Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of its characters. They all belong to Stephenie Meyer.
A/N: This is the outtake purchased by AquariumJenn during the FGB Eclipse Edition. She requested to hear more about what happened after Bella and Edward left the diner at the end of Chapter 16. The partin italics at the beginning is the end of that chapter.
That was fun," Bella admitted, before taking a bite of her food. I smiled at her widely.
"It was, wasn't it?" She nodded her head and smiled. We continued eating and talking, and just simply enjoying each other, something that we hadn't done in a very long time.
Once we were done, I paid the bill and we casually walked back to the car. I went to open the door for her but before she got in, she turned to me, "Thank you, Edward. Not for the meal, but for everything. It felt so good to be able to laugh again. So, thank you."
I smiled and kissed her lightly on the lips then letting my forehead rest against hers, I gazed into her eyes and sighed. "I feel the same exact way, baby." I kissed her again, with a little more passion then wrapped my arms tightly around her.
We had made progress today. We weren't fully healed but we were getting there...together.
Once we were back at home, I wasn't quite ready to end the fun we had been having today so I decided to bring up something we hadn't done in a while.
"Hey, Bella," I said as we both kicked off our shoes by the front door and made our way into the living room, "how about we have a movie day?" We hadn't had a movie day in a very long time, probably since before Lizzie was born. Bella and I would cut off our cellphones, take the house phone off the hook and basically cut ourselves off from reality. We would sit on the couch with a huge bowl of popcorn, sodas and candy piled on the coffee table in front of us and watch movie after movie all afternoon.
"Edward," she said grinning widely at me, "I think that sounds like an awesome idea! But I have one condition." I smirked at her knowing full and well what her condition was. I had a feeling I would be sitting all afternoon watching chick flicks but I couldn't think of a better way to spend my day.
"And what condition might that be?" I said laughing.
"I get to pick the movies and you make the popcorn," she said triumphantly. I shook my head at her as I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug, kissing her on the forehead.
"Anything you say, baby." I walked into the kitchen, put some popcorn in the microwave and searched the cabinets for any junk food we might have. Grabbing a couple of sodas out of the fridge, I gathered it all in my arms and made my way back into the living room.
Placing it down on the coffee table, I pulled my cell phone out and cut it off. I laid it down on the side table noticing Bella had already done the same with hers. I walked to the linen closet in the hallway and grabbed a large blanket, big enough for both Bella and I to be covered with.
A few minutes later we were snuggled on the couch with a blanket covering us and a huge bowl of popcorn resting on our laps. I was right when I said Bella would pick a chick flick. We were currently watching Titanic and Bella already informed me that up next was the 1996 version of Romeo and Juliet. I think she had a thing for Leonardo DiCaprio but I wasn't saying anything.
I looked over at Bella during the emotional scene of Rose telling Jack she'd never let go and saw that she was crying, as usual at this part, and pulled her tightly to me kissing her on her temple. I never understood why women liked to watch movies over and over again that brought out such emotions in them, but what did I know.
Once Titanic was over, I placed the bowl on the table and stood to put in the next DVD and heard Bella sigh behind me. Turning around, I saw her biting her lip in thought. I had no idea what had brought this look on, but I knew I needed to get her to open up. We had gotten so good at communication lately and I didn't want to ruin our day.
"What's the matter baby?" I asked her, sitting back down beside her after loading the movie.
"Edward, do you think after we watch this movie we could go and visit Lizzie? I mean, I have been there a few times alone and we haven't been there together since she was buried and I figured today would be a good day since we're both off and hanging around home..." she rambled on while looking down at her hands fidgeting in her lap. I pulled her hands into mine and she looked at me nervously.
"I think that sounds like a great idea baby. We haven't been together yet. Why don't we stop by the florist and pick up some flowers to put out?" I asked her.
"That sounds good," she said, leaning back and getting comfortable again on the couch, "now hit play. I've got more Leo to feast on." I laughed at her, shaking my head and hit play on the remote.
A couple of hours later we were buckled in the car making our way to the graveyard. We stopped at the local florist on the way out and Bella had picked out a nice bouquet of pink tulips for Lizzie and I had gotten a small bear they had that was dressed as a ballerina.
I pulled into the parking area at the cemetery and looked over at Bella. She was already fighting to keep the tears that had welled up in her eyes from falling. I reached across the console of the car and pulled her hand up to my mouth kissing it.
"Are you ready, Sweetheart?" I asked her, pushing a stray piece of hair behind her ear. She took a deep breath, closing her eyes and nodded her head.
