And All I Need Is You Next To Me...
"Alice, this is so unnecessary!" I grumbled.
Alice and Rosalie were getting me ready for Alice's and Edward's eighteenth birthday party. They were having a huge party at their house and Alice was going over the top as usual. She practically dragged me by the ear to her room when I walked through the door; scolding me about coming late and that she only had two hours until their guests arrived.
Rose did my hair in lose curls while Alice did something to my face. I was really uncomfortable and I was anxious to see Edward. He and Alice had already graduated so Edward went to Standford and was living in the dorms with Emmett and Jasper. I hadn't seen him in almost a whole year! Alice and Rose stayed in Forks with me but since they had already graduated they were attending college in Seattle and they still lived at home because they only had two classes a week; their families had a lot of money so they were able to travel back and forth without any issues. It wasn't the same without them in school with me; I missed seeing their faces but I missed Edward's face the most. I missed his beautiful emerald green eyes and his crooked grin that made me smile every time. I missed his musical laugh and messy bronze hair that looked silky soft and shined in the sun. I missed him.
Once Alice was done with my make-up, she went to pull out my dress from her closet. I hadn't even seen the dress let alone even known that I would wear one. Rose finished my hair and instructed me to change into my outfit. The dress was very pretty and looked fancy and expensive. I complained to Alice that I couldn't accept a dress this nice but when I did she pushed me in her bathroom, shutting the door in my face. I sighed loudly but otherwise obeyed her wishes; it was after all her birthday. When I walked out the bathroom- dress on- Alice and Rose were already dressed and ready for the party.
"You both look perfect!" I smiled at them and they both smirked at each other.
"Yeah, I know I look hot," Rosalie said with a flip of her long blond hair then giggle at her over confidence.
"Bella, you look so beautiful!" Alice gushed in excitement.
"Thanks, you guys did a pretty good job," I chuckled; I just went along with her because I hadn't even looked t myself yet and I was a little afraid what I would find when I did, like disappointment. Because I would never compare to Alice and Rose.
"All you need are the heels!" Alice clapped her hands and squealed.
"H-heels?" I gasped.
"Yeah," she said as she went to get them from her closet, "They will match your dress perfectly and don't worry they're not that bad. I knew you would get all paranoid and throw a fit so I got you something we both could live with," she said gladly.
"Good," I muttered when she came back with a white box. I opened the box to find that Alice was right; they were perfect for me. I put them on and tried walking around the room and felt confident when I actually felt comfortable in them.
"Okay, they are perfect. Thank you, Alice." I smiled at her.
"Here," Rose offered me some lip gloss, "Put it on. We're gonna go downstairs cause some guests are here and I think the guys just got here as well," she said then walked out the room with Alice behind her.
Edward is here... Butterflies filled my stomach and my breathing came out sallow. He was here- downstairs somewhere- and I would see him in a minute. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to steady myself. You haven't changed that much, I reminded myself. When Edward had left I was still that little girl he grew up with; I was the little girl he played tag with, the girl he grew up with until Freshmen year. When he left I still looked like that little girl but within the year he was gone I had grown up; Alice got to me, she updated me with all the fashion and make-up. At first, I never left the house without something she picked out for me to wear the night before but now she just buys my clothes.
I sighed to myself and shook my head to clear it then walked to Alice's closet to use the long mirror. When I saw my reflection in the mirror I gasped. My hair was in pretty spiral curls that hung lose down my back and shoulders. The make-up Alice did was very natural but she put just enough to highlight my features; my eyes standing out more. I had to agree with Alice; I looked really nice. The dress looked rather good on me and I was pleased with that; it was a dark blue dress that reached my knees and flared out like a ballerina Toto with small puffy sleeves. The shoes were exactly the same color of the dress and the heel was only about an inch and a half. I smiled at my reflection with confidence and the butterflies in my stomach settled down enough that I could breath normally. I put on some lip gloss and headed downstairs at a slow pace; not wanting to bring attention to myself.
There was murmurs of people talking and music on in the background; everything looked great; Alice always did a perfect job on parties even if she went over board, the party was always a big hit. When I was half way down the stairs, I could see people standing and talking and some people were sitting; most of these people I didn't recognized but I did notice some I knew that graduated with Alice and Rose. I scanned the room for my two best friends when I reached the last step and I saw them standing over near the living room with Jasper and Emmett. I made my way over to them as quickly as I could with a big smile on my face; I had missed my brother figures so much.
