This is the end of the road! Lou's letter is up and ready to go. Thanks to everyone who had read and reviewed this story, I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. :)I hope that Lou's letter comes across the way I meant it to.
Dear Ed, Jules, Sam, Sarge, Spike, and Wordy,
I don't go a day without missing you, but I wish you wouldn't miss me so much. I've left you now, and it's time for you to move on with your lives. That doesn't mean I want you to forget about the family we had, but I want you to embrace the future, and let the past be the past. Thinking about how you could have changed the events that day won't do you any good, and there was nothing any of you could have done anyways.
What hurts me now is the blame you keep putting on yourselves. It was my choice to go diffuse the bomb, and if I hadn't gone out there, it would have brought down the building and the kids with it. In all honesty, it was solely rotten luck that caused me to step on that landmine, but I had a job to do, and that job is to save lives. I have no regrets going out there.
I hope you all know how much you mean to me. You were what held me together on bad days; you were what kept me going everyday. I feel blessed that I had the luck of knowing you for so long. Every time one of you shone, I felt so much pride. If I could do it all over without ever meeting you, I wouldn't have done it, not for an instant. No matter how long my life would have been, it wouldn't have been worth living without the team.
Right now, I want what's best for you guys. That means I want you to fully accept Leah as your new teammate. I've seen her work, she's an incredible team member, and she truly cares about all of you. Just remember that she's the rookie now, and don't hate her for her mistakes. Every one of us was the rookie once, and we all made mistakes at one point. I say it's high time to haze her; putting cream cheese in her vest is a classic. Make her feel welcome, because she deserves it.
Jules, my dear, sweet Jules. You are the little sister I never had. Ever since we joined the team together, I loved you like a sister. I was so proud of you when you went above and beyond to save Tasha and Penny's lives; you were incredible out there. You have no idea how worried I was when you were shot, I could barely finish the call I was so worried. I'm just so thankful that you were okay.
I can't express how glad I am that you were in my life, I really can't. Whatever choices you make in the future, I hope you know that I will always support you, as long as you're not doing anything that would harm you. You're the toughest girl I ever knew, and the SRU is incredibly lucky to have you.
Keep your head up high, and I hope you know how wonderful you really are.
Sam, the Samtastic rookie. I wish that I had gotten to know you better, too, but what can you do? I'm incredibly glad that I got some time to spend with you, anyways. Though I didn't know you as long as the rest of the guys, I knew you as the brave and selfless soul that you were. I'm so proud of how you adjusted to working with the SRU, from what I could tell it was a lot different than Kandahar.
Though the time that I spent with you was brief, I still love you like a brother. I hope that someday you'll figure out your dilemma. Just know that I'll be behind whatever decision you make.
Sarge, so wise and jaded. You were a father figure in my life, and you taught me everything I know about life in the SRU. You're the glue that held us together, through all the ups and downs. You were a great mentor to me, you were patient yet your expectations were always high. You made me always want to strive for improvement, and because of that I became a better teammate, a better friend and a better person.
I'm glad that you resisted the night I died. So many of my friends got into problems like that, and though I don't know what it's like first-hand, I understand better than most people do. It takes tremendous inner strength to stay clean, and I'm indescribably proud that you could.
Take care of the team like you took care of me. You were the one I could always talk to about my problems, no matter how childish they seemed. Make sure they know that it's okay to talk to someone.
Wordy, the gentlest SOB I've ever known. Your compassion and empathy for every subject and every victim was something I always admired about you. You're so devoted to Shelley and the girls, they're so lucky to have you. You are the guy that everyone counts on; the one we all go to when we need to feel better. You had the rare gift of making everything feel better.
I appreciate you accepting Leah into the team. I can't imagine how hard it would be to watch someone new take a teammate's place for good, but I'm proud of you for doing that. Leah needs to feel welcome, and you're doing that for her right now. I know she appreciates it. I'm so thankful that I had the fortune to count you among my family.
Ed, our fearless team leader. I always looked up to you, you were a shining beacon of inspiration in my life. You were the oldest brother of team one, the one everyone looked up to and still slightly feared. You're as tough as nails, you were the one who always stayed strong, no matter how hard the rest of the team had fallen. You are the support system of the team, you held us together and showed us it was going to be okay.
Don't be afraid to be a human, though. Sophie and Clark know something's wrong, and it's okay to tell them when you're hurting inside. You'd be surprised how much it helps to tell someone. I hope you know that the whole team would help you get through anything, that's what family is for.
Spike, my partner in crime, my twin brother. From the moment you joined Team One, I knew we were going to be the best of friends. You are the life of the party and the life and soul of the team. Nothing that happened that day was your fault, I chose to go out there and there was nothing you could do once I stepped on the landmine. I want you to keep moving forward, I want you to find someone to fill the gap I left in your heart.
I still smile when I think about everything we've done together. I meant it with all my heart when I said we were brothers in all but blood. I miss you so much, but it's not your job to miss me. You're strong and you're incredible in every way. I don't know what I would have done if I had never met you; the life I had before you were in it seems so dull now.
I want you to call Bridget. I know how much you like her, and she deserves someone as amazing as you. From this moment on, I want you to let go of the past and throw yourself into the present. You know I can't stand it when you're upset. You have so much going for you, you have a girl who really likes you, a robot who loves you unconditionally, and a family who's got your back every time you go out in the field. The road to recovery might be a long one, but you can get there. Wherever you go in life, I'll follow you and support you in death. I'll never forget the bond we shared.
Before I go, I have one last thing to tell you all. Don't worry about me anymore. Your lives have so much more to offer you, and the living don't need to carry the weight of the dead with them. We had a great run, but it's time for Team One to let me go. I love you all with all my heart, and I'll be watching you live your lives to the fullest. Toronto's in good hands.
One day, hopefully a long while from now, we'll see each other again. I'll be waiting for you, and one day we'll sail the winds of eternity as a family once again.
I will never forget you, Team One.
I'll miss this, it was fun to write. If you could take the time to review, I'd be very grateful. :)