They walked up and down the beach for a while before either one said anything.
"Despite what my nosy sister led you to believe," Alex turned to Olivia, "I'm not dating or sleeping or anything with Serena."
Olivia panicked about being caught thinking Alex was sleeping with Serena, but she was relieved none the less. After a moment of thought, Olivia added, "It's none of my business."
"I think it sort of is," Alex honestly replied. She looked out onto the dark ocean, feeling the cool wind surround her. "Serena and I…have a history. We met in law school. It was a really stressful time in our lives. And it seems that when something big is happening to me, she's there. I don't know how it happens, but she's always been there."
The detective nodded, "I understand."
"Anyway," Alex kicked at the sand, "I haven't slept with her in a long time."
Olivia was sure she knew why Alex was telling her all of this. She watched as Alex's hair whipped around in the wind. The stars reflected in Alex's eyes making them seem to twinkle.
After a few minutes, Alex looked at Olivia. Olivia looked back and saw an adorable smile on Alex's face. Before she knew it, the blonde had moved forward and had swept her up in a kiss. Their lips moved together like the motion was innate. Olivia could feel the breath being sucked from her body.
When the kiss was over, Alex bit her lip and smiled before looking back out toward the ocean and starting to walk down the beach again.
Olivia finally recovered and realized that Alex was a few yards down the beach. She trotted to catch up and caught Alex's hand, "What was that?"
"I…um…" Alex let out a coy smirk, "I got caught up in the moment."
The detective's jaw dropped and her heart sank. The kiss that got her hopes up all over again was a caught in the moment thing?
The blonde took Olivia's hand, "That wasn't it. I was wrong…to end things with you like I did. It's not what I wanted. I told myself I was protecting you…from me."
"I don't need protecting," Olivia offered, "Especially from you."
Alex took a deep breath, "I know. What I was really doing was protecting myself."
The older woman coiled her arms around Alex, "I won't hurt you."
She was answered with silence, so Olivia stroked Alex's hair and breathed in the cold ocean air. When Alex started to pull away, Olivia immediately let go not wanting Alex to be uncomfortable. The blonde immediately looked away and brought her hands to her face. Olivia was sure she was wiping tears, but she wasn't going to say anything.
Alex forced a smile, "Will you come back to the room with me? It's getting really cold."
"Of course," Olivia nodded.
When they got inside, Olivia reached for the light switch, but Alex stopped her hand on its way up. She held Olivia's hand as the door closed, taking all the light away. Olivia felt Alex pull her toward the bed.
Alex laid down on the bed and let go of Olivia's hand as she shimmied under the blanket. Olivia knew what Alex wanted so she crawled in bed next to the blonde.
"I'm sorry," Alex whispered, tucking her hands under her pillow.
Olivia wanted to tuck a loose stand of hair behind Alex's ear, but she wasn't really sure where they stood. The past few hours had thrown her completely off. "It's okay."
"It's not," the ADA's usual strong confident voice was barely a whisper. "The whole come here, go away thing is not fair to you. And I don't know…I don't know what I'm doing. It feels like I'm sinking and I don't want to drag you down with me."
Olivia smiled and took Alex's hands out from under her pillow, "I can swim."
Alex chuckled at her own analogy and relaxed quite a bit. When Olivia felt her lose some tension, she slid her arms around Alex and held her as close as possible.
"So, would you still want to date me if I'm a neurotic mess half of the time?" Alex asked before kissing the soft skin of Olivia's neck.
"Mhmm," the detective moaned.
"Okay well," Alex pulled away enough to kiss Olivia properly, "How about we go on another date?"
"I'd love to," Olivia deepened the kiss. As Alex moved her hands to Olivia's face, her shirt rode up and Olivia's hands made contact with the bare skin of Alex's middle. The muscles tensed at the contact and Olivia's hands started to roam freely.
Alex groaned in frustration when her phone rang on the nightstand. By this time, Olivia was practically on top of her. Olivia laughed at Alex's frustration and rolled over so Alex could answer her phone. The blonde was even more irritated when she saw whose name was on the front of the phone.
"What do you want?" Alex demanded.
"Is that any way to speak to your favorite sister?" Cameron asked.
The eldest Cabot sat up in the bed and ran a hand through her hair while she tried not to watch Olivia change into something more comfortable to sleep in. "I was busy."
Cameron gasped, "Oh la la. I was just calling to check on you, but you seemed to be doing better than I hoped. Enjoy yourself."
"Bye," Alex sighed and snapped her phone shut, letting it fall onto the mattress.
Olivia smiled down at her, "Cameron?"
"Yes," Alex huffed.
The detective adjusted the strap on her cami and crawled back into bed, "Tired?"
"No," the ADA answered definitely. She slipped out of bed and took off her jeans before getting back in bed.
It wasn't long before they were wrapped in each other.
"So we're okay?" Alex asked quietly.
"We're great," Olivia smiled.
The blonde closed her eyes, "Even neurotic nervous breakdown me?"
"I don't think it will get as far as a nervous breakdown, but I would definitely visit you in whatever institution Cameron and your mother decide to put you in."
"What a nice thought," Alex deadpanned.
Olivia laughed, "We both have issues, but we'll deal with them as they come. Together. Deal?"
"Deal," Alex smiled and kissed Olivia. It soon got heated again and they found that they had no use for clothes anymore. They ended their all too brief vacation, the best way either one of them could think of.