I walked around to her side of the car and opened the door, helping her out. We walked hand in hand to the small plot where our baby girl rested. We had purchased a granite bench to sit to the side of Lizzie's gravesite. The headstone we had chosen pictured a small angel resting her head on a pillow and engraved it with "Blossomed on Earth to Bloom in Heaven."
Bella and I knelt down by the headstone, our hands still joined. She brushed away some of the leaves that had fallen atop of it and placed the flowers on the ground in front. I placed the bear on top of the marker and lightly brushed my fingers across her name. It was still so hard to believe that our baby girl was gone. I still sometimes expected to walk in the front door, home from an exhausting day of work, and have her leap into my arms and hug me tightly.
Bella stood up from the ground and walked the few steps over to the bench and sat down. I followed behind her, tears flowing down my cheeks, and pulled her into my arms as she began sobbing.
"I miss her so much Edward," she cried into my chest, "I miss her so much that it hurts."
She gripped my shirt tightly as she continued crying. I ran my hands up and down her back, trying to comfort her and myself. I knew I needed to be strong for her but seeing her in so much pain, and feeling my pain as well, made it hard to keep my emotions under control.
"I know baby, God I know," I choked out, "I miss her too." I continued to hold Bella in my arms and offer her what little comfort I could. After a few moments, Bella pulled away and laid her head on my shoulder. I turned and placed a kiss on her head and held her hand tightly in mine.
"It's so peaceful here," she whispered. And it truly was. All you could hear was the sound of birds chirping and when the wind blew you could hear the tinkling of wind chimes that some loved ones had placed on other graves.
"It is. I think we picked a wonderful spot for her," I told her. The spot we chose was shaded by a huge oak tree and had the perfect spot for the granite bench we insisted upon.
After sitting a while in the peace and quiet, Bella stood again and walked to the head stone. She knelt down and kissed her fingers, placing them on Lizzie's name.
"I love you baby girl. Mommy misses you very much. You have a good time up there with Grandma Renee, baby," she said, tears falling once again from her eyes. I knelt down beside her and placed a kiss on my fingers as Bella had done. What I wouldn't give to be able to hold my sweet girl in my arms again and never let her go.
"I Love you Angel. Daddy misses you everyday," I whispered through my tears. We both stood and I pulled Bella tightly to me.
"I love you," I whispered in her ear as I held her. She whispered her love to me as well before we pulled apart and walked back to our car. After a few quiet moments in the car I realized I honestly didn't want to end the day on such a somber note so I decided to ask Bella what she wanted to do.
"Well, I am not all that hungry since we ate all that popcorn and junkfood during our movie fest," she said, laughing a bit. It was good to see her laugh after what we had just went through. I was glad she wasn't pulling away and retreating into her mind. "But I could go for some ice cream."
"Ice cream it is," I said, as I pulled away from the lot and headed to the ice cream parlor in town.
"I'll have two scoops of strawberry ice cream and two scoops of chocolate," I told the young man behind the counter. After paying for our treat, I walked over to Bella, handing her the cone of strawberry ice cream. We settled into the booth in the corner and begin to eat our ice cream before it melted into a sloppy mess.
"Mmmmmm," Bella moaned as she licked her cone seductively. Although I am not sure she meant it to be like that. It had just been a while since we had been together and I was seeing everything she did lately as sexy. Hell, we weren't even sleeping in the same bed so I was pretty damn sure I wasn't getting lucky any damn time soon.
"Good isn't it?" I asked her, trying to get my mind on a different train of thought. She nodded her head, smiling at me and continued to eat her ice cream. When she let some drip down her hand and bent her head down to slowly lick it off. I might have moaned out loud.
"What?" she asked, looking at me questioningly. I really didn't need to bring up my concerns and hopes that I would be able to join her and share our bed once again right now.
"Nothing," I said, shaking my head at her and trying to adjust myself in my pants secretively when she turned her attention back to her cone. After a few more torturous minutes of watching Bella eat, we were all done and I got up, throwing away the napkins we had used. We walked back to the car, hand in hand, the silence seeming very peaceful.
"Edward," she said as we settled back in the car, "today was really great." I leaned over and kissed her sweetly and brushed my hand across her cheek.
"It was," I agreed. "It's been a while since we had a really good day and I think this was definitely one. I think we should make days like today a regular thing. What do you think?"
"I think that sounds like a great idea," she told me, as I pulled back onto the road, heading home.
