heroChild of my Enemy
~A/N: Okay, here we go with chapter sixteen. Sorry to you Wave fans, didn't really mean to kill him, but it fit with my story…so, it kinda happened. I love Wave, he's my fav Decepticon….but it made for an interesting story and will make Silver's resolve and her revenge against her father that much stronger. Alright, so read on!
~Chapter Sixteen: Secrets Kept; Silence Sealed~
I sat with Silver as she recharged. Her breathing was steady and her spark pulse was even…mine, however, increased. I was so close to her I could feel her spark pulse and her soft breath against my frame…stop it! I scolded myself. Now was not the time to be thinking those things…not after what she's been through!
I ran my hands across her frame gently, listening to her breathing. Her hand clenched and unclenched against my frame as sobs hitched in her throat. She was mourning, even in recharge. My spark ached for her, she was so young and she had been through hell and back again….only to lose someone she actually cared about. I knew the feeling, and it hurt like hell!
I stood to my feet and started to leave when her hand grabbed at mine.
"Don't…" she whispered.
"Don't what?" I asked, sitting back down next to her. Her grip tightened around mine and I felt her shudder.
"Don't leave….I'm scared." I felt my world collapse around me. Silver? Scared? I took a shuddering breath and held on to her hand.
"I won't leave." I told her, brushing my fingers against her helm. She nodded slowly and lay back into her pillow, her optics fluttering shut.
I watched her recharge, my spark heavy.
There was a knock on her door and I stood to my feet quickly, rushing to answer it before Silver woke.
"Prowl?" I whispered, my optics wide as he stood in the doorway. He reached out and rested his hand on my shoulder.
"Go recharge. You've been here for several hours. Let me take a turn." I glanced over my shoulder and nodded, stepping out of the room and giving Prowl room to pass by me.
I watched him close the door and heard the berth creak as he sat down slowly. I sighed and moved towards the recreation room, knowing I would find no recharge tonight.
I stepped in and found the lights out. I sighed heavily and reached for the switch. I turned a light on and stepped behind the bar, pouring myself a cube of energon.
"Make that two, if you don't mind." I glance up and saw Prime step in, his shoulders slumped. I nodded once and poured another cube, handing it to Prime as he sat down at one of the tables. I poured myself a cube and joined him.
"What's wrong, Prime?" I asked, sensing he needed to talk. He stared at his cube for a while, and then glanced up to me. I was startled to see his normally bright, azure optics were dim with sorrow. I reach across the table and rest my hand against his forearm. "Optimus?" I asked. His optics glanced back down to his glass and his fingers tightened.
"It shouldn't have been her." He breathed out. I nodded and understood his meaning. Silver had taken so many blows and they should have knocked her down. She carried the burden of us all, she was just like Prime.
I glanced back and saw Prime's hands had clenched into fists and I managed to move in time as the cube went hurtling past my helm. I looked over my shoulder to see it shatter, and then I let out a gasp and leapt to my feet.
"Blue, what are you doing here?" Prime's head shot up and he looked over to me to see Blue was standing in the doorway.
"I heard voices, came to see if I could join you." I nodded and helped her to the table, pulled a chair out for her and let her sit down.
"Of course you can, can I get you something?"
"Energon would be nice, thanks." Her smile was soft and kind, and given the circumstances, it was a wonder she could still be so kind. I walked over and poured a cube for Blue. I walked back over and set it down in front of her. She reached for it and took it in her hands, pressing the cube to her lips and taking a small sip.
"Are you okay?" I asked her, watching her closely. She glanced up to me, her optics still blank, but I could feel the emotion behind them.
"She's in pain, Bee, and she doesn't understand why." I nodded slowly and glanced back down to the door, where Silver's quarters lay. Prowl was with her, and that meant she was safe….but it didn't stop me from worrying about her. She meant a great deal to me, more than she probably should. I toyed with the cube and stood to my feet.
"I'm going to go check on Silver. Are you okay, Prime, Blue?" Prime nodded and Blue smiled. I smiled back at her and tapped her shoulder, stepping out into the hall. I headed back towards Silver's quarters.
