There's Something Wrong With Me

There's something deep inside me.

It keeps on growing and growing,

Just sitting there, boiling away,

Gnawing at the heart of me.

I know there's something wrong with me.

It hurts to think about it,

Because it's eating me inside,

I just can't ignore it anymore.

There's something wrong.

There's something wrong with me.

It's burning now,

I think I'm beginning to realise

Why my 'friends' don't like me,

Why I am ignored.

There's something wrong with me.

I can feel the source of it,

Although I'm not sure where it stems from,

Self-hatred is clawing at my insides,

The loathing won't go away.

There's something wrong with me.

I want to make it stop.

I really, really do.

But every time I look in the mirror,

The tears well up.

There's something wrong.

I've tried to change,

For other's sakes,

So they don't have to look away,

Every time they see me.

It's wrong.

I know there's something.

Some reason why,

But I cannot put my finger on it,

So I am stuck forever.

It's wrong.

Now here I am,

Hating what I am seeing.

I can hardly bare to look,

I start to cry.

I'm wrong.

Why am I like this?

How can I change?

How can I make this easier for all our sakes?

Help me.

I don't understand. God made me wrong.

There's something wrong with my mind. My life. My body. Me.

I'm not stupid.

I can tell.