Subaru is incomplete.

Subaru: The author do not own the song or the manga and its characters.

Here is a songfic dedicated to all Subaru-fans! Rated x for angst.

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

Since that day the room had been almost empty. His present was still lingering around. Hokuto`s distant face had not yet left his mind and he doubted it would ever dissapear. "So…please come back…" He couldn't rest yet.

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

The days had gone by. He did not notice, all of the familiar faces were shades of gray when he passed them on the street. The unending sound of the city had become a echoing mass. Sometimes he wondered if he would ever be whole again, if this silent emptiness was permanent?

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

He would carry on until the day he achieved his goal. However, this world seemed too big for a young medium, searching for a single man in entire Tokyo. He knew that he would not rest, that was the price on this path. The Sakurazukamori`s heart was dark and brutal, but Subaru`s hope had not faltered after all this time.

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

He would never be the same, neither would the world. The sakura had changed him forever and they both knew it. After those crucial moments of betrayal, he passed away. He kept the mask on, but the silent roars of frustration, anger and loneliness smoldered under the surface.

I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

Subaru never meant to drag his family into this mess, but it seemed inevitable for them to be part of this nightmare. His sister had already fallen victim to the Sakurazukamori and his grandmother had been crippled by the power it had taken her to break Seishiro`s illusion. He acknowledged the simple fact that he would never erase the man from his heart, but leaving him to be was not in question.

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

When the day that would came to face him again, would Subaru be able to carry his goal fully out, or would his emotions cause another failure? He was not certain, he knew that there was deep down an incomprehensible strength that never gave in. And that thought left him a comfort in his solitude.

Incomplete