "I love it."
I watched him walk into the kitchen and grab the phone. He dialed a number into the phone that he seemed to have memorized and I walked over to the couch and sat down, pulling the throw off the back and tossing it over me.
When the food was delivered he brought it over to where I was sitting and went into the kitchen and grabbed two cans of Diet Coke. He opened the boxes and looked up at me sheepishly.
"I hope I got something you liked. I realized after I hung up that I never asked what you liked."
I looked at all the boxes in front of me, "Well it looks like you got almost everything off the menu."
I looked at him and smiled before looking at the food again and spying a box of kung pao chicken and reached for it instantly. He quickly grabbed the box and handed it to me and smiled.
"I take it you like the kung pao chicken?"
"It's my favorite."
We sat in silence while we ate. Usually silence would bother me, but with him it was okay. I watched him as we ate and felt myself laughing at his reactions as he tried something he'd never had before. Eventually I sat the box down on the table and looked down at him.
"If I eat anymore I might throw up."
He laughed and looked at all the boxes, "I think we'll be eating Chinese food for weeks."
I laughed as he picked up all the boxes and stuck them in the fridge before walking back over. He slid the now empty coffee table over to the side and grabbed a few blankets from the closet and laid them out on the floor, leaving one off to the side before putting his hand in front of me. I reached up and gently took his hand as he helped me sit down on the blankets as he sat down beside me after grabbing the remote.
He looked over at me, "Pick a movie, any movie."
I thought for a moment and smiled before looking back at him, "I haven't seen Dear John yet."
He smiled, "I think we can find that one."
He turned the tv on and began clicking buttons as he scrolled through the list of movies before stopping on Dear John and ordered it, smiling at me before setting the remote to the side after turning the lights off. He reached over and grabbed the extra blanket and spread it over our legs before helping me wrap the throw from the couch around my shoulders and arms.
"I'm a Coin of the United States Army. I was minted in the year 1980. I've been punched from sheet metal. I've been stamped and cleaned, my edges have been rimmed and beveled, but now I have two small holes in me. I'm no longer in perfect condition"
As the opening lines of the movie played out I subconsciously leaned against him as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder. Tears were present in my eyes throughout the movie and eventually they ran down my face. I felt embarrassed, but I couldn't help myself. Instead of him laughing like I thought he would he gently ran his hand up and down where it was on my arm and I welcomed the comforting action. Eventually the movie ended, but I made no move to sit up. I felt more safe than I had in years just sitting here like this.
Edward's Point of View
I smiled when she didn't move to get up after the movie ended. I reached over and grabbed the remote before going through the list of movies and ordering another one that would make her laugh. I scooted down a little more so I was lounging against the couch and waited while Bella did the same. She lay against my chest again and my arm wrapped around her again. I smiled every time she laughed and spent more of the time watching her than watching the movie. The way her smile would spread across her face and the way her laugh rang quietly in the room. I could listen to her laugh every day for the rest of my life.
I watched as a yawn escaped from her mouth and as she slowly curled up against me as her eyelids slowly began closing as she tried her hardest to stay awake. Whether she knew she'd lose and gave up or if sleep had simply overpowered her fight her eyes slowly closed as her breathing became slower. I smiled at the peaceful expression that appeared on her face as she slept. Sometime between when she had fallen asleep and the time her cries woke me up I myself had fallen asleep. I blinked a few times before I remembered where I was.
I looked down at Bella who hadn't moved since the time I had fallen asleep, but her cheeks were wet with tears. I gently tried to wake her up knowing that if I woke her up abruptly it may startle her even more.
"Bella, Bella wake up it's a dream."
She jumped awake and pulled away from me, her tears flowing down her face, "No!"
After she said it her face fell into her hands and sobs tore through her body, "I'm so sorry. I, I thought you were Jacob."
I shook my head, "Bella you don't need to explain yourself to me."
"It, it was terrible," her tears began flowing again, if not faster than they had been before, "He, he found me here, but there was no one there to save me."
Her sobs filled the room and I gently pulled her in and wrapped my arms around her trying to comfort her, "Don't worry Bella. I won't let him hurt you again."
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