A/N: I know i haven't updated and I apologize. I've had a lot of personal things going on. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this!
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
"Babe, come back to bed." Emmett yelled to me from the room.
We had one amazing night and I was in our bathroom freshening up.
I jumped back into bed and I snuggled up against his chest.
"Hey, babe, look at me."
I looked up and he had the biggest smile.
"What? What is it?" I loved his smile, it was one of those smiles that was contagious.
"You know I love you, right? You're the only woman I've ever loved."
"Yeah, I know that. You know I love you, too."
"You are the only one for me and I want to spend all of eternity with you and that's why I have this." He handed me an envelope and told me, "Open it."
I open the envelope and inside were two papers. The first was an application for adoption.
"What? Emmett are you serious?"
"Of course I am. I know how badly you want to have a baby. I talked to Carlisle and he said all our papers look legitimate so we could if we wanted to. The blood-lust is bearable and if they're our child we would never do anything to hurt them. We're both adults and I think we're ready. I think this is a perfect start for us."
"Oh my God, Emmett. I don't know what to say. I think it's a wonderful idea. I…I…I'm so happy."
I jumped on him and gave him the biggest hug and kiss.
"Wait, hold on. Read the other paper."
I was still on his lap when I grabbed the papers and flipped to the next page. It was the papers for a new house.
"Oh my God. Ahhhhh!" I started jumping up and down on him so we were both moving about so much we fell off the bed. We were tangled up in our sheets and fell in a big heap, and just started cracking up.
Everything I had dreamed about was coming true at this very moment. The man of my dreams bought me a house and wanted to adopt a child with me. I wanted nothing more than to be a mother and he had just given me the greatest gift I could have ever asked for.
"Emmett, we're gonna have our own house and our own family. I'm just so happy right now I could cry."
"Now you know how much I love you. You are my soul mate. I feel strange when your not around, like I'm missing a part of me. I just love you so much."
"I know exactly what you mean, like I'm empty inside. Not only is my heart not beating but it feels like its completely missing when you're not with me. I can't even explain it. We are soul mates. We're meant to be together forever."
She had the most serene look on her face, like she was in a different place at the moment. She looked so peaceful, like she was ready for what was to come.
She seriously thought I was going to do this.
I couldn't believe she was asking me to do this. I mean, I know she was devastated but not to the point where she wanted to die.
I know we didn't start getting along until recently, but I would never do that.
I actually care for her, I think of her as my friend.
I knew as a friend, it was my job to help, but I knew this wouldn't help anyone.
There was no way in hell I was going to do what she asked. I knew she would hate me for not doing it, but I was willing to take that risk.
Rose was just in a bad place and it was my job as her friend to help her get through it.
I knew what I had to do.
I turned to Paul and said, "Paul, just go home."
I wanted to be here for Rosalie and didn't need Paul around. He wasn't exactly the most understanding guy and I didn't need any of his shit right now.
"Rose, look at me. I'm not going to do this."
"Please, Jake. Please," she said with pleading, desperate eyes.
I knew better than to give in. I wanted so badly to make her happy, especially since she hadn't been happy in a while. This was not the way to do it, far from it.
"Rose, you're just going through a hard time right now. Things will get better. I promise you they will."
"When, Jake? When will they get better. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. But I can't fall asleep. You don't know what I would do to be human again. I didn't ask for any of this."
"Rose, you can't give up. You just can't. Carlisle wanted you to have a second chance at life. You were too young for your life to end and you're still to young now. This family wouldn't be the same without you. I know you can't tell but I can see it in their eyes, how much they love you. They would be devastated. You would miss out on so many things, you would regret not being here."
"You're wrong. No one would miss me. I'm going to spend all of eternity alone. My soul mate is with someone else. What am I supposed to do? I'm not going to find another soul mate. That's a once in a lifetime thing and its just not a possibility for me anymore." She paused and said, "Well, since you won't help me, I guess I'm stuck here."
"It is a possibility. Look at it this way, Emmett isn't your soul mate. He wasn't the right fit. There is the perfect someone out there for you and you have yet to find them. You're not stuck here, you're lucky to be here. You get a second chance at life. There are so many people who would gladly take this opportunity with open arms. What I would give to have my mother back, so you know what? I'm not letting you waste this chance. You deserve a full and happy life and that's what you're gonna get. I will do my best to make sure of that.
She deep in thought and remained silent for a bit before she spoke up.
"I'm sorry about your mom. I didn't even think about it. I always saw it as a curse, something that was thrust upon me. I guess I am lucky. If it weren't for Carlisle I wouldn't be here period."
"God, I feel so stupid! I cant believe I wanted to die over some ass hole. What the fuck was I thinking?"
"Hey," I put my arm on her shoulder, "Don't beat yourself up over it. You had every reason to be upset. But I'm glad you're feeling better.
"Well, not a hundred percent, that's for sure but yeah I'm ok I guess."
"You're not gonna feel one hundred percent better over night. I know it will take time but you should realize how lucky you are. You have a family who loves you and a wonderful niece. What I would give to have a family like yours."
"They're your family, too. "
I smiled, this is the first time she admitted I was part of the family.
It was good to know I had one family who I could count on to love me.
"Thanks. You don't know how much that means to me. It's really nice to have some place to go to right now."
"What do you mean?"
I hesitated. I didn't want to burden her with all my family issues when she had a lot going on at the moment.
She asked again, with a concerned looked on her face. "What do you mean?"
"Well…me and my dad haven't been getting along. He says I spend too much time with you and your family. He says I'm a traitor to our people and if I don't 'sever' ties with you guys that he's gonna kick me out of the house."
