Blind trust brings nothing but pain. You're left in the dark and well you're alone. The only question you ask is "Who can I trust?" You began to think you can't even trust yourself. So what do you do? You stand on the edge of a cliff.
But you're not alone. In this world there is one person that is with you, whether you know it or not, it might be the person that you least expected but that person is the one that you NEED…
Chad sat alone in his hotel room, drinking his life away. He was angry, angry at the world, angry at himself. He had no one by his side and everyone used him.
"Fuck it!" he threw the wine bottle at the wall, the glass shattering.
Then there was a knock.
There was another knock.
"I said go away!"
He got up, unlocking the door and yanking it open. "What the fuck are you doing here, Mckessie?"
She rolled her eyes at him, walking passed him and into the room. She looked around the room in disgust. Then she turned to Chad and shook her head. Chad slammed the door shut.
"You didn't answer my question!"
"What the hell is worng with you, Chad? I came here to help you."
"I don't need help from you."
"You know what don't start talking to me like I did something to you like the rest of these people! I'm not them! I didn't have to come all the way here but I felt it in my heart that it was the right thing to do!"
"Well your wrong! What can you possibly do for me?"
"I can show you how stupid your ass is being right now!"
Chad glared at her.
"What the fuck do you have to say now, Danforth?
"Mckessie, I don't have time for you're sarcasism."
"I'm not being sarcastic. I'm telling you the truth. You have people that don't give a damn about you and all they want is your money!"
"It's not like I don't know that!"
"Well why are you here instead of making things right?"
"Because I don't know how!"
"What the hell do you mean? Chad, women are wanting to have your baby, having fantacies that they will be your baby mamas and or future wife."
"But I'm not giving into that!"
"Not saying anything is making it worse!"
"Mckessie! I don't need you telling me what to do and I don't need you!"
"Apart of me just wouldn't let me forget about you. I don't want to see you like this."
"What do you want! You can have money if that's what your trying to get at!"
Taylor gave him a shocking look and slapped him. "I didn't come here for your fucking money! I am not like those hoes that you be around! But I guess you wouldn't know a real woman when she is standing right in front of you! I have my own and I don't need a man's money. What I would ever want not necessarily need is a real man that will be there for me like I am there for him! This is bull shit, you bastard! Maybe I am wasting my time! I know not to knock your ass down even more but you are doing it to yourself!"
Taylor was about to leave but when she opened that door, Chad shut and locked it. Chad grabbed Taylor by her arm.
"What the hell are you doing?"
"You are not leaving!"
He reached down and cupped her ass, pulling her against him. Taylor looked into his eyes and saw the rage he held. Taylor tried to pull away from him but he had a tight grip.
"Please don't!" she whined. Taylor still had her "innocence" and she did not want to lose it this way.
Chad held her tight against him. As Taylor pushed at his chest trying to get away, Chad lifted her up and threw her on the bed. Then he got on top of her.
"Chad! Stop! You can't do this!" she gasp, grabbing his wrist and trying even harder to pull his hand away.
"Sure I can."
"Chad, dammit stop!" she panted, still trying to pull his hand from under her shirt.
He grabbed both her wrists in one hand and pinned them to the bed above her head. He pried her legs apart with his other hand.
Chad lifted her shirt up, taking it off her. He kissed her neck and Taylor sobbed. He worked his way down kissing the lining of her bra. He squeezed her breasts, which brought a groan form her. Her breath caught in her throat as he unclaps her bra. He lowered his head and teased her with his tongue. Taylor moaned softly but she knew this was not right.
"Chad, don't. Get off of me!"
His hand left her breast to roam over her sides and he roughly massaged her thighs. Chad unbuttoned her shorts and started to pull them down along with her panties. He threw them on the floor. He pulled her legs up and rubbed his fingers over her center.
"No..." she gasped.
Chad quickily took off his clothes.
"You're drunk, you don't know what you are doing!" Taylor said.
He looked into her eyes not breaking contact as he pushed into her. She shook her head and arched her back as he started thrusting into her. Taylor cried out and grabbed Chad's arms. Chad held her tightly as he continued thrusting into her.
She cried out again, wanting him to stop. She was now frantically trying to push him off. Her breathless voice, "You're hurting me! Please! It hurts!"
Chad had no intention of stopping. Chad would never do this, Taylor knew that for sure. He held her firmly in place and waited for her to settle down. Taylor struggled to get free for a few more seconds but she realized that it was a lost cause so she gave up the struggle and stopped fighting. There was a distinct look of pain on her face as tears ran from the corners of her eyes. She still didn't protest. She just lay there, eyes closed. Chad continued kissing her neck and massaging her breasts. Through out she lay, biting her lower lip and she uttered not a word, never made a sound except her breathing.
Chad felt Taylor stiffen but then she relaxed, knowing that what was going to happen, was going to happen, no matter what she did. She was soon breathing faster as Chad continued thrusting into her faster. Again, her body became tense but only for a few seconds. He pulled back slowly, watching her face, then rammed into her again, hard. He wasn't gentle, he wasn't trying to be. He wanted her to feel what he felt.
Taylor opened her eyes and looked directly into his. They stared at each other as he rammed into her over and over. He felt her body begin to relax, felt her hips go upward so his thrust would slide in easier. Soon the feel of her body as he stroked into her, and the eye to eye contact, seemed to be pleasant. He kissed her and to his surprise, she kissed him back. He felt her hips begin to rise to meet his thrust.
