I DO NOT OWN BLEACH!
Well here it is, the third and final chapter. Thanks everyone for the great reviews. It encouraged me to finish this quickly. How you all enjoy it. Lemon warning as well!!
Renji sat in the outer area of Byakuya's office fuming. It had two months since the incident between them and Byakuya had become distant. The only time he talked to Renji was to give him orders or to discuss members of the division. He didn't yell at him anymore. In fact, he hardly paid attention to him at all. Just the day before, Renji has purposefully dropped the tea service when he had gone in to bring Byakuya his afternoon tea. He watched the man closely as he did so. He noticed a slight tightening in the corners of the Captain's eyes. But other then that, there had been no reaction. He didn't yell at Renji for being careless. He didn't tell him to clean it up. He didn't tell him to bring in more tea. He just sat there staring at his paper work. Renji had been so angry he couldn't bring himself to clean up the mess. He had left and went to do work out his frustration in one of the practice fields. When he went back later that afternoon the mess was gone. Byakuya still didn't say a word.
Renji couldn't take it anymore. His Captain wasn't acting like himself. And it was his fault. He had to do something. He wanted to badly to tell Byakuya how he felt. He beg his forgiveness for causing him pain. But he didn't know how. Byakuya blamed himself because he thought he had hurt Renji. But it wasn't true. How could Renji put it into words and not make a fool of himself? What if Byakuya's feelings has changed in the time he hadn't been speaking to him? What if the night the spent together changed his mind? What if Byakuya felt that Renji couldn't please him enough? The thoughts made Renji sick to his stomach. His heart ached. He had to do something. He had to know one way or another.
Gritting his teeth, Renji stood and walked to the door to Byakuya's office. He had to do this. If not for him, then he needed to do it for Byakuya. Renji walked into the office and closed the door behind him. His captain didn't look up from his work. Angry that he was being ignored, Renji walked behind the desk until he was behind Byakuya's chair. Still no reaction. Renji grabbed the chair and spun it around. The action set papers flying as Byakuya's arm swept across the deck.
Byakuya set startled eyes on Renji. "What the hell was that for?"
"We need to talk, Byakuya. You haven't spoken a word to me that wasn't necessary in two months."
"I don't know what you mean." Byakuya moved to turn his chair back around but Renji held him in place. He could see the fear in Byakuya's eyes.
"You damn well what I mean. We had sex Byakuya. We need to talk about it. Whether you like it or not. I have been patient for two months, hoping you would say something, anything to me. But you have been completely ignoring me. Even when I've been purposely doing shit to get a rise out of you."
"Renji. I have work to do." Byakuya looked away. "I don't want to talk about this."
"Well I do. You have no idea how horrible I feel about what happened." Byakuya winced and Renji put his hands on his face to keep him looking at him. "I enjoyed the sex, Byakuya. Very much. That isn't what I feel bad about."
"Of course you do. I forced you into it." Byakuya started to shake slightly and continued to look anywhere but at Renji's face.
"You didn't force me. If I didn't want to go to your bed, Byakuya, you could not have made me. I would rather have someone beat me half to death then let him fuck me if I didn't want it." Byakuya finally looked up at him, confusion in his eyes. Renji squirmed a bit but didn't stop. "I wanted you."
"Then what makes you feel bad about it?" Renji saw a small flicker of hope in Byakuya's eyes as he spoke.
"I know you saw shame in my eyes afterwards. That's why you told me to leave. I wasn't ashamed at what we had done. I was ashamed because I had done it for false reasons. I thought that you were only touching me as a punishment. I didn't care at first. Because I wanted you to touch me, no matter what the reason. But after, I realized that I wanted more. And I was ashamed of myself because I used you."
"You didn't use me."
Renji lifted his hand and pressed it to Byakuya's lips. "Just shut up and listen to me, please. I did use you. I used your anger at my actions for my own benefit. I've been doing it for years. I wanted your attention, any way I could get it."
"You were disgusted, Renji. I saw that too after." Byakuya felt a tear slide down his cheek.
Renji's face flamed and he looked down at the floor. "That had nothing to do with you. It was the odd feel of cum running down the inside of my thighs."
Byakuya felt himself blush, something he hadn't done in years. "I see."