"What?! How can he do that?"
"Because he's my dad. I just think he's jealous because I spend more time here than I do at home. Honestly, I don't like being home. My dad and I just fight. We just don't get along. I like it here better. I feel like this is home."
"You are here a lot. Well, I really don't know what to tell you. Maybe your dad is just a bit jealous. Maybe he wants to spend some quality time with you."
"Well, if he does, he has a weird way of showing it. I just can't stay away form Bella and Emma for too long."
"Hey, Jake, can I ask you something?"
"Are you in love with Bella?"
Shit, that was quiet a bold question.
Just when I was about to answer her, Esme came to get us. She said there was someone in the living room who we would definitely want to see.
Oh, it must be Bella, back with Jasper and Alice from the airport.
When I walked into the living room, I was not expecting to see the man who had broken my cold, un-beating heart. And hand in hand with my brother, no less.
I took a step back, stepping on Jake.
I looked at him, too shocked to even apologize for stepping on him.
He shook his head to let me know that no apology was necessary then wrapped his arm around my shoulders and led me to the couch, opposite the fucking happy couple.
I was still too shocked to say anything.
This was a big fucking surprise.
I thought I was going to be ok, I really did but then I saw him and all those awful emotions came back, hitting me like a ton of bricks.
Carlisle and Esme sat in between us forming a semi-circle.
Jake and Emmett were having a stare down for a few seconds when Carlisle finally cleared is throat and spoke, "Um, Emmet, Edward, what can we do for you?"
"We've come home to see our family. We would really like to see the newest member of the family."
"Jake was about to say something when I grabbed his hand and shook my head. I wanted to see how Carlisle would handle having them back and what his course of action would be.
Emmett gave Jake another dirty stare after glancing at our hands.
I quickly let go of Jake's hand and looked down.
He moved closer and grabbed my hand again. This time, he returned the dirty glare.
I let Jake hold my hand. I didn't want Emmett to know I was still hung up on him. I didn't even know if it was possible to make Emmett jealous but I sure as hell was gonna try. Luckily, Jake was on the same page.
Emmett stood up, looking furious.
"Damn, Rose, I knew you were a slut but I didn't know you would move on so quickly," Emmett yelled.
God, the nerve of the bastard. And my "brother" didnt even say anything. What a douche.
Jake took a step forward but I put a hand on his chest.
I turned back to Emmett and said, "Shut the fuck up Emmett. At least I waited a few months. You were fucking my brother while we were still together."
"We were only together once while you and I were together."
"Oh, you're a fucking liar. Why should I believe anything you say? Look where trusting you has gotten me."
I just couldn't deal with this shit right now. I had to get out of the room.
I stood up and went to mine and Emmett's old bedroom.
I grabbed all his shit and threw it in a pile out of the window. I started with the stuff in the drawers and then moved onto the closet. When I was done throwing all his stuff outside I got my nail polish remover, hairspray, and lighter and set all his shit on fire. I have to say, it felt so good.
I could hear everyone run outside and someone turn the water hose on to put out the fire.
I heard Emmett yell, "Rose, What the hell is wrong with you?"
I went to the window and yelled back, "I needed to make room for Jake's stuff. He's moving in with us."
"What?" He yelled furiously.
I went over and sat at the bed. I would let Carlisle deal with him, I knew he would do what was best for the family and I really couldn't deal with him right now. I was liable to get violent.
Not ten seconds later I could hear Jake running up the stairs.
"Rose, what was that all about?"
"I'm sorry. It was just a spur of the moment thing. I was thinking, you should have this room, for when you want to stay the night. There's no need for you to be sleeping on the couch when you're the only one of us who actually sleeps. I really can't stay in this room, I just can't. I'll ask Carlisle if I can have the study or one of the guest rooms."
"But, what would Carlisle say?"
Esme appeared in the doorway and said, "I think it's a wonderful idea. Jake, you're a part of this family and it's only fair you have your own room here. Well, if it's ok with your father."
"Actually, it's perfect timing, really. Would it be alright if I moved in permanently?"
"What?" Esme asked.
I knew it was coming and didn't see her saying anything other than yes.
"Well, my dad has been threatening to kick me out. I've been wanting to just move out but I don't have anywhere to go."
"Oh, Jake. You poor thing. Of course you can stay here."
"Oh Esme, thank you so much. You don't know how much you're helping me out right now. I just hope I won't be any trouble. I'll start looking for a job to pay rent and utilities and for other things."
She walked over to him and embraced him in one of her motherly hugs. She cupped his face in his hands and said, "Oh, honey, we would love to have you here. There's no need to pay us for anything. You don't have to get a job unless of course you want to. Go get your stuff. The room will be ready for you when you come back."
The way he looked when she was holding him, it made me a bit sad. To think his dad was behaving this way with the only child left at home. I just didn't understand.
"Thank you." Jake said with a sincere smile.
Jake returned a while later with the rabbit all packed up with his stuff. I was getting the last few boxes out when he came into the room.
"Here let me help you."
When we were done we plopped onto the couch.
"Rose, I just wanted to say thanks. I would've never had the guts to ask if you hadn't done what you did."
"What? Oh, you mean go psycho on Emmett?" I said with a laugh.
"Haha, yeah that was pretty awesome. I hope you don't mind what I did."
"Actually, it was pretty smart. If I had to suffer and see him happy then he should have to do the same, or at least think I'm happy."
"Well, you may not be happy right now but you will be. Trust me."
"Oh I do." More than he knew.
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