A/N: This is my first fanfiction story. Please be gentle.

Disclaimer: I own nothing.



Housten Texas, 1864

A knock on the door startled me from my thoughts. I was re-reading the last letter that Jasper sent me. Longing for my husband was the most dominant feeling.

Jasper and I were only married a couple of months before he decided to join the Confederate Army. I begged and pleaded for him to reconsider but he wouldn't listen. He argued that it was his duty. I had reluctantly agreed to it, because I didn't want to argue with him. I just wanted to make him happy.

The second knock on the door got me moving. I got up from the table and went to answer the door. Two men in uniform were standing there, their hats under their arms. "Can I help you?" Alarm coursed through me

"Mrs. Whitlock?"


"We regret to inform you that your husband, Major Jasper Whitlock, is currently missing in action and presumed dead, ma'am. I'm truly sorry, Mrs. Whitlock, he was truly a great man and will be greatly missed."

I didn't understand at first. Jasper was dead? No, that's not possible. I just heard from him two weeks ago.

"How long?"

"About a week, ma'am." The soldier said. "I'm sorry."

"Thank you." I whispered. I kept myself composed as I closed the door. As soon as I was alone, I sank to the ground, leaning back against the door and cried. I cried for my husband, I cried for myself and I cried for my unborn child who would grow up without a father. My hands went to the small bump sticking out between my hips. No, Jasper can't be gone. He promised we'd always be together.

"Jasper…" I whispered, closing my eyes.

Chapter 1


Forks Washington, 145 Years Later

High school.

No matter how many times I've gone, it is always the same thing. Same material, same emotions, same hormonal teenagers lusting after us.

Today was different. Curiosity and lust, were overlapping each other, making me dizzy. Expect these emotions weren't directed at us. If not us, then who? I wondered absently.

"There's a new student." Edward said, reading the question from my head. "Her name is Bella Swan."

Bella Swan. That name sounded eerily familiar but I knew I've never heard it before. At least I didn't think I've heard it before.

"Anybody see this Bella Swan?" Emmett asked, his eyes darting across the cafeteria, as though trying to see her.

"Ask Edward." Alice chirped, slipping her hand into mine. "If anyone's seen her, it would be him."

"I haven't seen her for myself, but I have seen her in the minds every male in the school." Edward grumbled, picking at his bagel.

"Do you smell that?" Alice asked, suddenly.

I was no where near ready to inhale and smell the scents of all these humans. It would be sensory overload. "What is it?" I asked, holding my breath.

"It…sort of smells like a vampire." Rosalie answered.

"What do you mean sort of?" I asked.

"The scent smells human as well." Edward said, scanning the cafeteria slowly. "It must be Bella Swan. I've never smelled a scent like that before."

The next minute, the girl herself walked inside, flanked by Mike Newton and Tyler Crowley. The girl was beautiful. She had mahogany hair that fell to her waist and chocolate brown eyes that were so deep and full of so much emotion. She looked familiar but I couldn't quite figure out where I've seen her before.

Edward glanced at me from the corner of his eye.

Can you get a read on her? I asked silently.

He shook his head.

How is that possible?

Edward shrugged.

Real help you are. I growled silently. I felt the irritation rolling off of him in waves. He pinched the bridge of his nose. Okay, okay, I get it. I held my hands up in surrender. I'm sorry.

Edward nodded his head once in acknowledgement.


I was walking to the cafeteria with Mike and Tyler following behind me like lost puppies. It was annoying and certainly getting on my nerves.

I paused outside the door of the cafeteria, tweedle dee and tweedle dumb running into me from behind. "Is something wrong, Bella?" Mike asked, pushing his blond hair away from his eyes.

I inhaled once. There were definitely vampires around. I couldn't pinpoint how many there were but I knew they couldn't be human drinkers. Human drinkers wouldn't be able to interact with humans. For one, the red eyes would give them away almost immediately.

"Bella?" Tyler interrupted, putting his hand on my shoulder.

"I'm okay." I said, shaking it off. I went inside and looked around almost immediately. My gaze flickered to the table in the back where the inhumanly beautiful vampires sat. There were give of them. Three males and two females.

Mike and Tyler were leading me toward a table full of people. I paid them little attention. My thoughts were otherwise focused on the vampires.

"Who are they?" I asked the girl beside me. I think she said her name was Jessica.

