Alright, well if some of you are wondering and or worried that I've given up hope on my other story, that is not the case. I have one of the last chapters written, but I started writing the next one and I loved the first half and I'm not too fond of the second, so bear with me while I try to cope with my writer's block. I had an idea I've been messing around with for a few days now and I was debating if I wanted to write it the way it's written now or write it a different way, I'm thinking of when I finish this one putting it on the end to see if you guys would have liked that one better, but I think this one will be good too. Actually now that I've typed that I'm thinking I'm going to keep it to myself and write another story similar yet different from this one later on.
Anyway, when I first thought of this story I was going to write it the way I almost did but then my mind suddenly remembered the book A Little Princess, so it has some ideas from that movie in it. I'm thinking of chaning the title because I have a really good title in my mind I just can't think of how to phrase it. Anyway, let me know what you think of this one so far, good or the bad. This one is going to be updated a lot slower I'm going to say because it's going to take a lot more thought when I write it.
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The usual disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of the ideas I got from A Little Princess
Bella's Point of View
I sat in the back corner of the little coffee shop in downtown Olympia, my hands twisting around each other nervously. I pulled out my phone from my pocket and read the message again; the nerves in my stomach making me want to barf. I knew it, I just knew it. I knew someone like Edward wouldn't want to be in my presence too long. I took the next few minutes until the time he said to meet here to build up my strength so I wouldn't cry in front of him when he broke my heart. I took a few shaky, deep breaths as the clock on my phone changed to 3:30. Almost as if he was wired to be perfect, I heard Edward's calming voice fill my ears.
I looked up at him and felt my breath catch in my throat. Edward was standing in front of me in the camouflage long sleeve shirt and pants and dark boots that I knew all too well as the same outfit the army wore. His long golden hair was cut short in the typical fashion someone in an army would wear their hair not the long disheveled way I knew Edward to wear his hair. I felt tears welling up in my eyes and ducked my head, trying to hide the tears as they started falling. But Edward knew all too well when I was crying and he sat down beside me on the booth seat and wrapped his arms around me.
"Bella, it's going to be okay, I promise you."
I sniffled and looked him in the eyes, not stopping the tears that continued to fall from my face, "How can you promise me that? You have no idea what could happen to you over there."
He looked down, something he never did, "I know, but nothing will happen to me. I couldn't imagine not coming back to see your beautiful face every day for the rest of my life."
I felt pink tint my cheeks and looked down again as the tears kept coming, "When are you leaving?"
A sound escaped my mouth something that sounded like a stifled sob and I noticed more than a couple people look over at us to see what was going on. Their faces instantly turning into a sympathetic expression when they noticed him being clad in his army outfit, as if they knew what we were going through when in all actuality there was a good chance none of them had any idea. He pulled my legs up onto his lap and readjusted his arms around me, holding me close to him and pressing his lips gently to my hair. He ran his hand gently up and down my arms trying to soothe me but failing when I continued crying into his chest.
"You, you can't do this. I can't lose you."
"Bella," He tilted my face up to his again and used his thumbs to wipe the streaming tears from my cheeks, "You aren't losing me. You won't lose me while I'm gone either. My heart belongs to you and it always will. Do you want to know what will keep me going everyday while I'm gone?" I nodded my head and he reached into his pocket and pulled out a tiny red velvet box and opened it, revealing the gorgeous antique diamond ring, "Know that when I get back I'll get to spend every day with the love of my life."
More tears spilled down my cheeks as he slid the ring onto my finger gently and this time the tears were a mix of happiness and sadness from the fact that the man I love, the man who just proposed to me was leaving in only a few hours to go halfway around the world to fight in the war. He wiped away a few of my tears that still straggled down my face and kissed me on my forehead and each cheek before kissing me gently on the lips. He set a few dollars on the table we were seated at and stood up, taking my hand in his before walking out of the café. He led me to his silver Volvo and shut the door after I got in before heading to his own side of the car and getting in. He drove past my apartment and towards the edge of the city.
"Where are you going?"
"I have something else I want to show you." He squeezed my hand gently and turned onto a dirt driveway and wound the car up to the gorgeous three story red farmhouse I had told him about not even a week ago when he asked what my dream house was. "Want to go in it?"