We both walked inside and discarded our shoes by the front door and walked into the living room. Even though we had spent the whole day together, I still wasn't ready to separate from my wife as we went to different bedrooms. I missed falling asleep at night with my wife in my arms and having her beautiful face be the first thing I saw in the mornings. Deciding I definitely wasn't ready to let go yet, I walked over to the stereo in the room, searched for the song I wanted and placed the CD in the player.
As the music and words of Edwin McCain's I Could Not Ask For More floated through the air, I walked over to Bella and stopped in front of her.
"Dance with me?" I asked her as she smiled shyly at me. She took my offered hand as I led her to the middle of our living room. I held her tightly to me as we danced slowly, lost in memories. I couldn't help but remember the last time I had danced with my wife to this song.
I pulled Bella to stand beside me as everyone gathered around the now empty dance floor. She grinned at me shyly as she gathered the long white train in her hand, leading us both to the middle of the room. She looked so beautiful today, dressed in the elegant white gown. Her hair was pulled up top of her head, a few brown tendrils hanging down around her face. Her cheeks were colored crimson as she blushed from all the attention placed on her today. She was never one who liked to be the center of attention, but there was no way she could avoid it today.
"I love you Mrs. Cullen," I whispered in her ear as we danced slowly in front of all our family and friends. Today had been the greatest day of my life as I married the woman standing before me. I had dreamed of this day for so long and it was hard to believe it was finally here.
"I love you too, Mr. Cullen," she whispered in my ear, placing a small kiss on the skin below it. We continued dancing to the song we had chosen for our first dance, as our guests began to join us.
"This has been the best day. It was better than I ever could have imagined," she told me as I held her tightly to my body, "I'll remember this day for the rest of my life." I pulled back to look at her as more tears flowed from her eyes. She had been crying off and on all day, emotions running rampant.
"Every dream I have ever had came true today. I am so blessed to have you as my wife," I told her kissing her passionately, forgetting where we were. She pulled back a bit and giggled as there were several whistles from the crowd.
"What are you thinking about?" Bella asked me, pulling me from my memories. I smiled at her, kissing her slowly, yet with just as much passion as I had on our wedding day. I pulled away from her smirking at her dreamy looking state.
"Our wedding day," I told her as she nodded her head.
"Me too. That was such a wonderful day. I can remember it like it was yesterday. We've been through so much, but we're still here, together," she said, placing her head back on my chest.
"Yes, together," I whispered as the song finished. Bella pulled back and kissed me sweetly on the lips before stepping away.
"I'm gonna head up to bed," she said quietly before walking up stairs. I couldn't help the look of rejection that crossed my face as I nodded and watched her walk away. I was hoping somehow today might have changed something for us, but evidently it didn't. I would still be going to sleep in the guest room, wishing I was lying in bed with my wife. While I knew we wouldn't be having sex, I still couldn't help wishing I could join her.
I waited a few minutes and walked upstairs to get ready for bed. Before walking into the guest bedroom, I paused and took one last glance at our bedroom. Turning to walk inside my room, I heard Bella whisper my name. I turned back around and saw Bella standing in the doorway of our room, dressed in her pajama pants and tank top.
"Come to bed," she said, motioning her head towards the bed in the room...our room. I smiled and walked towards our room.
I was suddenly extremely nervous for some reason and I think Bella could sense it. She pulled down the comforter on her side of the bed and climbed inside. Wiggling her body down the bed until she was comfortably situated, she looked over to me, cocking her head
"Are you gonna sleep in your clothes Edward?" she asked me, smirking. I ran my hands through my hair nervously as I looked at her. I hadn't been this nervous since the first time Bella and I had made love. I didn't know what was expected of me and it was a little disconcerting.
"I just didn't...I thought..." I stuttered out, wondering what I should do. As I babbled on aimlessly I noticed Bella shift her eyes down, looking at her hands folded across her stomach.
"I just want you to hold me Edward. I don't want to sleep alone," she whispered into the quiet night. With a new found confidence at Bella's words, I nodded my head and pulled my t-shirt off, followed by my pants, leaving me in my boxers. I climbed in bed beside her and pulled her to me, resting her head on my chest. She sighed peacefully as she settled herself against my body and ran her hand along the expanse of my naked chest.
"I love you Edward," she said placing a small kiss on my chest, above my heart. I smiled to myself even though she couldn't see it. I knew that today we had made yet another breakthrough in healing our relationship and I couldn't wait to make more. I ran my hand along her back and placed a kiss on top of her head.
"I love you too, baby."