Can't Afford To Lose You…

By L. Hiiragizawa

Disclaimer:           Screw disclaimers. Read the previous ones. But I would just like to repeat… I do not own Selena's Dreaming of you.

AN:                         So I guess this is farewell to this fic. *sniff* thank you all for reading and reviewing my work… this is such an honor… *sniff* I just finished my semi-finals and just screwed Bio… grrrr… Please review for the last time and tell me if this is an awful ending. I would be glad to accept bad comments.

Till Forever

"The boy and the angel's best friend was me"

…And his angel…

My one and only angel is you."

Tomoyo Daidouji's head had been in pain thinking…


And remembering.

Everything had been coming back to her since she had stepped into the grounds of peaceful England. She was reminiscing every single memory she had left behind.

All the joys…

The smiles…

The pain…

Never had she learnt how the world revolved in its beauty in Tomoeda. She lived so long before in a world of make believe…

Knowing nothing in the world is sad but everything was focused on its brighter side. She had never felt how it was to be living in dimness; away from all light…

Being able to love and learn its consequences…

And to be secretly loved in return when things get all blurry in sight.

It was just now…

Just now that she had become real to everything that was hidden away from her innocence.

Just right now.

She was caught in front of a mansion. Its doors were closed and the light illuminating its dark insides was in its faintest glow, which was clearly shown from outside its windows.

"I wonder…"


Knock. Knock. Knock.



A groan.

"Suppi. Suppi…"

A yawn.

"Get it yourself."

"I'm too tired Suppi. It must be master. Get the door."


A thump.

"Alrrrrrrrrright. But I warn you. You won't get away with this."

As soon as the last voice was heard from the outside, the door flung open.


"Do you now understand what hurt it is to love? And not to be loved in return? Do you now understand how destiny can pain you? Do you now understand that I have fallen in love? Not to anyone else Eriol…"

 But you."

Eriol Hiiragizawa has been picturing a certain picture in mind while walking on the grounds of where he grew. He secretly smiled at the thought.

There in England, he opened his eyes being a mere reincarnation of the world's greatest sorcerer. He had lived in shadows…

In darkness…

And everything a normal human does and feels. He was deprived of the world's smiles and anything good. He longed to be free and feel everything he wants to feel.

He never chose his fate to be an identity of someone's one who had already lived.

But it wasn't until he saw her and knew her.


She who had taught him how to admire…

Go crazy…

To love….

And learn its consequences.


"You LOVE him? I knew it mistress! I knew it!"

"Stop squealing like a witch Nakuru…it's past 12 in the morning. Have pity to those who are asleep!"

A muffle.

"Did you hear that Suppi? Mistress loves master…he was wrong!"

"I know. I have ears dammit. But can't you see I'm trying to sleep? For goodness sake!"

Tomoyo watched as the two fought and gave a sigh.

"But he still has Anya. I am not expecting him to pity me in the first place."


The two guardians gave her a long, quiet stare.

"He must have confessed but who knows if it's for real?"


The early morning still.

The two just locked their eyes on her in pity.

"But anyway, I have to go. I'll wait for him later. I need to rest."

Tomoyo stood from the couch she was sitting on. Nakuru and Spinel whose arms were still frozen up in the air in a near attempt to scratch each other's faces, just stared at her, jaws slightly open.

As she neared the door a shout was heard.



Eriol stood in front of a certain door, thoughts in a mental battle.

What if she still hates me?

What if she won't accept me anymore?

What if I get hurt again the second time around?

What if I fail?


Knock. Knock.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

There was no answer but only the rustle of the leaves from the trees nearby. He felt his eyes slowly closing and his sight got heavy. He felt his feet move away from the house in instinct and found himself in front of his own home.

'She still hates me…'

As soon as he entered the house, four piercing eyes greeted him.

"Go up to your room and settle things straight."


Tomoyo stared up at the night sky above her which was still freshly sparkling amidst the fact that the clock had cuckoo-ed a while ago.

2 a.m

She still cannot sleep though her eyes were biding her to do so. Her body was weak but the thought of him made her lips twitch in a smile. A familiar song had filled the room. She felt an urge to sing.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star
that somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me and
I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside would you even care

I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say
How much I love you

Cause I'm dreaming with you tonight

Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Than here in my room

Dreaming about you and me

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said I love you…

She sighed and continued to stare outside the window. The room was quiet and she could only hear her herself breathing hard.

But not for long…

Clap. Clap. Clap.

She turned around and saw a blue-haired boy sitting on the bed smiling at her. The only weird thing about him was he had his glasses off. Tomoyo was surprised at first and just gave him a stare but later on she found herself grinning at the sight.

"Why so early?" he teased.

"Shouldn't you be in bed?"

