A/N: So, this is another Twilight fic based around New Moon. But, I'm not telling you who Bella ends up with because I don't even know myself yet. I do not own Twilight or its characters. With that being said, enjoy the story and please review. I don't own Twilight.
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Chapter One- It Only Hurts When I Breathe
I think you can do much better than me, after all the lies that I made you believe.
The guilt kicks in and I start to see, the edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be.
I told myself I won't miss you, but I remember what it feels like beside you.
I really miss your hair in my face, and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this, you could have done much better than me…
Went looking' through your old box of notes, Found those pictures I took that you've been looking' for.
If there's one memory I don't want to lose, that time at the mall, you and me in the dressing room,
…Wish I never would have said it's over, and I can't pretend I won't think about you when I'm older, cause we never really had our closer, this can't be the end. I really miss your hair in my face, and the way your innocence tastes, and I think you should know this, you could have done much better than me
I'm not living without her. There is no point to it. Nobody from home will help me. I'm going to have to break a whole bunch of vampire laws. But what to do? Throw something, hunt, sparkle? No, I'll just ask to die. I can't be without her in my life. I cannot live without my life. I cannot live without my soul. (A/N: Taken from Wuthering Heights, Heathcliff talking to Cathy also is in Eclipse.) I need her. Bella, my Bella, she's dead. She's gone. I wish I could have seen her before she did that. It's all my fault. I left her and I shouldn't have. I've missed her taste so much. There's only one way to be with her again. I have to go to Italy. I have to die. I only hope that I don't end up in hell. Don't worry Bella; I'll be with you soon love.
Every night in my dreams, I see you, I feel you. That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance, and spaces between us, you have come to show you go on
Near, far, wherever you are, I believe that the heart does go on, once more, you open the door and you're here in my heart and my heart will go on and on
Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime and never let go until we're gone. love was when I loved you, one true time, I hold you, in my life we'll always go on…You're here, there's nothing I fear, and I know that my heart will go on. We'll stay forever this way, you are safe in my heart and my heart will go on and on…
"Edward, no!!" I screamed just as he walked out into the sunlight. Before I could blink, he was pushed back into the alley. Then, I saw smoke. They were killing him. He was gone. I didn't make it. Edward was gone, forever. He thought he was going to be with me. I'm still here. What about me? What am I supposed to do? How will I live now that he's gone for good? I feel like I'm trapped in this life now. And I was trapped, stuck here in this town filled with vampires. I wish someone were here to save me. I was freaking out when I saw blonde hair flash by me. It can't be Jasper could it? No, if it were, he'd make me feel better right now. I felt like I was going crazy already so I decided to see if it was him, "Jasper," I whispered, my voice shaking, and then I was being wrapped up in a pair of cold, strong arms. He smells like home. Home, Edward, gone. I started crying, and Jasper made me feel very sleepy. The last time he did this, I wasn't happy about it, but now I was welcoming the sleep. The next thing I knew, we were at an airport and people were yelling. At who? At me, or at Jasper? I was too tired to think about it right now.
We got to the airport and of course, the first person to see me was Esme. "Jasper Whitlock Hale, how dare you give us all a heart attack? Do you have any idea what poor Alice went through? She had a vision of you in Italy and thought the worse. You are never to do that again." I just nodded to her. I felt bad about worrying everyone, really I did, but I had to save Bella. If I didn't, they would have killed her too.
"Jasper, I hate you so much right now! Don't talk to me." Alice screamed at me. I looked at Emmett and could tell he was going to start but then he saw Bella, they all did. It was as if everyone forgot about her while they were yelling at me.
"Guys, I know we are all mad at Jasper, but let's save it until Bella is better, okay? She went through a lot and she needs all of us together, not yelling at Jasper." Emmett stepped in to defend me, and I was grateful for it. Esme and Carlisle nodded and hugged Bella. She was still out of it and I wasn't even doing anything anymore. The poor girl, she didn't even notice that they were talking to her. She looked up at me and tried to smile. It made my heart break. Alice was still glaring at me, but I could tell she felt horrible for Bella. I looked at Rosalie and the bitch had the nerve to feel smug. What the hell does she have to be smug about? The fact her brothers gone? I swear, she's insane. Then, I noticed Emmett yelling at Rosalie, and he was full of pure rage. It's a good thing that I know he would never hurt her, or I would be seriously frightened for her life. His mood instantly changed from rage to pure sadness, despair and turmoil as he took Bella from me and held her. I looked at Bella and Emmett together and he was happy, almost. He was back in big brother mode and I could tell. If anybody, like those creeps over in the corner looking at her, tried to hurt her, they'd have to deal with us. She is a bigger part of this family now than before. How did we survive those months without her?
A/N: The songs used for Bella and Edwards POV are Better than Me by Hinder and My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion. Hope you enjoyed. I will try to update soon, but school is starting soon & I have to start filling out college apps. Until next time…xoxo