A/N: I know that you all probably hate me for taking so long to get this chapter out, and I wonder if anyone is even still out there, but here is the next chapter. It isn't as big as I would like but I figured that you guys just wanted a chapter. The next chapter will have Edward back in it and I really hope to not take as long with it. Thanks for reading :D
The nightmare started out just like all of the previous ones. I was locked in a dark room with a sadistic vampire trying to rape me. I was woken up just like all of the other times by Jake gently shaking me. He had the same loving smile on his face that told me he would be there for me no matter what; no matter how many times he had to wake me from this nightmare. It had been a week. Seven whole days of the same nightmare, the same room, the same gut wrenching scream, the same loving husband to wake me. This was getting seriously old. Jake reassured me that he was here with me and nothing would happen. Even with all of his reassurances, I was really hoping that I would stop having these dreams. It wasn't just the nightmares; it was the lack of sleep. No matter how many hours I laid in bed, no matter how many hours I "slept" I still awoke feeling like I hadn't slept at all. It was affecting my entire life. Keeping up with a newborn was difficult when you were exhausted; even a special newborn like Will. Jake, of course, was amazing, he never argued, he always got up with Will and played with him while I tried to nap, he even kept up with my aggravation. My lack of sleep caused me to have a seriously low snapping point, and everyone was getting the brunt of my anger. I tried my best to rein it in but it was really difficult.
Another week passed and still no sign of Edward. It was still hard for me to get a full night's sleep because of the nightmares but they were getting better. Now at least I could close my eyes without seeing that room. The dreams still came but with less frequency. I was starting to feel slightly more rested and thus feeling slightly better, but I was still tired. William helped to make me feel a little better. I think that he could tell something was wrong with me. Whenever I would think about Edward or if his name was mentioned, Will would whine and want to be close to me. It was almost as if he was trying to protect me. He would snuggle into my arms and play with my hair whenever I would start to feel down. It was very hard to feel upset when you had such an adorable child in your arms. Needless to say, Will stayed with me much of the time.
Three weeks. Maybe he won't come back? Unfortunately Alice knows differently. Every new vision she gets shows him coming after me, but Edward is blocking her from knowing exactly how or when. She is thoroughly frustrated also with the lack of clarity in her visions and continually searches hoping that he will let something slip. The patrols continue and everyone seems on edge, especially my poor husband. We all hate not knowing. The Cullens have been extremely helpful during this time. They helped with patrols whenever the pack had school or at night so that the boys could get some sleep. I feel so guilty that they all have to protect me. They try to reassure me that they are fine with it, but I still feel guilty, especially when I see how tired they all are.
Four weeks, it's been four whole weeks with no sign of him. I was doing my best to relax and spend time with my family. Will was growing into such a beautiful little boy. I loved going out to the backyard and watching him phase and run around with his dad. Carlisle was absolutely giddy watching Will run around the yard and continued to monitor his growth. He was growing slightly faster than a normal baby would, but he was still hitting all of the right stages. When he was in his wolf form, he was much more advanced than a normal child, obviously. He could run and jump and play along with his father, but when he was in his human form he was just an overly large baby.
Two months, and it's getting a little easier to relax. The patrols are still going on and my family is still on edge but I am relaxing. Will just keeps getting bigger and I love him dearly. At night we have started a ritual of taking a family bath together. Jake holds me while I hold Will. Jake and I take turns washing up our son and then each other. I really enjoy these nights. I can tell that Will enjoys the closeness of our family. He is the happiest baby that I have ever seen.
Six months have now passed. Still no sign of Edward and Alice is getting less visions of him. A few months ago she told me of a vision of Edward with a woman. She has seen the same woman a few times over the months but the visions are incomplete and blurred. With her latest visions it seems he might be giving up. Everyone is still on alert and I am never alone which is really frustrating. I really wish that something would happen so that I can have some time to myself again. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and friends, but it is getting a little suffocating.
One whole year and I have some very interesting news for my husband. We had just finished celebrating Will's first birthday when I first found out. I hope that Jake will be pleased.
"Bells, you wanted to talk to me?"
I pulled my husband into our bedroom and sat down on the bed. Will was out with his Aunt Rose at the park so that Jake and I could have some time to ourselves. She already knew what I had to tell my husband because she could smell it on me. She actually knew before I did, the whole Cullen family did.
"Jakey I have some exciting news." I patted the space next to me and he happily sat down. I reached out and grabbed his hands with my own and looked deep into his eyes. "Will is going to have a little brother or sister soon."
His eyes went wide and he jumped up off the bed. He looked down at me and wrapped his arms around me while pulling me up and swinging me around. "We're having another baby." He shouted and kissed me deeply. Unfortunately all of the swinging aggravated my stomach and I just barely made it to the bathroom before getting sick.
"Ugh, this was the only part of pregnancy that I absolutely hated." I wiped my mouth and swished some mouth wash around to get the taste out.
"Oh honey, I'm sorry I swung you around like that. Are you ok? Do you need anything? You're really pregnant again?"
I smiled at his exuberance. "Honey, one question at a time, please." He chuckled and wrapped his arms back around me.
"We're having a baby?" his voice was soft and his eyes wide. He looked so happy that nothing else mattered at that moment.
I smiled and nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck. "I'm about two weeks along right now. I just found out yesterday when Rose told me that she could smell it. It was the most awkward conversation ever."
Jake leaned down and barely touched his lips to my own before pulling back and smiling at me. I wasn't satisfied with just that small kiss and needed more. I used my hands on the back of his neck to pull his head back down to mine. He immediately deepened the kiss and I began pulling him back towards the bed. The way that Jake removed my clothing was so full of reverence that it brought tears to my eyes.
I slowly unbuttoned his shirt and pants and removed them trying to show the amount of love and reverence that he showed to me while he removed my clothing. The slight moans and whimpers that came out of my mouth were only echoed by the grunts and groans from his. He laid me back on the bed and stared at me for a few moments. His eyes were full of awe.
He began at my neck and slowly kissed his way down to first my breasts and then even lower. He stopped to place a sweet kiss on my abdomen before he continued down to where I wanted him most. The moment his tongue touched my clit I was close to exploding. I knew that we only had a limited amount of time before the family came back, so I wanted him inside of me pronto. I grabbed his head and pulled him up. I whimpered at the loss of his touch but after whispering that I wanted him inside of me, his mouth was on mine and he was thrusting inside of me almost in the same moment. The pace of our love making was quick but left us both equally satiated. As soon as we were showered and fully dressed again, I heard Rose's car pull up. Just in time.
"Should we break the news to our little one?" I smiled up at Jake and nodded.
He threw me over his shoulder and I giggled all the way down the stairs. We reached the door right as my oaf of a big brother threw it open. "Did you tell him yet?"
Jake stopped and looked at me with a stern face. "Tell me what?"
His quick wink told me that I should play along. I lowered my head and whispered, "I haven't told him yet. Thanks a lot Em."
Emmett's face fell and his excitement disappeared. He looked almost like I had kicked his puppy. I fell into a fit of giggles after looking at his face.
"Emmett, what was she supposed to have told me? Could it be that we are having another child? Is that what she was supposed to have told me?" He grinned at the oversized vampire and squeezed me tighter.
Emmett broke out laughing and said something about 'not funny' but it was hard to tell between the loud laughter. I knew that no matter what Edward was going to try and throw at us, I was not worried in the least.