Two months had passed and Raven felt content in her new life as Rachel. Even Cara was setteling in her new kindergarten. At least she thought so when the leader of the kindergarten suddenly called her at her new job in a book shop.
"We can't find her."
"What? How long?"
"Half an hour. We've called the police and every one is looking for her. I'm sure well find her."
"Okay, I'll be there as fast as I can."
Raven hung up and called her employer, but it took forty-five minutes to get someone to replace her. During this time she tried to sense where her daughter was, but she was too scared and all it did was make the books fly out on the floor. She had just gotten everything back in order when her replacement came and she rushed out. She wanted to teleport to the kindergarten, but there where people all around. She could feel her powers where getting out of control and Raven felt lost. Her own feelings and the feelings forced on her by her powers were making her more and more dangerous.
"Oh Azar please let her be okay."
Her cell rang again.
"I'm on my way."
"Rae it's me."
Raven stopped in her track. The light was red.
"How did you get my number?"
"Actually Cara gave it to me. She's here with us now."
Raven couldn't help but give out a sigh of relief, and the lights blew out. She ducked like everyone else and in the commotion slipped away. She called the kindergarten and told them she had found her, before slipping into a alleyway. After being sure no one was near or looking, she teleported to the island and rang the bell. Dick answered.
"Is she okay?"
"She's fine. She apparently ran away from the kindergarten and found the secret tunnel."
Raven sighed as they took the elevator up.
"Did she say why?"
"She said that she missed us."
The doors opened and Raven ran into the room and hugged her daughter, who had been sitting on floor playing with Kori.
"You can't do things like that Victoria. You scared me."
Cara just looked up at Raven as she rose to her feet.
"We have to go home now."
The girl just turned and walked over to the table where a used plate and a half full cup of milk was standing.
"My name is Cara."
"It's time to go home."
Raven walked over, but the girl backed away. Raven could feel embarrassment grow and did her best to control it.
"You're happy here."
"You don't understand."
"You're not happy at home."
"You'll understand when your older."
The milk erupted out of the cup. The girl looked down at it, before dropping the cup and starting to cry. Raven picked the girl up and did her best to comfort her. Cara would be four tomorrow. She walked back and forth whispering calming words as she had done so many times when she had been the one to lose control.
"Rae, could I talk to you?"
Cara had calmed down, and Raven put her down.
"I'll be right back."
Cara just nodded and smiled. Raven kissed her on the forehead before leaving with Richard. He walked down the hall in silence, and Raven knew him better than to force talk on him. He stopped in front of a room and opened the door. One of the walls portraide a huge painted polar bear in his natural habtat. Another was of a huge whale, dolphins and other colourful fish under the sea. The third wall portraid a jungel with a tiger, birds and flowers. The last was of an African savanna, and portraid the animals so lifelike when Raven touched the lions mane she half expected it to be soft. The ceiling was stars and planets and in the window a robin mobile hung over a robotic toy and a big green chicken.
"It's wonderful Dick. Is this the baby's room?"
She walked over to the window and looked down. She couldn't see him, but she knew he was there. And she knew too well what her former leader was not talking about.
"What do you want me to do? Why did you show me this? What do you want?"
"I want you to come back Rae, but more than that I want you to be happy. He makes you happy."
"That's not important."
He came in and walked toward her.
"Of course it's important. You love him."
Raven hid her emotions very well, as she had trained her whole life, but he still saw them.
"He loves you."
"What do you want me to do? I still can't give him children. I still can't be the person he wants me to be."
She looked down at the floor.
"I'm still the person he rejected."
"Talk to him Rae. Just talk to him."
All she managed to do was nod. Then she walked out of the room, down the hall, down the elevator and out the door. She walked toward his rock, and there he was. Moping as he always did. And her body flared with emotions as it always did when he was around. Ever since he had made her laugh all thous years ago. Not always love, but no man had ever made her feel so much and she knew no man ever would. He suddenly turned and looked at her, before getting to his feet.
"What do you want from me?"
He just looked at her with his usual stupid, wonderful daft look on his face.
"What do you mean?"
"Dick showed me the room."
He flared with embarrassment and Raven walked closer.
"What do you want from me Gar? Just tell me what you want?"
He kissed her. He grabbed her body and pushed it against his, he cupped her face and prohibed her from moving. Not that she wanted to. She kissed him back, in a moment of weakness, before pulling away.
