AN: I own nothing, no vampires are mine, no wolves, either. They either belong to SM or to Ninadoll!
So, as many of you know, Seth is my favorite wolf, and upon reading Ninadoll's "How Wonderful," hearing his lines and finding out he was a doctor, I had to totally control myself. Nina gave me the okay to do a story in her universe and I'm thrilled to present this to you.
A special thanks to Ninadoll for betaing, creating the universe, and for her support. Enjoy!
And, finally, check out a story I'm helping KupKakes09 write called "Bastard Child and Lonely Wolf." It's an Embry story and it's sure to rock your socks! Thanks again!
Prologue: Love You for Always
"Why are we leaving?" Ava asked, propping herself up against the car.
"We're not, I am," I said, putting my last bag in the car.
"And why is that?" Ava asked.
"Because…I have to…things are too…you wouldn't understand," I was talking in fragmented sentences, holding my deepest secret inside.
"Try me," she cocked her head to the side, looking through her big beautiful lashes. "I don't get it, Abs. You've never been one to run away from things. You've always dealt with them head on. What's driving you away?"
"Nothing," I turned around to face her. "Ash isn't saying goodbye?"
Ava looked at the bay window in the front of the house, shaking her head. "She's mad at you and she wants him."
"Yeah, well," I stopped there, torn between wanting to call out his name and never wanting to hear it ever again. I felt my stomach flutter and I put my hand over it, lurching forward and throwing up the contents of my empty stomach, the stress and the disappointment of the situation getting to me.
"You think I don't know why you're leaving? He doesn't know, does he?" I wasn't sure when my little sister became so wise, at the moment though, her wisdom made me want to strangle her more than applaud her.
"He doesn't need to. I'll be back. I'm not going to be gone forever. I just need to go away for a little bit," I couldn't stand the look of my little sisters' tear stained faces.
"We aren't a family anymore, are we?" Ava looked down to the ground. "All that died with Mom and Dad, didn't it? What happened to the promise you made us? That we would never not be a family?" Her eyes were clouded with thick, painful tears.
"We'll always be a family, Ava, always," I choked back my own tears, finally finding the strength to hug her, holding on to her like it was last time I would ever see her again. A part of me would, the part that was just her sister, when I came back, if I came back, I would be different, I knew that.
"He loves you, Abby, and if you leave, it'll kill him," she whispered gently in my ear, rubbing circles on my back, comforting me like she was comforting a child, soft and soothing.
"And I'm doing this because I love him. He doesn't need my baggage, our baggage. He's a well respected pillar of the community and I won't ruin that," I felt ashamed in her arms. I owed her so much more of an explanation than that, but it was too embarrassing and hurtful to tell her what had really happened.
"You haven't done anything to ruin that, Abigail. You're both grown-ups, you made your decision to take that step because you loved each other. Look me in the eyes and tell me he's not the man you know you'll spend the rest of your life with," she was right, it was a lame excuse to leave, but it was the only thing I could think of to explain what was happening, what was going on in my life. He was perfect. He was everything every girl dreamed about and, I thought for awhile, he was mine, but not anymore.
"He deserves better than me," I finally cried, feeling like a dam had burst and every tear I'd held in rushed out. There was no doubt in my mind I loved him with every part of my being. The things I couldn't tell my sister were the consequences I was dealing with because of that love. As well as the rejection that set in the minute he tried.
"There's no one better than you," she rocked me back and forth, I could hear the desperation in her voice. "He'll keep you safe, he'll love you for always."
Love you for always…the last thing my parents said each of us everyday before they left for work, the store, anything. The last thing they said to us that morning. The only thing anyone could say to me that might make me stay. It didn't work, I had already made up my mind and I knew this was what had to be done.
I pulled away from her, running my hand down her porcelain cheek. "Take care of Ash and listen to Aunt Tess. And call me, anytime. Whenever you need someone to talk to or whatever," I bit my bottom lip as she shook her head.
"He loves you, Abigail. He loves us all," Ava begged, gripping me tighter by the arms. "I know what's going on, Abby, please, please we need you."
I pried her hands from me. "I can't," I whispered, wiping my eyes as she sobbed. Her cloudy eyes followed me as I climbed into the Subaru. I couldn't look back at her though, putting the keys in the ignition and cranking the engine. "Remember what I said? Take care of Ash and listen to Aunt Tess."
She wouldn't look at me now either, keeping her head low as she nodded. I shifted the car into reverse and slowly backed out of the driveway. Ava finally looked up, her sobs wracking her chest and guilt taking over within me. I didn't stop though. I shifted into drive and headed out, not even looking in the rear view mirror to see the world, the love, the everything I was leaving behind.
I didn't have the courage to check the rear view mirror at all, keeping my gaze focused ahead. It wasn't until I reached the city limits, that I noticed the sign, "Now leaving Forks, Come back soon." It was the sign's opposite side that I reluctantly looked at through the rear view mirror that brought back memories and images that flooded my mind, "Welcome to Forks." It was that easy, a new beginning, the days before I met him. And then seeing the sign everytime I came home from La Push, feeling an emptiness without him, the same emptiness I felt right now. A part of me wondered if I'd ever see the "Welcome to Forks" sign again, or if my brain would be engrained with the opposite side. I pondered it all in my head, feeling so foolish and part of me begging myself to turn around and go back. It wasn't until I glanced out my driver's side window to see a huge blackish-brown colored wolf sitting by the road eyeing my car and reminding me of the biggest reason I was leaving.