Chad pulled her legs up higher as he rammed into her. He could feel himself ready to explode. He pushed hard, ramming as hard as he could. He released himslef into Taylor. He became aware of Taylor's body trembling and heard panting moans from her lips and she arched her back as she too climaxed.
He slowly pulled out, looking at Taylor's face.
Taylor reached up with her hand and caressed his face. "Chad."
Abruptly he pulled back and sat up, realizing what he did. "Taylor, I'm...I'm sorry."
They were both soaked in sweat and Chad moved off of her. Taylor laid on her side and started to cry again. Chad picked up his boxers off the floor putting them on and sat on the edge of the bed.
"Taylor, I..." he couldn't find the words to say. He looked back at her.
Soon, there was silence. Taylor cried herself to sleep hoping the pain will pass. Chad reached over touching her shoulder. She was cold. He covered her with the sheets.
2 hours passed, Chad thought things through and knew that he had to make things right. He looked back again and saw Taylor still alseep. He got up getting their clothes off the floor and went into the bathroom to take a shower. After that he put on some new clothes, he left the hotel. He knew that maybe Taylor would wake up and leave but he had hoped that he would make it back in time before she did.
Another hour passed and Taylor had woken up. She sat up and winced at the pain she felt in her thighs. She looked around the room and saw that Chad was gone.
"How the hell is he going to leave me here?" Taylor was pissed but she saw her clothes neatly on the bed.
Her heart dropped when the door was opening. She stared at Chad as he walked in. He looked up, seeing Taylor. She covered herself up more with the sheet, even though he had already seen her.
Taylor didn't say anything. She saw how red his eyes were and felt sorry for him.
Chad walked over to Taylor picking up her clothes and handed her a bag. "Here, I got something for you. I don't know if it would fit so if it doesn't I'll take it back."
She looked at him then at the bag. Chad sighed then just sat it on the bed. Taylor took the bag and reached inside. She took out a beautiful silk white dress.
"It's...beautiful. Thank you," she said in a whisper.
Chad sat on the edge of the bed again. "You can go get cleaned up and try it on."
Taylor was at first hesitant but got up and went to the bathroom with the dress. Before she closed the door, she stopped and turned her head to look at him. Chad had his head down. Taylor knew how sorry he was and she was willing to give him a chance.
Chad yet again just sat there and waited for Taylor. He heard the shower going and his mind was racing. The reality of the situation sunk in. Taylor could file for sexual assualt against him because he practically raped her then he would go to jail. His life would be done.
"What the fuck have I got myself into?" He mumbled. "Shit!"
All he could think about was what he did to Taylor. The look on her face, her screams of pain, her cries, and the way she tried to push him off of her. He had to make things right and he had to start with Taylor.
"It fits..." he heard a soft voice say.
He looked up and caught sight of Taylor as she came back into the room.
She was beautiful. The dress fit perfectly, showing all of her curves. She walked over to him. She stood in front of him wondering what to say next. Chad got on his knees and reached for Taylor. He grabbed her waist and held onto her.
"Chad, what are you doing?" She was shocked. "Get up..."
He put his arms around her and tightened his grip. " I love you so much. You mean the world to me."
"I don't know what it is that is so strong and has me attached to you and thinking about you. But I don't want it to go away. Taylor, I'm glad that you were the one to come tonight. This feeling that I have and the feel you give me, I don't want to lose. You are different from everyone in this world. I'm so sorry for what I did to you. You came to help me but I was pushing you away. I forced you in bed and I'm sorry. When you were about to leave I got angry. I didn't want you to leave. I wasn't thinking. I made it worse for myself because I did this to you and you didn't do anything. You are right. I was blinded by all of these people that I didn't see the woman that I love right in front me. I never slept with another woman because all I could think about was you. I treated you bad in high school and I'm sorry. I wanted to be with you but I let other people prevent that. I was immature, I know that and I need you, Taylor. I know that you have all the right not forgive me and leave but I really don't want you to. You are so beautiful to me and I know it took all this time for me to admit it but I was caught up in all that other shit. Please don't leave, Taylor. I know I made a mistake and I will do all that I can for you to trust me and to make it up to you. I'm not lying to you, Taylor."
"Chad, I know that we are going to make mistakes. We are only 23 years old. But when we go through things, that doesn't mean we have to give up." Taylor could not believe everything that Chad said. He poured out his heart and it takes a real man to do that. "You were angry and I am going to do all I can to help you. I do forgive you because this feeling in my heart is saying that it is the right thing to do. It takes a real man to admit every wrong that he has done and you have done that."
Chad slowly started to loosen his grip and stood up. "Taylor, about earlier, I didn't mean to hurt you. It wasn't right and I was putting the blame on you. I should've have done that."
"It happened and we can't go back and change it. Nobody will ever know. It's just between us. So don't worry about it because it was out of rage and I forgive you."
"I love you, Taylor. You are my beautiful angel."
She smiled. "I love you, too, Chad."
"I will do everything for you, starting now."
"We will do this together. We are meant to be and I know that."
Taylor slowly placed her arms around his neck and Chad wrapped his arms around her waist. Tears ran down Taylor's cheek. They pulled apart just a bit, then Chad brought his lips down to hers as they shared a passionate kiss.
You may disagree on how this has ended. But one message that you will learn is that no one can judge. Everyone makes mistakes. Life is a challenge. I'm not saying that, that is an excuse to bull shit around and fuck up life, but make a choice to do right. Try to change things that you can control. Be apart of something that is a amazing by changing someone else's life, who needs it. When there is a strong love between two hearts, that is what truly matters.