A/N: Hi everyone! :) This is going to be a long author's note. I've got a lot to tell you.

I originally started this story back in May I think, but gave up because I had no ideas. I've got ideas now. :)

Warning: This story is going to contain mentions of: Self-Harm, Cutting and mentions of Suicide. It's also quite OOC for both Bella and Edward. Also Jacob (who will appear later.) will probably be quite OOC as well.

This story is going to be a lot darker than anything I've ever written. Including all my depressing one-shots. It's set in New Moon. Edward leaves Bella, but the Cullens don't leave Forks. Got that? They are still Vampires.

I'm excited for this story and I hope you all like it. :) If anybody's got any questions just PM me and I'll try and help you. :)

Here's the preface for you all. Enjoy! Oh, and please review at the end! They make me happy!

Update: Rating changed to M because of Self-Harm.


I decided. This was my decision.

I had enough. I wasn't the person I used to be anymore. I wasn't who everybody wanted me to be. I wasn't going to be who everybody wanted me to be.

He didn't want me. He had never wanted me. Everything he'd ever said to me had been a lie. A pathetic lie.

He'd never really loved me. He'd never really wanted to be with me forever. I'd just been something he'd used to pass the time.

A toy. A fragile, human toy.

Well, if he didn't want me then what was the point in being here anymore? He was my whole world, even when he wasn't a part of it.

I'd tried to keep myself whole. I'd tried to not break into tiny little pieces. I'd tried not to let Charlie see how much pain I was really in. I'd tried to keep myself normal.

I walked a little bit further forward until I was standing right against the edge.

This was it.

I forced myself to think the words. The words I tried not to let myself think for the past 6 months. The words that made the hole in my chest open. The words that made me scream.

Edward, I love you.

Just as I was about to jump, I heard the one voice, I'd been longing to hear all this time.


A/N: Please review! :)