"Hey guys!" I greeted them cheerfully. They all turned to me and I noticed that Jasper and Emmett's smiles widened when they saw me.
"Bella?" Emmett replied with shock, "Wow, you grew up. Look at you!" he said then gave me a bone crushing embrace and I didn't even care that I couldn't breath because I missed his hugs.
"Yeah, that's what happens when you get older," I smirked causing him to laugh loudly.
"Yeah but it's only been a year! You look so grown up and hot too," he said without shame; causing me to blush, "Ah, and I see that you still blush. At least that hasn't changed," he chuckled and I slapped his arm playfully with a smirk on my lips.
"Yeah, whatever," I rolled my eyes and they landed on Jasper who was smiling warmly at me.
"Hello Bella," he murmured and hugged me tightly, though not as tight or bone crushing as Emmett's embrace, "I have to agree with Emmett. I'll probably have to protect you from all your admirers now," he chuckled softly.
"Sure, sure. It hasn't happened yet so why would it happen now?" I challenged, "but thank you anyways for the compliment," I smiled.
"Ah, you haven't changed as much I thought. I see you still don't see yourself clearly," he smirked.
"I don't know what your talking about," I said stubbornly causing everyone to laugh loudly.
"Yup, Bella is still the Bella we know. It's nice to know," Emmett grinned.
"I missed you guys so much!" I gushed, "High school isn't the same without you guys." I pouted.
"Well, we're here now so enjoy it while we're here," Jasper tried to make me feel better.
"Yeah, no sad faces or talk about goodbyes tonight," Alice said and we all nodded.
"Hey guys!" I heard a velvet voice say beside me, "Who's this-"
I would know that voice anywhere; if I were on my death bed I would know that voice. Edward. His face was shocked and he was just staring at me and I gladly stared back. It had been too long since the last time I saw him and my memories of him did not do him justice; he was breathtakingly beautiful. How could I have forgotten those eyes; those shining emerald green eyes and his messy bronze hair? I couldn't look away from his glorious face and he never took his eyes off me either. It was as if we were in our world; our own private bubble. Or as if the world around us stopped and it was just me and him. Unconsciously, I smile at him and this seemed to bring him back to the present.
"Bella?" he gasped.
"Hello Edward," I said in a pleasant voice, "It's good to see you!" I smiled. He shook his head in shock but smiled and let out a breathless laugh, "It's good to see you too," he said then pulled me into a warm embrace; it was a perfect moment. He still smelled the same and his hug was familiar and comfortable; another thing I missed about him. I pulled away from our embrace- regretfully- and smiled brightly at him.
"Wow, I can't believe it! It really is you! You look... so beautiful" he murmured the last part making me blush scarlet.
"Thank you," I murmured.
"Not the little girl she used to be huh?" Emmett said while nudging him in the ribs playfully.
"No, not at all," Edward said in a dazed voice; never taking his eyes off me. The door bell rang, interrupting his intense stare and more people filled in the house.
"Ooh, more guests! Come on Edward, we have to greet them," Alice exclaimed; pulling Edward along with her. I stared at his retreating figure for a moment but I was brought back to the present when Rose chuckled quietly.
"Bella, can you make it anymore obvious?" she laughed. I turned to her and saw that Jasper and Emmett were wearing huge grins on their faces causing me to blush again. I have a feeling I'll be doing that a lot tonight, I sighed.
* * *
The party was a blast and it ended around midnight. I had loads of fun spending time with the gang and I was afraid that it would end all too soon. Everyone had already left and I was helping Esme and Renee clean up; Rose and Emmett had went outside to spend some quality time and Jasper and Alice were sitting side by side in the dinning room with their hands linked between them. Rose and Emmett had been dating ever since high school and Alice and Jasper have been together in what felt like forever; there was never a time or memory I had when they weren't together. I finished cleaning up the kitchen and made my way over to the living room when I spotted Edward sitting on the couch in deep thought.
"Are you okay?" I asked concerned. He looked up to me in surprise but a warm smile spread across his face when our eyes met.