"And why do you care Mr. Hiiragizawa? Does time care when you visit a friend?"

Eriol chuckled and pouted afterwards.

"A friend? You only consider me your friend?"

Tomoyo came in front of him with hands on her hips and one brow raised.

"Why are we an item Mr. Hiiragizawa?"

Eriol stood up and took a step near her making her back a bit.

"Not exactly but maybe…"

She found him advancing to her with the same sheepish grin on his face. But Tomoyo was quick and turned her back to him before he'd corner her.

"Hah! Why so expectant? I still haven't forgiven you. Besides, I am not pleased with what you've done to me a while ago. You think I could give in so easily? You must be too proud of---"

As she turned around to face him she found him kneeling in front of him with his puppy dog eyes pleading her to spare him.


"You said you haven't forgiven me so here I am kneeling. Like the view?"

"Stand up this instant!"

"I'm sorry Tomoyo. Would you forgive me? Please? Pretty Please?"

"I said… Stand up this instant Eriol. I'm not a god."

"But to me you are."

He smiled.

"Very Cheesy."

"Why? Do I look like I'm joking?"

Tomoyo, who in despair cannot make him stand up, made her way and sat on the bed, arms crossed.

"Nice try."

Eriol stood up and stood in front of her with hands wiggling.

"Ah… so you're playing hard to get, eh Tomoyo?"

She sensed something very dangerous as he wiggled his fingers in front of her. It was like there was a sign hanging on them saying "watch out", and indeed she would for Tomoyo knew what's going to happen next as Eriol's grin widened and her face was sketched in shock.

"Oh no. Oh no. You are joking right? He he"

She moved backwards as he crawled towards her still wiggling his "killer fingers" but as she reached the other end of the bed, she knew she was dead.

"No I'm not. As long as I haven't heard the words that you have forgiven me, I wouldn't seem to be joking."

She caught his hands with hers in an attempt to stop its wiggling.

"Okay I forgive you. Now is that fine?"

He smiled wider and Tomoyo sighed in relief.

"No. That doesn't convince me."

And in a second, his fingers caught her hips and tickled her mercilessly. Tomoyo was now laughing uncontrollably, rolling in the bed to stop him from what he was doing.

"W-wwhat do you want?"

He stopped tickling her and looked intently into her eyes.


"Excuse me?"

"I said I want you."

"Duh! I am here right now!"

"Why just now?"

Tomoyo gave him a confused look but somewhere inside her she was smiling.

"Can't you make it till forever?"

She pouted.

"You have Anya."

He pouted too.

"You have Nate."

They returned their gazes and shouted in unison.

"Not anymore!"


"I-I have to go now. It's getting late."

Tomoyo was about to leave the bed when a hand had caught her arm.

:"Not so fast Tomoyo."

She saw him smiling as he grabbed her back to the bed.

"You cannot leave me now that I know you're here."

To Tomoyo's surprise, their faces were just inches away.

"W-what do you want?"


"Come again?"

"Sing the last part of my song… you always leave it hanging."

Tomoyo couldn't resist. She had also waited for the time to finally sing the last part of Eriol's song. And why couldn't she? His hands were encircled on her waist that sent shivers down her spine. She gulped and closed her eyes.

'Here goes nothing'

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight

Till tomorrow and for all of my life

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly

She opened her eyes and found Eriol smiling sweetly that she almost melted in happiness.




"Cut it out!"

"Very sexy…"

"Shut up Eriol you're squeezing me."

He tightened his embrace on hers and whispered to her ear.

"Ever wonder why I do?"

He faced her and locked his gaze with hers.

"Because I cannot afford to lose you."

Eriol bent down to kiss her and as Tomoyo felt his lips on hers, she smiled her very contented smile for the first time in her life. And she knew for sure that this day is the best day of her life. She now believed that after all those pains, she'd smile finally at the end. Her life wasn't unlucky at all and it was fair enough. Destiny's game had brought him finally to her and she knew that she wasn't at all destined to be alone. Her tale had a happy ending after all…

And no…

This wasn't a fairytale.

For indeed, everything was real.

AN:         This is the fic's end and I'd make this clear: there will be no sequel to this… if this chapter was too sappy or mushy please do let me know but I'm not like other authors who make sequels because the tendency is it would increase the sappiness and I'm against that (on the case of my fics okay…no offense).

                But I have an upcoming project, which is an AU, and please do watch for it. It's another ExT for you people demanded me to do so. So THANK YOU to all of you and please do watch out for the next fic… this is for me better than this one. ^_^

                Btw, thanks to those who really supported me. I just don't want to mention names: you guys know who you are

                P.S     Go to my profile to know the summary of my upcoming project. Ja ne peoplez and God Bless!