hey this is my first story. I don't know if it's any good so and comments would help tremendously. Thanks Squeaky


Realizations

Donner woke startled, sweat pouring off him, breathing erratically, and tears running down his face. Getting out his bed he wipes the tears and sweat away with several swipes of his hand, stretching out his tense muscles he walks out his small room. He's so immersed in his thoughts he doesn't here someone walk up behind him.

"Donner?" Zoe calls startling him. He turns spilling the water he just got all over himself. Letting out a small giggle at his frightfulness which is not something you would expect with an aerospace engineer, Zoe smiles at him. Donner just looks at her annoyed.

"What do you want?" He asks forcefully enough to wipe the smile off her face. Turning around to walk back to her room small tears build in her eyes. "Look Zoe I'm sorry, it's just I had a bad dream." He smiles at her and she wipes her tears away, turns around returns it.

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asks more concern in her voice then curiosity. Looking down toward the floor Donner shakes his head no. "You know you can trust me. Don't you?" She asks seriously.

"Yeah Zo I know."

"Okay. Well I'll see you when it's actually time to get up. Night Donner and if you need to talk or just need company I'm here..in a totally platonic way."

Ever since that day he admitted he was having the same dream as her on a daily basis Zoe had begun to get closer and closer to the one man who had almost made her lose the opportunity of a life time. Walking back to her bunk room Zoe realized not for the first time that she was secretly in love with Maddux Donner, but she would never tell him that.

"I can't sleep. Every time I close my eyes I see her, staring at me, her eyes full of hate, I see her jaw taunt and the creases above her eyes, like she's never going to forgive me." His voice fills with sadness and he sits down in the floor. Turning around Zoe's faced with something you hardly ever see, a man who's truly helpless and it breaks her heart. Walking back to him she sits down beside him.

"Does she ever say anything?"

"No, she just sits there, staring at me never looking away never blinking, but in a way it's comforting." He says dropping his head into his hands.

"It's like she never left you and it makes everything better." Zoe says trying to comfort him.

"Did you know I spent last night alternating shutting and opening my eyes because" before he finishes she finishes his sentence.

"Because you don't know which is worse, facing life without her or facing her soul?" Bringing his head up he stares at Zoe. A look of confusion plastered on his face. "I lost my ex-boyfriend a couple of years ago. We were on the way to my parents for Christmas when our car hit a patch of black ice, we flew off the bridge. He died but I lived." Blinking back the tears that come with the memory Zoe feels a warmness on her cold hand and looks down to see Donner's hand on top of hers. Intertwining their fingers Donner gives her hand a squeeze, which she happily returns.

"I'm sorry Zo." He says this with all the sadness in the world.

"It's fine. I've worked through it."

"Thank you." Looking up into his eyes she smiles. Standing up he reaches a hand to help her up which she gladly takes.

"It'll take time Donner. It took me eight years to realize there was nothing I could do and eventually you'll learn that there wasn't anything you could do." Walking down the dark hallway back to his room he's met with the fact that he is madly in loveā€¦.with Zoe. He'll tell her eventually, but until that day he will be happy with this a very platonic yet unplatonic relationship.