Jessica followed my gaze and caught sight of who I was talking about. "Oh. Those are the Cullens. They're Dr. and Mrs. Cullen's kids." She answered with a slight swoon. "There's Edward, Emmett and Alice Cullen and Rosalie and Jasper Hale."

I stiffened at the last name. No, it can't be.

It was hard to tell from where I was sitting. I wish he'd turn around, just so I would know for sure. My wish was granted and he turned around. While the only thing that stayed the same was the honey blond hair, I would recognized him anywhere. It was him. My Jasper.

"Excuse me." I ran at a human speed out of the cafeteria and leaned against the wall, breathing in the cold air. Hysteria was bubbling up as I fought to calm down. Breathe Bella, I coached. Just breathe.

That's kind of hard to do when the love of your life is here, after thinking he was dead for 145 years. My hands slipped to my flat stomach. My baby, our baby was lost shortly after he was born. It shattered my heart into a million pieces. I was ready to give myself up and let death take me. I didn't get that wish. Instead, I got turned into a vampire, forced to spend my immortal life remembering everything that I lost.

I wanted to cry, but even in my human form, I was unable to. I could shift my apperance so that I looked human but I still had the qualities that made me a vampire.

Then I realized how hard the rain was falling. I stood up slowly and headed inside.

My resolve strengthened when I saw them all staring at me. I realized I needed to talk to them. I made my way over there slowly, stopping in front of the table. I didn't look at Jasper. I saw him holding a hand that belonged to a pixie girl. She must have been his mate. Pain coursed through me when I realized I lost my husband again.

"So you're vampires." I said bluntly.

Shock showed on the faces of all five of them. "How did you know that?" the blond haired model demanded. "You're human." She spat.

"Looks can be deceiving."

"Who are you?" The bronze haired god asked.

My gaze flickered to Jasper before jerking my gaze at something above their heads. "My name is Bella Swan—"

"Yes, we already knew that."

"Edward!" Pixie hissed.

"—Whitlock." I finished.

The silence around the table was deafening. Strange, since no one was talking. I waited for them to gather their thoughts until all hell broke lose.

"That's impossible." Pixie said. "Jasper doesn't have a wife. I'm his wife!"

"Jasper and I were married a year before he joined the Confederate Army." I said quietly. "For all intents and purposes, I thought he was dead. In my mind, Jasper Whitlock has been dead for 145 years."

I studied Jasper's face, carefully. His disbelief was obvious on his face. Did he not believe me?

"All right. Follow me if you don't believe me." I turned and walked out without looking back to see if they were following me. I led them to the forest behind the school. And stopped, leaning against a tree. It didn't surprise me that all five of them were there. When you out them on a secret as big as this, they were bound to be suspicious.

"Lets see it then." Edward growled.

I nodded once and closed my eyes, concentrating on my power to revert back to my original form. After five distinct gasps, I knew it worked and I opened my eyes.

"It really is you." Jasper whispered, staring at me.

"Yes." I knew what he was seeing. My hair was still the same length but it was more reddish brown then plain brown. My eyes were honey gold and my body was pale and as hard as stone, marking me for what I was.

"How did this happen?" Alice asked guarded. "How did you become a vampire?"

I could understand her wariness towards me. I ignored the underlining question that she didn't want to say to Jasper. Why did I die when they said I did?

"It's complicated. It would take too much time to explain everything."

The blond haired model, who I knew must be Rosalie, frowned while the tall curly haired brute, Emmett, grinned. "Why don't you come over after school and explain then?" Edward suggested, having calmed down more then the rest of them.

"Edward, is this really necessary?" Rosalie hissed at him.

"Yes, Rose. We need to get the story straight. Besides, don't you think Jasper deserves to know what happened to his wife after she thought he died?"

No one aruged but I felt a pang of loss. I saw Jasper looking at me from the corner of my eye but I ignored it. I needed time to calm myself down before I told them my story.

"Fine." Rosalie said. "Come on, Emmett."

"Coming, Rosie." The two of them left, leaving me with just Edward, Jasper and Alice.

"So what do you say, Bella? Will you come?"

I hesitated, meeting each of their faces. "I'll be there at four. There's something that I need to do after school."

Edward nodded his head in agreement. "I'll call Esme and Carlisle and let them know." He said.

"I'll meet you back at here at four, then." I said.