"Yeah, I'm just thinking about something," he murmured; his smile still in place.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked; making my way over to him and took a seat beside him. He didn't answer right away but instead he just stared at me with a curious face. Then suddenly he sighed and ran a hand through his messy hair in an uncomfortable way.
"Bella," he said turning his whole body to face me, "I have to be honest with you about something," he paused to let me answer so I nodded my head and he continued, "You are not the little girl I used to play with and I'm not saying this in a bad way. You grew up into a beautiful woman," he said softly; pausing to look at me, "Remember when we were younger you dared me to kiss you?" he whispered.
"Of course I remember. I could never forget that day; you should have seen your face," I chuckled and he smiled brightly at me.
"Well, ever since that day I knew that I felt something for you," he began hesitantly, "When we were in middle school, I liked you and I would try to get you to notice my feelings for you but I was such a coward. But then we got to high school and my feelings had changed; they had deepened," he paused again; taking a deep breath, "Not until I started attending Standford did I realize that my feelings for you deepened because I fell in love with, Bella," he stopped to looked me straight in the eyes; his eyes somehow smoldering, "I love you, Isabella Swan," he said in a confident voice, "I have always loved you."
I was in shock. There were no words that came to mind; I was literally speechless for the first time in my life. Edward Cullen was telling me that he loved me. All this time I thought that he only liked me when we were little and that when he grew up he just got over me. I never imagined in my wildest dreams that this would ever happen. He looked away from me and ran a hand through his hair again but this time in anxiousness.
"Please tell me what your thinking," he pleaded in a soft voice looking anywhere but at me.
"I love you," I whispered finally able to get something out of my mouth. His head snapped up when the words left my mouth; looking taken aback.
"What?" he asked breathlessly.
"I said that I love you, Edward. I always had feelings for you too but I never thought that someone like you would fall in love with someone like me."
"Bella," he whispered in desperation; placing his hand on my cheek, "You are the most smart, funny, silly, clumsy," we both chuckled at my clumsiness, "amazing, beautiful girl I have ever met. No one can or ever has touched my heart because it has always belonged to you." I felt tears of joy fill my eyes and blur my vision and when I blinked they ran down my face. Edward placed his other hand on my face- cradling it in his hands- and rubbed his thumbs on my cheeks; wiping away my tears.
"I love you so much," he whispered then leaned in to kiss my forehead.
"Edward," I whispered.
"Yes love," he murmured against my skin; I smiled at his nickname for me.
"Truth or Dare?" He chuckled softly and I felt his warm breath tickle my skin.
"Dare," he said then kissed my eyes.
"Kiss me," I whispered. He pulled away from me then and I saw that he was smiling hugely.
"Promise not to run away this time?" I chuckled at the memory.
"I promise," I smiled.
He caressed my face for a moment- looking deep into my eyes and at my lips- then leaned toward me; stopping about an inch before our lips met. I looked into his emerald green for a long moment and he gazed back but then I felt my eyes slowly close; then ever so lightly, he brushed his bottom lip against mine. Once our lips touched, I captured his bottom lip between mine. I felt my breath come out sallow and my heart was beating fast and loud, I was sure he could hear it or at least feel my pulse. His hands moved to my hair and brought me closer to him so that the kiss deepened and I gladly leaned in. Then all too soon he pulled away but not before he gave one more short kiss.
"I love you," he kissed my forehead, "I love you," my nose, "I love you, "right cheek, "I love you," left cheek, "I love you," the corner of my mouth, "I love you," he said with a lingering kiss on my lips.
"I didn't runaway," I smiled when he pulled away making him chuckle softly; his eyes shining like the stars in the sky.
"Good," he smirked then pulled me into him so that I was resting my head against his chest.
"Bur I'm sorry for running away the first time." I whispered into his chest and reached up to kiss his neck.
"I forgive you," he kissed the top of my head and wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Bella, your parents-" Emmett's voice stopped short when he turned the corner to the living room, "Well, well. Look what we have here," he smirked.
"Hey Em. How's it going?" I said in an innocent voice.
"I don't know but I know what's going on in here," he laughed loudly while I blushed at least two different colors of red.
"I love it when you blush; it's so cute," Edward whispered in my ear; his breath tickling my ear.