"It's ours." A small squeal escaped my lips as I nodded enthusiastically and he led me to the front door. The inside was just as amazing as the outside.
I walked through the house my eyes traveling across dark oak flooring and up the cream colored walls. I walked into what I pictured as a living room, the stone fireplace seeming like the center of the room. I could easily picture the furniture and how it would look in this room and smiled before moving through the archway into the kitchen. The stainless steel appliances accenting perfectly with the granite counters and the dark mahogany cabinets. I found my way to the stairs to the basement and found a large room I pictured as a family room with a couple of bedroom doors on one end of the room and a utility room door with a complete washing machine and drying machine set along with a shaft for clothes. I quickly made my way up the stairs and found my way up the stairs to the top floor. An office with French doors faced me at the landing and down one hall were two bedrooms and a bathroom linked between the two. I walked across the landing stopping when my hand gripped the door to the master bedroom.
Edward's lips appeared by my ear, "Open it."
I smiled and opened the door, gasping at the sight of the fully furnished master bedroom. The walls were painted a shade of blue that I absolutely adored. The large sleigh bed with its white sheets was the focus of the room. The pillows on top in varying shades of blue. I saw a large arm chair that fitted the room perfectly in the corner, a white vanity sitting directly across the room from it. I walked over to the door that led to the closet and opened it, the massive closet seeming to be far too large with just Edward's clothes hanging in it already and mine wouldn't add much. I closed it quickly, anticipating the bathroom. It was a large room with a black tile on the floor and a large white tub. The shower in the corner could easily fit five and the bowls on the counter that made up the sinks. I turned around and found Edward smiling at me from the doorway and I ran over to him and jumped up, wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck.
"I love it." I smiled and leaned in and kissed him, a smile still playing at my lips. The smile slowly disappeared as the kiss intensified in its passion and he carried me back to the room, laying me gently on the bed. We spent the next few hours making love and lying in the bed together, his arms wrapped around me gently and my face berried in his chest. I must have dozed off eventually because I woke to the sound of his soft voice whispering into the quite room, his fingers gently rubbing my arm.
"Bella, I have to get going." I tilted my head up so I was looking directly at him and felt a new wave of tears coming as he kissed my forehead and got up from the bed and dressing back into the uniform I hated to see him in. He walked over and kissed me on the lips softly a couple times before looking me in the eyes, "Do you want me to take you back to your apartment?" I shook my head and he leaned down and kissed me again, more passionately this time, "I love you, Bella."
"I love you too, Edward."
He reluctantly took his gaze off of me sitting the bed with the blankets pulled up around my bare body. The second the door closed behind him I ran into the closed and slipped into one of his button down shirts and ran down the stairs after him, standing on the front porch as the rain bounced off the roof above me. He looked over his shoulder when he heard my footsteps on the porch and ran back to where I stood, tears running down my cheeks again.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me again for a few minutes before looking me in the eye again, "I love you, Bella, remember that while I'm gone. That's what is going to keep me going everyday while I'm away."
I nodded weakly as he kissed my forehead once more and went back to his car, looking at me over his shoulder before climbing in the Volvo and making his way down the long driveway. I started running after the car, the rain stinging my cheeks, stopping when I reached the middle and couldn't see his taillights anymore and fell on the ground, tears streaking down my face and the rain pounding against my back. I looked back up at where I had last seen his taillights and was amazed at how quite my voice was when it came out.
"I love you too."
I lay down on the dirt drive, his dark blue shirt soaking wet and clinging to my body. My body shook as I sobbed against the dirt. I heard another car pull into the driveway and slam on the brakes when they saw me lying on the ground. I didn't move, wishing it was Edward but knowing in my heart that it wasn't. I heard soft footsteps running towards me and saw Alice squat down in front of me.
"What? Bella, come on, let's get you inside." She grabbed my arm and led me towards the house, "Where's the bedroom?"
I pointed up the stairs and she gently pushed me up them and towards the master bedroom. She poured bubble bath into the tub and filled the tub with hot water before leaving the room, closing the door softly behind her. I climbed into the tub, his shirt still hanging on my body. I don't know how long I stayed in the tub but when Alice poked her head in the bathroom I didn't move, instead I stared at the last bubble in the tub and jumped when it popped. I turned my head to look at Alice and she was still standing by the door, a pained expression on her face.
"What if he doesn't come back?"