But Most of All Just Kiss Me...
I decided to spend most of my summer with Angela. I hadn't done that since we were kids. I knew that even though she told me she was okay with me kissing Dustin that what he and I had done was wrong. Spending time with her helped me atone for it, I guess. It turned out to be much more fun than I thought. Angela and I went to the movies, to get manicures, to the beach and to the park. I even had to "chaperone" her dates with Dustin in case she got too tired to walk or needed someone to hold her cane and I also went with her to physical therapy, as well. The therapist was pretty hot, too so that was a bonus! Kaylynn finally had the twins in early August. Their names are Danny and Kory. I wanted to hate them for the rest of my life, before they were born, but now that I've seen them, I can't. They're just too sweet and adorable to hate. After babysitting them a few times, you just can't hate them. But I'm sure we'll all be in competition with each other for most of our lives and I'm okay with that. I wasn't really upset when school started back again in August, because I had such a fun summer and I was a junior, now. There was someone I hadn't seen all summer that I pushed to the back of my mind so that I would be able to have a good summer. It was Dirk. I missed him so much, but I left him alone because he was with Ginger and I had learned my lesson about butting into people's relationships. But on the first day of school he left a note on my locker asking to meet me after school underneath the orange tree by the swings. I questioned if I would even go, but I still went.
As I sat up against the tree, alone, I glanced at my watch.
"Three o four. Where is he?" As if by cue, he suddenly appeared, holding a Chemistry book.
"You asked to meet me and you're late." I sneered.
"Well, I wasn't sure if you'd come." He sat down beside me. "So, about this weather..."
"Why am I here Dirk?" I was hot and irritated.
"Well, uh," he choked out.
"Shouldn't you be spending time with your girlfriend and not bugging me?"
"I don't have a girlfriend anymore. We broke up." he said while looking down.
"Oh, so that's what this is about? Ugh! How could you be such a hypocrite? You can't be my fallback guy but, you want me to be your fallback girl? Well listen very carefully, Dirk. It's not going to happen, okay?"
My voice broke on the word 'okay' and I was embarrassed. I got up from the tree and went to sit on the swing with my face in my hands. Dirk followed me and tried to talk to me.
"Look, Lilith. That's not what I meant by what I said. I should've just worded it differently. We broke up because I just don't feel the same way about her—" I cut him off because I was pissed.
"That's usually how it goes." I mumbled into my hands.
"No, that's not it. Stop talking for, like, five seconds." he angrily said.
"I don't feel the same way about Ginger as I feel about you, okay? You're the only girl that ever made me smile all day if I only saw you for thirty seconds. And the same one who puts up with my drill sergeant-like father and the same one who won't hate me for yelling at her. Will you?" I took my face out of my hands and looked up at him.
"No, I won't," I said, sheepishly.
"You're not my fallback girl. You're the girl I've fallen in love with and I don't think I could ever love another girl the way I love you. I tried so hard with Ginger, but I couldn't."
I just stared at him for a few seconds, taking in everything he had said. Then I was pretty sure of what I wanted to do. I put my left hand to his face and slowly moved down to his chin. Then I pulled his chin down to mine and kissed his lips. That's the day we got back together and it was much better than just a secret love for people fighting over other people they have no business with in the first place but, a love that grows in patience and kindness and develops for a lifetime.