"Hey guys! You better come in here you might not want to miss this!" Emmett said in his booming voice; making me jump in surprise.
"What are you yelling about?" Rose came in but stop when she saw how me and Edward were cozy on the couch, "Oh." she gasped with a bright smile set on her lips.
"Emmett, why did you have to yell so loud-" Alice came in with Jasper and they both stopped when Rose pointed in our direction, "Oh my goodness," she murmured while Jasper whistled.
"Dad?!?" Alice called or more like squealed.
"Hey what's going on in here?" Carlisle's voice entered the room with Esme and they glanced our way. I sat up with Edward and we walked over to them- hand in hand- with big smiles on our faces. All the while Carlisle was staring at our linked hands with a triumphant smile.
"I always knew you two would fall in love," he smirked.
"Oh, my, my, my," Esme smiled and rolled her eyes, "You and Charlie have been at that for years," she smiled at her husband then turned to me with a warmness in her eyes, "But I'm happy for you both."
"I'm happy too," Edward said looking down at me with bright smile.
* * *
"Leave me alone!" I yelled then slammed the door in his face.
Who did he think he was? Forbidding me to see my friend! All because he's jealous about something he doesn't need to be jealous about. Jacob Black was my friend and I had a right to see him! At first I was upset at the fact that he didn't want me to go visit him but he took it too far when he took out the battery in my car when I tried to see him. So I slammed the door in his face and that's what he gets. It was late and I had nothing better to do so I thought I could go visit my old friend Jake; I hadn't spend too much time with him because it was summer and I spent most of my time with Edward since he was on summer break as well. I didn't understand why Edward would be so upset about me wanting to see my friend, Jake was a great friend; he was the person I hung out with when the rest of the gang graduated. Jake was so nice to me all the time and his friends were hilarious. I missed them all so much; it felt like forever since I lasted saw them. Why would he be upset at me for wanting to see my friends?
This was mine and Edward's first fight. It felt weird to be angry at him and not have him with me to hold me and comfort me when I was upset; like all those other times during the couple of months we've been together. I sighed loudly when I reached my room then shut the door behind me in frustration. I was supposed to be angry with him! It had been a long day, well it felt that way because Edward and I had been in this heated argument since this morning when he came over like he always did. I brought up the subject of visiting Jake and that's when things started to heat up and everything went down hill from there. He's so irrational sometimes, I sighed. I laid down on my bed to tried to sleep; hoping to wake up feeling better in the morning. But I was restless. Guilt was boiling inside me and I longed to see Edward to tell me that I was sorry and I that loved him but he was probably home, angry with me.
I woke up feeling like I only slept a few hours and feeling miserable about the fight I had with Edward. My body felt sore from not sleeping comfortably and my eyes were red from crying myself to sleep. I got dressed in comfortable clothing- not caring if Alice yelled at me about what I was wearing- then went downstairs to have breakfast. My parents were still sleeping so I decided to just eat an apple and leave as quickly as I could; I really wanted to see Edward and fix this mess. I grabbed my keys to my truck and headed out the door in anxiousness; but stopped in my tracks when I saw him laying down on top of his Volvo fast asleep. He did not stay out here all night, I panicked. I ran quickly to his side and felt his forehead; he was freezing cold! Luckily I was wearing one his Standford sweaters, so I pulled it off and threw it on him; causing him to stir.
"Bella?" he whispered.
"I'm right here," I murmured; stroking his hair gently. He opened his eyes and looked at me like he was in pain.
"Bella, I'm so sorry about yesterday. I don't want you to be angry with me. Please forgive me. I love you so much. I promise not to be irrational anymore," he whispered in a rush.
"Edward Culled please tell me you did not stay out here all night?"
"But I had too. You were angry with me and I didn't want to hurt; I could never do something like that to you. I love you," he murmured and sat up to take me into his arms; laying his head on top of mine.
"I love you too," I whispered then kissed him, "Next time please stay out here; I don't want you getting sick."
"Okay, I'm sorry love," he kissed my forehead, "So I'm forgiven?"
"Yes; I could never stay angry with you forever. I love you too much." I smiled up at him.
"I love you too," he said lovingly then grabbed my face and kissed me deeply.