"I love you Rae."
"I still can't give you children Gar, and one day you will wake up and resent me for it."
"I'll resent any woman who isn't you."
"But not your children."
She took a step back to get space.
"You will resent Cara for not being yours."
"Go back to Jenny Gar. Let her help you lick your wounds, and when you're ready she will more than willingly have your children."
She started to walk toward the tower.
"I broke it off with her."
Raven turned and looked at him. He had that stupid look on his face that he so often got when he was looking at her, and the feeling of love was so strong it forced tears into her eyes.
"I love you."
"No, Rae I still LOVE..."
The ground was shaking, but none of them cared. He walked to her, and she was glued to to the ground.
"No matter what I will always wake up wondering how you and Cara are doing."
Raven's face was emotionless, but Garfield knew her well enough not to be folled by that.
"I love her."
"No I do. I love her because she's a great girl. I love her because she makes me feel so much like a man."
He looked down at her hand as he grabbed it. She neither encouraged nor discouraged the action.
"I love her because she's so much like you."
He looked up and smiled at her.
"She got her active powers today. How am I suppose to explain to a four years old that she isn't allowed to feel."
She was crying, and the world below them crumbled into dust and a huge watering hole grew from the spot they stood, but Raven's powers had also acted in and given them an energy platform to stand on.
"Just tell her what you told me, that just because she isn't allowed to wallow in them she still feels. She is still human."
Raven quickly dried her eyes.
"When I figured out I was having her I wanted to call you. I wanted to come running back and hold her up to you and say here a child now love me."
He pulled her close.
"I'm sorry I made you feel like I didn't think you would be a good father. I'm sorry I made you feel like I just didn't want your children."
She was breaking down and Garfield did his best to stay strong, like she had been strong for him so many times.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
"I'm sorry too Rae. I'm sorry I made you leave everything. I'm sorry you had to do it on your own. I'm sorry I made you feel like you weren't enough. You've always been enough. You have always given me what I needed, and when you couldn't I sent you away like a spoiled child and I can never forgive myself for that."
She pulled herself closer to him and dug her face in his shoulder.
"I'm sorry I made you feel alone. You're not. You're never alone Rae."
The place they had been standing on was completely destroyed and Garfield thought about how much energy Raven was using to supress her emotions and how much energy she wasn't allowing to run out of control. But he refused to let go of her. Despite what was happening. He would never be so stupid as to let go of her again. But in the end she forced him to. She took a step back dried her face breathed. Then she moved them to dry land.
"But it's not going to be easy Gar."
"Because this isn't just about what you say and do. This is about how you feel, not just now but in a year, in two, in five. This is about Cara who will love you unconditionally but also feel every emotion you feel."
He looked down on the ground.
"So you really feel every feeling."
"I'm sorry, that's just how it works."
"So when I look at the weather girl on channel 5?"
Raven couldn't help give a smal smile before she got serious again. Gar saw the smile and gave her one back in return. She really was beautiful when she smiled.
"Gar, am asking you if you're going to love me and my daughter forever. To commit to us forever. And I'm not just asking for Cara. I can't hear you tell me I'm not enough one more time."
He kissed her, then grabbed her hand. He ran inside, up the elevator, passed the common room and into his room, and Raven just ran after him. He dove under the bed and started to pull out all the junk that was under there. Raven sat down on the bed.
"And what are you looking for?"
He suddenly emerged, dust over his face and front, with a small box in his hands. Still on his knees he placed it on the bed next to her and opened it. He took some pictures out before continuing to search for something. Raven looked at the pictures. One was of a couple she guessed was his parents. Another of Rita Farr and Steve Dayton. Another again of a huge coloured man with clear tribal outfit.
She looked up and at the ring Garfield had pulled out. Her eyes grew.
"But if someone asks, can we say I proposed to you?"
"Are you sure?"
"No I guess it's fine that you proposed."
She looked down at him as he slipped the ring on her finger. He looked up at her and smiled. Before getting to his feet.
"Rae I get it, but I need you. I have always needed you."
Raven got to her feet and kissed him. She kissed him because she loved him. She kissed him because he loved her. She kissed him because of the ring on her finger, and the photographs and what he had said and what she had said. But most of all she kissed him because Happiness told her to, and she was to happy to argue. He smiled, grabbed her hand and ran toward the common room and when Happiness told her to follow she willingly did.