Renji cleared his throat. "I need to tell you something. After I left the room, I came back. I wanted to remind you to read the report I was working on. I…" Renji stopped and rubbed the back of his neck. This was the hardest part. "I saw you crying. I heard what you said in the garden." Renji looked up into Byakuya's eyes. He saw a sudden fear there. "I heard you say that you love me."
"Renji…" Byakuya was stopped with a hand over his mouth again.
"Shut up. I love you, too, Byakuya. I have for a long time. I suppressed the feelings because I didn't think it was right, loving my Captain in such a way. But I cant hide it anymore. It's too painful." Renji's eyes shimmered with unshed tears as he looked down once more. "I know I'm not good enough for you. I don't doubt that I cant please you the way someone more experienced could. But I love you. So much that it hurts."
Byakuya closed his eyes. For two months he had been trying to figure out a way to make things right with Renji. He never expected that Renji would be the one to make everything right again. No, not right. He made it better.
"Renji. Don't be stupid." Renji's head snapped up, hurt plain in his eyes. He opened his mouth to reply and Byakuya leaned forward to kiss him passionately. He gripped both of his hands on the back of Renji's neck and held his forehead against his own. "I have never had greater please in my life then I did that night with you."
"Now who's being stupid. I'd never done anything like that before. I couldn't have been that good."
Byakuya smiled. "You have no idea how perfect it was. The sex itself was great, yes. But it is my feelings for you that made it so good. I do love you, Renji." Byakuya pressed his lips to Renji's head. "I need you to forgive me."
Renji shook his head. "You have nothing to be forgiven for."
"I do. I should have told you my feelings. I conned you into my bed for false reasons. I betrayed my own feelings for you by taking you when I hadn't expressed my feelings first. I betrayed you by not giving you the true reason why I wanted you my bed. I don't deserve to ask for forgiveness. If you hate me because of what I did, I would deserve that."
"Shut up, Byakuya. I could never hate you. We both did what we did for selfish reasons. But even with that, I love you. You say you love me, too. Shouldn't that be what matters? That we love each other?"
Byakuya took a deep shuddering breath. "You aren't angry with me?"
"Of course I am." Byakuya flinched and started to pull away. Renji laughed and pulled Byakuya out of his chair and into his arms. "I'm angry because you have been ignoring me for two months. I'm angry because no matter what I have done you haven't yelled at me. And I'm angry because I'm hard for you right now and it's the middle of the day and we are in your office instead of your bed."
Byakuya blinked at Renji. The man was crazy. "What is wrong with my office?" He wrapped his arms around the other man and pressed their bodies together so Renji could feel that he wasn't the only one that was hard. "I don't have any appointments today. And you have already cleared off most of the desk."
Renji sighed with contentment as Byakuya pressed their lips together. He felt a tug on his clothes a moment before Byakuya warm hands slid up his back. He was just about to do the same when Byakuya fell to his knees in front of him and started pulling the lower potion of his clothes down his body. Renji swallowed as he looked down. His erection was standing straight out from his body and Byakuya's mouth was a breath away. Byakuya wrapped his hand around him and looked up, their eyes locking as he took Renji's length into his mouth.
Renji groaned, his eyes fluttering. Just two nights before he had had a very vivid dream about watching Byakuya suck him as he lay on that soft silk covered bed. He had woken up from the dream with a painful erection and had spend the next ten minutes relieving the ache. Now he was watching and feeling the real thing again. He was so hard, he needed this so much. He knew he wasn't going to last long. He moaned and ran his hands through Byakuya's hair. At least as much as he could. Byakuya had those frustrating things in his hair and Renji had no idea how to get them out.
Renji stiffened as Byakuya increased the suction around his cock. "Byakuya. Oh God. That feels so good." Byakuya looked up at him again and started moving faster. Renji threw his head back and tightened his fingers in Byakuya's hair as he came. The feeling of that throat swallowing around his cock drew out Renji's orgasm until he felt his knees starting to go weak. Byakuya released him and he stumbled back against the wall, panting and shivering.
Smiling, Byakuya stood and moved to one of the chairs on the other side of the deck. He made a show of removing his hair decorations. He could feel Renji struggling with them while he was at work on giving Renji his first orgasm of the day. He felt Renji's eyes on him as he started shedding his clothes. He made the movements slow, relieving his body to Renji a piece at a time. He turned to see Renji's eyes staring at him with a hunger that made his body tingle. "Clear off the rest of the desk. Then finish undressing and lie down." Byakuya watched at Renji obeyed. He swept his arm across the desk, sending the remainders of the paper flying along with a pot of ink, which hit the floor and spilled onto the rug. Byakuya frowned. "You will clean up that mess when we are done.
