HELLO PPLzZ!! yes..I changed my name..AGAIN...but I decided Im keeping this.. :D possibly..hopefully. :D

sooo SORRY its been so long..I hav no excuse apart from rly rly rly rly rly RLY bad writers block *ARGH* but its all good now. so currently this is the....6th attempt at updating this..for some reason its not letting me update any of my fics so if ur reading this then it miraculously workd this time :D yay....so here we are..WAIT.

PLZ READ THIS!!!! the bit at the end of the last chappie with . its not working for me nd I cant mak it work for the rest of the fic nd its rly bad nyway coz its 1st person nd I just dont do 1st person fo rthe obvious reason..its shit wen I write it....so I hav reposted the chappie before this with no changes apart from the end. if u dont get it ask me, review or PM ermm..I was thinking cutting it out totally but that would just kill the fic..so..plz go bk, reread the end and then come bk here and..as always..

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italics is Arthur.

Chapter Five

No, no, no, no, no, no, no...that cannot be happening, she thought as she rushed down the hall towards the Physician's Chambers.

She burst through the door, not even a knock to announce her presence. And then she stopped at the sight before her.

Gaius was seated at the table flipping through a book, surrounded by many others. Merlin sat beside a small bed near the fire.

Arthur lay on the small bed.

At her entrance Gaius looked up, Merlin glanced at her the turned back to Arthur.

"What happened to him?" her voice was quiet and filled with concern.

Gaius told her all he knew. "I'm afraid, unless I can find out what is causing this, there is nothing I can do."

"Could he be poisoned?"

"Merlin has already thought of that. We found no evidence to support that and if it is it is no poison I know of. He has no symptoms, no fever and he doesn't appear to be in any pain. All we can do is hope he just wakes up." The Physician watched the girl closely then, knowing he could do no more for her, he turned back to the numerous books flooding the table.

After a few moments the maidservant covered the area between herself and the Prince. She dragged up a chair and sat down on the opposite side of the bed to Merlin.

The young warlock glanced up at her briefly before returning his eyes to the unmoving Arthur. The friends sat in silence, both trapped in their thoughts, both waiting for some miracle to happen.

"I know how you feel about him." Merlin suddenly broke the silence, though his voice was barely more than a whisper.

Gwen looked up, eyes shingin with unshed tears. "What?"

"And how he feels about you," he continued.

"I don't know what you mean, Merlin," a small, innocent (A/N omg. OUCH. just had a sneezing fit and bit my tongue!! :( ow..) smile playing on her lips.

"It's ok, I won't tell anyone, I've already promised Arthur that."

"He told you?"

Merlin shook his head, "Not exactly."

A questioning look was directed at him.

"When we set out, it was not because Morgana begged, well, she did. But she didn't need to, Arthur made up his mind almost as soon as he found out. He didn't bother an argument with the King, he simply left, I assume to get to you faster. On they way he didn't sleep, he barely ate and when we stopped he was always agitated to get moving again."

"But how did you know? I mean, know for sure?"

"We stopped at a river to wash berries off our faces."

A bewildered look from Gwen.

"That's a different story. But when we stopped I asked him, I told him it was so obvious and he just...snapped. He told me everything."

Gwen didn't know what to say.

"He loves you Gwen. More than I think I will ever know." And with that Merlin stood and left Gwen alone with her Prince.

She sat in silence, thinking over everything Merlin just told her.

"Gwen?"

She was started out of her thoughts by Gaius.

"I have to see the King, I will be back but could you watch Arthur while I'm gone?"

She nodded, "Of course."

Now alone she reached out and grasped Arthur's, usually strong but now limp, hand. She brought it to her mouth and placed her lips gently on it, then held the cold flesh to her cheek.

"I don't know if you can hear me Arthur," her voice was uncertain but caring and gentle. "But I need to tell you, I need you to know, I don't know what you think happened between myself and Lancelot, all I know is I caused you pain. And I am so sorry. You must understand, I thought I was going to die and Lancelot was the only person I knew, the only person who was not cruel to me. He was there for me. How was I to know you were coming? I thought that if I managed to escape alive that Lancelot and I would be together. You said yourself, we cannot be but Lancelot and I, we can be, he's the son of a farmer, I'm the daughter of a blacksmith. I don't know if I felt that way about Lancelot from the beginning or simply because he was there when I needed someone to be there but I know that I do not feel the same way about him as I do about you. Please, Arthur, please just wake up."


Images flashed through his mind. A new presence beside him, the familiar presence leaving him.

A soft, warm hand taking his, kissing it. His hanging limply, not being able to move. Words spoken that caused more pain, more turmoil. Slowly retreating back into that caged place in his mind, where it was safe, where he could hide from the cruelty of the world.

That sweet, soft voice urging him to come out into the open. To where he could get hurt. That sweet, soft voice, he wanted nothing more than to throw his arms around the body that owned it but he could not. The words that had been said forcing him to run, retreat further into his mind cage* where nothing could harm him. Where he could be safe...


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