A/N: This is a new idea I had ever since Chapter 53 came out. Yes, I know I should be working on OMT instead but this plot bunny was annoyingly persistent. =) Hope everybody enjoys the angst though.

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Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Knight's characters or background plot. I only intend to use them for the fandom's enjoyment.

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Chapter 1

Her Thoughts of Him

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"Why are you making me wear these gloves?" Yuuki questioned Kaname as she watched him carefully tying the lace of her gloves around her wrist.

"It's going to keep you warm. It's chilly tonight, you know." Kaname answered matter-of-factly, a small smile placed comfortably on his lips. "Besides..." He took Yuuki's bare right hand and kissed and gently, red eyes focused solely on Yuuki's reddish brown ones. "I wouldn't want random vampires kissing and touching my precious girl like this." His smile stayed on his lips, a hint of playfulness and a dash of possessiveness evident on his eyes. "Think of it as my way of protecting you from those people... You already know how your scent entices vampires right? What more for your touch? I'm sure it will cause some people to be tempted." He didn't let go of Yuuki's hand but instead he brought it once more to his lips, this time grazing it to feel his fangs. The pressure wasn't enough to draw blood but the sensation of Kaname's fangs on her skin was sensual and heart-stopping.

Yuuki blushed brightly at Kaname's comment, her hand slightly shivering from his gesture. She knew he was doing that to teach her to be careful and alert around other vampires but the effect was exactly the opposite with him. Her senses seemed to be concentrated on her hand and instead of feeling fear, she was excited--almost wanting him to continue.

"Seems like I'm not doing the correct effect though." He snapped her out of the trance she was currently in and continued to dress her right hand with a white laced glove.

"Sorry..." She mumbled, feeling the heat on her cheeks double. "I promise I'll be careful not to touch anyone unless necessary."

"If that effect's exclusively reserved for me, you don't have to be sorry." He flashed a reassuring smile at her before kissing her forehead briefly and then taking her hand to lead her towards the door.

It was time to face the music.

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It was exactly how Yuuki had imagined the ball. The scent of vampires and their haunting auras filled the whole room. The room was brightly lit by large, antique chandeliers and music lightly floated across the room from an orchestrated band. Men and women clad in sophisticated dresses, gowns and tuxedos filled the room, all of them had their attention solely focused on them—her in particular.

She didn't like the way they stared at her. A lot of them stared at her as if she was a thing in display, a rare piece of art that was meant to be revered. Some looked at her as if she was food, something that would quench the thirst that they currently felt. She squared her shoulders and didn't look down, trying to evoke the same air of authority and royalty Kaname so easily exuded. She was very nervous but she grasped a hold of her emotions, keeping her eyes directed forward to nothing in particular. She didn't want to be there at all.

Kaname bent his head to Yuuki's ear level and whispered, "Relax. You're doing really great. It will be over soon."

Just what she needed to hear. A small smile tugged at the corners of her lips, the heat of Kaname's breath still lingering on her right ear. She gave the tiniest squeeze on her partner's hand to express her thanks. 'Thanks, Kaname-oniisama.'

Out of the blue, she felt a familiar gaze on her. Even without looking, she already had an idea who it was. Instinctively, her eyes scanned the crowd once and searched for the said person. There he was in the middle of the crowd, looking at her just like everybody else. His stare though was nowhere the same as the others' gaze. Those familiar sharp amethyst eyes focused on her coldly, void of emotions that show familiarity yet to Yuuki he looked like someone trying to hide a complicated mixture of emotions. Knowing Zero for years, she knew that Zero often hid things and kept things to himself. It was his own way of putting up a barrier around himself. Her heart was thumping loudly in her ears. If only it was easy for her to go up to him and greet him with a smile. He was a person very familiar and dear to her but his eyes reflected nothing of the years they had spent together. She felt as if they were more unacquainted than strangers meeting for the first time.

There was a year of separation that stood in between them. More than anything though, it was not simply time that separated them. It was their own decision to part.

'Yes. Ours. Both him and I decided that.' She thought to herself, trying to justify her past action. 'This was the only way I can set him free.'

The longer they stared at each other, the more Yuuki's heart throbbed longingly. It pained her to see him looking at her with those eyes yet she didn't want to break the eye contact. That was the only connection she had left with him. Even if he stared at her with such coldness, his mind filled with hatred and wish to kill her, she didn't want to look away. She held desperately to that only way she could communicate with him. It hurt to have him look at her that way but at the same time her heart flooded with warmness at the fact that she was able to see him.

'I can see him alive and well.' That thought alone was enough reason for her to endure the pain stabbing her heart.

She thought she could bear the pain but she noticed Zero's eyes started to differ. He wasn't looking at her anymore. He was still physically looking at her yet he wasn't looking at her. He didn't see Yuuki anymore. What he saw was Kaname's sister, a vampire pureblood princess.

That crushed her heart immensely and unbearably. Realizing the unfortunate truth, she forced herself to accept that it was only her that desperately clung to any connection remaining between them.

'He's finally free from me.'

The relief she expected she would feel though never came. Instead, she felt all the more lost and lonely. She bowed her head a bit and turned around, breaking contact from him. It was impossible after all.

She would never admit it out loud but she knew deep inside, she had secretly hoped that Zero and her would at least speak a bit during this ball. She knew it was very close to impossible yet she still hoped a bit. She couldn't help but hope for something she knew her heart wanted so bad.

This time though, she woke up to the harsh reality of their situation—the truth of their relationship.

She and he had nothing to return to anymore. They were never lovers, they were not best friends anymore, they were not guardians anymore, they didn't have anything between them at all—nothing but distance, separation and the sad truth that they were no longer connected at all.

'I guess this is truly our end—our final farewell.' She thought resignedly.

All of a sudden she noticed the change of tone in the orchestra as they changed to a new song. To her, the violins seemed to be playing an ode to her loneliness. It was as if the violins were crying in her stead.

She wouldn't cry tonight. No matter how much she wanted to, she wouldn't show her weakness to these people. No matter how much she didn't want to participate in this pretentious event, she wouldn't run away and hide.

She wanted nothing to do with this masquerade but she knew that she had to do her obligation together with Kaname. She had promised and wanted to stand by her brother to help him in any way that she could. She vowed to herself that she would support him.

Donning her majestic mask and playing the role expected of her, she would force herself to forget her heart's true feelings. She wouldn't show how hurt she was or how much she was crying deep inside.

'Nobody would know—not even Kaname.'

She smiled elegantly and looked at the crowd. "I am Yuuki. It is my pleasure to be meeting all of you tonight."

'Nobody would be able to strip off my mask. No one.'

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A/N: Next chapter is entitled, "His Thoughts of Her". Obviously, that will be Zero's POV when he first sees Yuuki. Their reunion was just so emotional despite the silence that I was compelled to write my own version of it. This one will also cover chapter 54 so please look forward to how I will unravel the story~