Renji grinned. "Yes, Captain." He dropped the rest of his clothes to the floor and climbed onto the desk, getting on his knees.
"On your back." Byakuya smiled at the confusion in Renji's eyes as he rolled over onto his back. He was to tall for the position really. His legs hung over the end of the desk, knees bend over the edge. But for what Byakuya had in mind it didn't matter.
Renji watched as Byakuya stalked towards him. Slowly. His hips swaying enticingly. He pulled a draw open near Renji's knees and pulled out a small bottle of oil. Renji spread his knees, waiting for what he thought was coming. He watched in astonishment as Byakuya pushed his legs closed a moment before he climbed onto the desk himself and straddled Renji's hips.
"Byakuya. What…?" Byakuya put his fingers to Renji's lips. Then he bent forward and captured them with his own.
"Shh. Just relax. It's my turn." Byakuya smiled wickedly as he opened the bottle of oil and poured a good amount onto Renji's stomach. He spread the oil with on hand, working it down over Renji's newly straining erection. Once the oil was spread over Renji's shaft and his own hand, Byakuya spread his knees wider and reached between their bodies. He slid a finger into himself, a soft moan escaped him as his body shivered.
His eyes closed, Byakuya jumped when Renji took his wrist and pulled his hand away. "Let me do that. Please." Byakuya nodded and poured oil onto Renji's waiting hand. With his free hand, Renji pulled Byakuya farther up his body so he had a better angle. Byakuya leaned back and gripped Renji's thighs, his body angled perfectly so Renji could see what his fingers were doing. Renji swallowed and slid his middle finger into Byakuya. They both moaned form the sensation. Renji could hardly believe what he was doing. Seeing Byakuya submit to him this way was unbelievable. Having never done this before either, Renji was careful. Byakuya was so hot, so tight around his finger.
Breathing heavily, Byakuya rocked his hips against Renji's hand. "Add another." Renji obeyed and Byakuya shivered. It felt better then he had thought it would. He was nervous about doing this. He wanted it. He wanted Renji to be the one to do it. But it didn't make him any less nervous. "Renji. I should tell you…" Byakuya stopped and moaned loudly as Renji hooked his fingers and send a powerful shock of pleasure through his body that shot straight to his throbbing cock. "Oh God. Do that again." Renji obeyed and Byakuya's elbows buckled under the sensation. He straightened himself out again and looked down with wild eyes at Renji's grinning face.
"What did you want to tell me?" Renji hooked his fingers again and almost came from the reaction it cause in Byakuya.
"Stop that for a moment. I cant think." Byakuya's entire body was shaking. Renji stopped stimulating his prostate but continued the in and out movement of his now three fingers. Byakuya hadn't even noticed him add the third one during the spasms of pleasure that were raking his body. Byakuya swallowed and shook his head slightly. "Go easy on me. I've never done this before. I've never let anyone take me."
Renji blinked and his hand stopped. Byakuya groaned and rocked his hips until he started moving again. "Never?" Renji blushed and looked down at his hand that was buried three fingers deep inside of Byakuya's body. "I have seen some of the lovers you have taken over the years. It's hard to believe that you never allowed anyone to do this before."
"I didn't want just anyone to do it. I didn't want to be taken by someone I didn't love." Byakuya closed his eyes until he felt Renji's hand on his face, his thumb wiping away the tears from his eyes.
"I love you, Byakuya. I will try to be gentle. But I don't really know what I'm doing here."
"It's alright. I'll do the work." Byakuya pulled away from Renji's hand and leaned forward until their lips met again. His hips pressed against Renji's, grinding their erections together. Renji gasped and broke the kiss, his fingering digging into Byakuya's hips. "Just hold still." Renji nodded and Byakuya took his shaft into his hand. Holding it up, he positioned his hips over it and pressed down slowly. When he let out a soft moan of pain, Renji's hands tightened on his hips and stopped him. "I'm alright. Just let me do this." Renji eased up and Byakuya pushed down again.
Renji felt the head of his cock break through into Byakuya's body. He groaned softly as Byakuya gasped and dug his fingers into his chest. "Byakuya. If it hurts, you can stop."
Byakuya shook his head. "I want this, Renji. It only hurts a little. But its already going away."
Renji nodded. He remember how it felt. Once he relaxed it didn't hurt. And he could feel Renji relaxing around him. "Alright. Just please don't hurt yourself."
Byakuya smiled and started to lower himself down Renji's shaft. "I wont hurt myself. I want you inside of me." Byakuya work about half way down and shivered violently. "Oh God, Renji, you feel so good." Panting, Byakuya continued until his hips met Renji's. He rocked his hips forward and back a few times, causing Renji to hiss and moan. He lifted his hips up and moaned. It felt so good. He started a slow rhythm, he was still to tight to go to fast. But oh he wanted to.
Renji watched in amazement as Byakuya rode him. He was so beautiful. His face was flushed, his body was flushed, his eyes were closed, his lips parted as he panted. When Renji found the most beautiful was the sight of Byakuya long, slender hands pressed to his chest, his fingers spread and hooked slightly and they dug into his skin. Renji's own hands had a tight grip on Byakuya's hips, helping his slightly in his motions.
Byakuya started to speed up. His legs were shaking so badly from the pleasure he didn't know if he could do it for much longer. Byakuya gasped and moaned loudly and Renji lifted his hips to meet his. "Oh God. Again. Faster." Byakuya moaned louder as Renji started taking over the work. Renji's hands gripped tightly on his hips and held him in place while his hips pumped into him. He was not only going faster, but harder as well. Renji's hips hit his with the sound of flesh on flesh. Byakuya could feel himself getting so close, and he hadn't even touched himself.
"Byakuya. I'm getting close." Renji started losing the rhythm. But he wanted Byakuya to cum first. He released one of his hands from Byakuya's hips and wrapped it around his cock. As soon as his hand was in place, Byakuya cried out loudly and came all over his chest. Renji's cry echoed Byakuya's. The feeling of Byakuya tightening around his cock was to much. He thrust up hard as Byakuya sank down onto him. His back arched and his head threw back as he released deep inside his Captain.
"Oh God. That was incredible." Byakuya collapsed forward until he was laying on top of Renji. His body was shaking slightly, as was Renji's, and they were both covered in a sheen of sweat.
"I love you, Byakuya." Renji turned his head until he could pressed his lips to Byakuya's neck.
"Oh, Renji. I love you, too."
Byakuya and Renji both jumped as the door to the office flew open and banged loudly against the wall. Byakuya sat up quickly and turned to the door. He paled as he saw Rukia there, her sword in her hand.
"What the hell is going on in here? Who's hurt?" It took Rukia a moment to realize what she was seeing. "Oh my God. I'm so sorry."
"Rukia. Please close the door and leave." Byakuya puffed out an annoyed breath as the door closed. He looked down to see Renji with his arms crossed over his head and the skin he could see from his neck up bright red. "Well. I guess that is one way of telling her about us."
Renji suddenly burst out laughing. Which caused Byakuya so moan since Renji was still inside of him. "Oh God. The look on her face. I thought she was going to faint." Renji continued laughing until Byakuya started to rock his hips. Renji swallowed and moved his arms to see Byakuya looking down at him, laughter dancing in his eyes.
"I don't care what she thinks. I want to be with you." Byakuya blushed and looked away. "If you will have me."
Renji sat up, causing himself to slip out of Byakuya. He wrapped his arms around the man he loved and kissed his neck softly. "Me have you? I would be the luckiest man ever to exist to have that honor. The question is, if you would be willing to have me."
Byakuya smiled. "The honor would be mine. Truly. On one condition."
Renji paled. "What is that?"
"Stop purposely acting like an idiot around me. I always knew you did it for attention. If you want me to hurt you all you have to do is ask."
Renji blushed, but nodded his head. "Alright. I promise."
"And one other thing. You are moving in with me. I want you in my bed every night for the rest of our lives."
Renji grinned. "Have you seen my apartment lately?"
"Yes. You are a slob. But you will not be in our home. Or I really will hurt you."
Renji's face softened. "Our home?"
Smiling, Byakuya took Renji's face in his hands. "Yes. Our home."
"Is the bed the only place you want me?"
"Of course not. But it is where I want you asleep in my arms, every night, every morning." Byakuya pressed his face into Renji's neck. "I don't want to be alone anymore."
Renji pulled Byakuya to him tightly. "I swear on my life, Byakuya. I will never leave you. As long as you want me, I will be there."
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