I woke slowly, trying to let my systems come back online slowly. I glanced around and found Prowl had hold of my hand.
"Prowl?" I called. He sat up and locked his optics with mine and a soft smile crossed his lips. He traced his fingers over my cheek-plates and brushed the tears away.
"How do you feel, sweetspark?" I lowered my optics and let them dim slightly. Prowl pulled me against his chestplate, cooing softly.
"I know its hard love, but you'll be alright. You're much stronger than you give yourself credit for." I just shuttered my optics and leaned into him for a few seconds before sitting up right. I swung my legs over the side of the berth and let my feet touch the floor
"I am going to go for a walk around the base, clear my mind, if that's alright?" Prowl nodded to me and I stepped out of my quarters, into the hall and almost into Bee. "Whoa! Sorry, Bee. Didn't notice you there." Bee smiled at me and tilted his helm to the left.
"Where are you headed?"
"Out for a walk around base….need to think things over." I turned to leave when Bee's hand rested on my shoulder.
"Want some company?" I started to protest, wanting to be on my own. Something in his optics, however, changed my mind and I shrugged my shoulders.
"If you want to, I don't mind." I walked off and Bee trotted to catch up with me, walking alongside me. I glanced over and let out a soft smile as Bee walked alongside me, heading for the one of the large exit doors. I stepped out into the light and cringed at the brightness of the sun. Bee stepped ahead and motioned for me to follow him into the woods. I followed after and let out a soft smile as the sun peeked in among the trees. No wonder Prowl and Jazz wandered out here when they had the time. I let out a heavy sigh and leaned against a nearby tree. Bee had stopped walking and stepped towards me, his hand resting on my shoulder.
"Silver, are you okay?" He asked me, concern flickering in his sapphire optics. I glanced up to him, then stepped away and hugged myself.
"How do I forgive myself….for what I did? How do I ask forgiveness for a mistake that cost a life, and nearly my own? Along with everyone else's!" I spun and swung my rolled fist into a tree. Bee grabbed my hand and pulled me into him, clasping his arms around me as I struggled to keep my tears in check.
"You have to start by forgiving yourself…before you can ask others to forgive you." He placed both his hands against my cheeks as his optics stared back at me with a new intensity. Something in my spark flipped and a new feeling lanced through my system. I reached up and caressed his cheek, running my finger-tips across his nose. Bee's hands were still against my cheeks as he leaned forward, his breath mingling with mine. He hovered there for a few seconds before I closed the distance and kissed him. My spark did several flips as we stayed like that for a few astro-seconds before he pulled away. I felt my cheeks flush with heat as Bee traced his thumb over my cheek-plate, kissing the bridge of my nose. He rested his forehead against mine and sighed gently.
"I have been wanting to do that for a long while…" I suddenly heard whooping and glanced past Bee to see Sunny, Sides, Kacey and Blue were standing on the edge of the forest. I growled lowly as Bee blushed and followed my gaze.
"BOUT TIME YOU KISSED HER BEE!" Sunny screamed, waving his arms above his head. Bee looked back at me and tapped my nose.
"Excuse me a moment, while I get tear some afts apart." He spun and sprinted after Sunny and Sides, leaving Blue and Kacey with me.
"Awww….look who's blushing." Kacey teased. I jabbed my fist into her shoulder and chuckled. "So, how was it?"
"I'm not telling you that!" I gasped.
"Come on, please?" Blue asked. I looked down at her and just shook my helm, chuckling.
"It was everything I had imagined it would be. And so much more." I glanced up as I heard shrieking, metal crunching and yelps of pain. Sunny, Sides and Bee tore off in their vehicle forms, speeding around the base and dodging mechs and femmes alike.
For once in my life, things seemed to be heading in the right direction. Little did I know, that was all about to change from bad….to worse.
~OMG! I am soooooooooo sorry I have not updated in f-o-r-e-v-e-r! I have a lot going on, between my new job, taking care of my animals, soccer and all sorts of other crap, I have been so busy of late. Well, I hope you enjoy and leave reviews. You know I LOVE reviews! XD Scarlett-Spider~