heeey guys. sorry i havent updated. :( been busy. i know that isnt an excuse but thats the only thing. buut thats in the past now. :) i will try and updated more, once i figure out whats gonna happen next. haha. (: so i hope you enjoy this chapter, and please review and tell me what you think. and give me ideas for future chapter. (: cause im gonna need all the help i can get. haha.



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Chapter 13: Pain

Bella's Point of View

I was sitting on a rock in the woods, far away from any humans or towns or cities; away from civilisation altogether.

I was staring up at the clouds and thought about what I just did.


Isabelle was laying on the bed, body thrashing and her mouth open with screams. Tears rolled down her cheeks. Her eyes were squeezed shut and I knew exactly how she felt. Watching her brought back the memory of my transformation.

But mine was so different compared to this poor, helpless girl. I was changed because I was dying. This girl was healthy; she had a life with family and friends, and probably a loving boyfriend too.

I sat by her through the whole thing, just like I promised her. I held her hand and told her it would all be over soon. But the truth was: I didn't know when it would end.

I smoothed down her hair, and talked to her while she screamed. When she fell silent for a minute, I thought it was over, but she started whimpering and screamed even louder. It was nearly over.

I sighed and reached over to get a piece of paper and a pen. I tried to act like a teenager as I wrote a letter to her family.

Dear mum,

I'm sorry I have not came home.

I met someone on my way to collect something from outside.

It was an old friend and he said he loved me.

I had always loved him and he said he finally wanted to be with me.

So we went for a walked and we talked about things.

Turns out we were meant to be together.

Mum, don't come looking for me.

I am fine and I will send letters every week.

So please don't be worried about me.

I love you always,

Isabelle Lee Carlton.

I sighed, it didn't sound very convincing, and it didn't sound like anything a 16 year old would write.

I put it aside so Bell could look at it later, and went back to talking to her.

A few hours later, Bell stopped screaming again. I couldn't hear her heart beat, and I knew it was over.

"Bell, honey? Are you awake?" I whispered, gently shaking her shoulder.

She squeezed her eyes shut and squeezed my hand that was still placed in hers. And for the first time since she stopped screaming, I noticed what she looked like.

Her blonde hair was straight and sat perfectly with her new face. Her skin was smooth and as white as mine, her cheeks maybe a little pink; which was weird, rare, yet beautiful in her own way. She looked maybe a little bit like her old self, but altogether she looked like a totally different person. Her lips were full and perfect, and her nose was like an angels. I looked at her differently; I looked at her like my daughter; Part of my life now, part of my family.

My gaze went to her eyes, as they started to flutter open. She looked up at me and gasped. I could tell she was looking at me and everything in a new way. With her new eyes.

"It takes a bit to get used to it," I reassured her, smiling.

She sat up, quickly for her, and she gasped again. "This is all so-" she stopped talking and her eyes grew wide. Her voice was beautiful, and I was glad that I had done this. She was perfect.

"Weird?" I supplied for her. "Amazing?" I smiled and leaned over and gave her a huge.

"Yer," she said and hugged me back hard.

I half choked-half laughed at her. "Um... Isabelle, can you please loosen your grip?" I asked quietly.

She let go and looked at me, confused. "Why?" She was still wide eyed from the sound of her voice. I smiled; I couldn't wait til she saw her reflection.

"Your new; which is what we call a newborn. That means your... stronger than me, and you can run faster." My smile faltered a little when I continued, "And it also means you have to... drink more than me."

She looked at me guilty and pointed to her throat. "It feels like it's on fire. H-how do I get rid of it?"

"Blood," we said at the same time. I smiled at her and smoothed her already perfect hair.

Bell's eyes grew wider again and she started to panic. "But... but I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't have to kill someone do I? Cause I don't... want to kill anyone. I don't like hurting people," and she was off again with her rambling. I grinned her and put my hand on her arm to calm her.

"Bell, it's okay. I don't like hurting people either. We are hunting animals. It's not good drinking human blood, anyway," I reassured her.

She nodded and looked at her hands and noticed the colour of her skin for the first time. "Wow..." she breathed.

I got up and walked to the bathroom, there was a full view mirror stuck to the wall. "Bell, I got something to show you, come here," I called to her. She was there in less than a second and I grinned at her.

She was grinning too, and started to ramble again, "oh my god. That is so fun. I just want to go outside and ru-" she stopped when she caught sight of herself in the reflection. "Wow," she said again.

I hugged her and whispered, "Your beautiful." We both smiled at each other in our reflections and Bell held up her hand and touched her hair and face. "Your a whole new person, you can even change your name," I smiled at her.

"Really? Oh my god. YAY!" and she went through all the possibilities that could happen. "I really don't know," she admitted a minute later.

"You don't have to decide now. We have eternity," I grinned as her eyes widened. "But now, we should really go hunting." She nodded, so I took her hand and we ran out into the woods.

End flashback

"You know I really wasn't that thirsty." I jumped as Bell came and sat next to me. "Wow, that must be a first, scaring a vampire," she laughed.

I smiled at her guiltily, "Sorry, I was just thinking. Must of started daydreaming."

"Hey, no need to apologise. We all need a moment to ourselves," she smiled.

I laughed and patted her on the arm. "So true, so true." I looked at her and gave her a hug. "Bell..."

"Yer?" she said hugging me back, lightly this time.

I laughed and admitted the truth, "You feel so much like a daughter to me. I guess I'm glad I met you, honey." I patted her hair and wished Edward was here to celebrate this with me.

"Awww, Bella," she laughed and kissed me on the cheek. "I'm glad you met me too. Hell, I'm glad you stopped at my house and not my next door neighbours," she laughed again.

We pulled apart and I looked at her eyes; they were already fading from red to black. "Wow... your eyes are already losing their redness. I guess you are special," I grinned. She laughed and punched me lightly on the arm. Then she looked away and hid her eyes.

"Bell... whats wrong, honey?" I asked reaching over to pat her head.

She looked at me, and she had hope in her eyes. "Does this mean my cancer is gone?"

I stared at her and my mouth opened slightly. "Your w-what?"

"My cancer. Does this mean it's gone? Cause I'm a vampire now?" she sounded like she was hoping for it, but she didn't think it could be true.

"O-of course, it's gone now." I didn't even know she had it. And now... I began to smile. I guess I saved her life. It wasn't pointless to change her. She beamed at me, and gave me a huge hug that reminded me of Emmett. She hugged me for a long time, whispering 'thank you, thank you, thank you,' again and again.

okay, well i have to admit. that wasnt very long. :( but thats all i could think of.

soo.. once you read this, give me ideas for the next chapter, and future chapters. (:

i will gladly read all, and think of all the possibilities. :D

loveeeee alina. xo

hope you enjoyed it. (: