Here it is…the much awaited outtake from 'What I'd Do for You'.
This outtake is the night of Marie's conception, meaning Edward and Bella are both seventeen and juniors in high school. This is obviously rated M for a reason, and will be in BPOV.
The entire drive over to the Masen's house, my mind was racing.
I could do this. It was what I wanted. I loved Edward, and I wanted to give myself to him once and for all. And now was the absolute perfect time. Edward's mother, Elizabeth, and his twin sister, Rosalie, were gone to Seattle on a shopping trip, along with our friend Alice. I had been invited, but had declined at the last minute. If there was one thing in the world I hated, it was shopping, without a doubt. My parents and older brother, Jasper, along with another one of our friends, Emmet, were at a football game all day.
So now was the ideal opportunity to finally lose my virginity to Edward. We hadn't been entirely innocent this last year; there had been a lot of touching and rounding of bases. But we had yet to sleep together, which, now that I thought about it, was ridiculous. I loved Edward, and he loved me. And no one could deny that we belonged together, forever.
By the time I pulled up to the large white house, I had calmed myself down and was prepared. I straightened the black skirt I had worn for this occasion, knowing that Edward loved my legs in this short skirt. I wore a tight, midnight blue v neck shirt and a pair of black flats. The outfit was simple and sweet yet seductive, or so I hoped.
Glancing in the rearview mirror, I swiped on some sweet smelling lip gloss and ruffled my curly hair slightly.
Taking a deep breath, I got out of the car and walked up to the house. I rang the doorbell and shifted my weight impatiently, clutching my bag in my hands.
The front door swung open and Edward stood there, looking surprised. I had told him I was going to Seattle with his mother and Rosalie and Alice, so he obviously wasn't expecting me. "What are you doing here?" He asked, pulling me into his arms and giving me a warm hug before kissing the tip of my nose.
"I thought maybe we could spend the day together." I said as Edward gestured for me to come into the house. He closed the door behind me and glanced around awkwardly, not sure of what to do.
"That sounds great. Do you want to…I don't know…go somewhere?" He asked, glancing out the window and up at the cloudy sky. "It's cloudy, but we could go to the cliffs or something."
I shook my head and took his hand in mine, squeezing lightly. "I know what I want to do." I said in a quiet voice, looking at him with wide eyes.
"Okay…" Edward raised his eyebrows at me, smirking at my odd behavior. "And what would that be?" He asked, and I took a deep breath. I kissed him firmly on the lips, then pulled away and started walking upstairs to his room without saying anything.
Edward followed close behind me, still holding my hand. "Bella, what are you doing?" He asked curiously as we walked into his room together and I shut the door behind us with a distinct click.
Again, I didn't answer, but let my actions speak for me.
I went over and stood next to Edward's unmade bed; my breathing still embarrassingly heavy. I silently crossed my arms across my chest like an x, my trembling fingers gripping at the hem on my blue shirt. Locking my brown eyes with Edward's green ones, I slowly and deliberately pulled the shirt over my head and let it fall to the floor soundlessly. Edward smiled, raising his eyebrows at me.
"You wanna fool around?" He asked, ambling over to me and putting his arms around me, resting his hands on my bare lower back.
"No." I whispered, staring Edward straight in the eyes. "I want to…" I swallowed heavily, trying to get past my nerves. "I want you to make love to me. Today. Right now." I murmured, and Edward's hands, which had been rubbing my back, suddenly froze.
"Just because everyone is gone doesn't mean we have to do this now, if you're not ready." He said in a low voice, but I could see the lust and want in his eyes.
"I'm ready, Edward." I assured him, kissing the corner of his mouth. "I love you so much." I added, closing my eyes and leaning my head against his shoulder.
"I love you too, Bella." He whispered, kissing the top of my head. "Are you on the pill or something?" He asked, and I opened my eyes.
"Um, no. You need parental consent if you're under eighteen." I said, playing with the hem of Edward's shirt.
"So…what are we going to do?" Edward asked.
"Um…Rosalie went with me to Planned Parenthood to get this. She said they work." I muttered, my cheeks burning red as I reached into my bag and fished out the small rubber disk, holding it out in my hand.
Edward stared at it for a second, and then he registered what it was. "A…diaphragm?" He asked, and I nodded.
"You, uh, have to put spermicide on it to make it work." I said, closing my fist over the diaphragm and pulling out the tube of spermicide Alice had gone and bought for me. I had been way too embarrassed to do it myself. Edward nodded and leaned down to kiss me.
"So…are you going to…you know, 'insert it' in here or in the bathroom…or what?" He asked, noticeably a little flustered.
"Bathroom." I said quietly.
I kissed him one last time and then walked off towards the bathroom, feeling oddly pleased.
I knew Edward loved me, but for some reason I had expected him to put up a bit of a fight. He was all about not 'corrupting' me, even though I was more than willing. It was like he thought he was forcing me into something.
Staring in the bathroom mirror for a moment, I gathered up my courage before slipping off my skirt and underwear.
It took me a little bit to figure everything out, but I eventually got the diaphragm perfectly in place after reading and re-reading the instructions. I put my underwear back on but folded my jeans and placed them carefully on the counter. After a little pep talk, I was ready.
I loved him. I wanted him. I craved him. And it was finally happening.
Taking one more deep breath, I opened the door leading to Edward's bedroom and stepped into the room, wearing only my pink lace bra and underwear set.
Edward was sitting on the edge of his bed, his shirt discarded and his hair more mussed than it had been several minutes ago. "Hey." I whispered, walking towards him. His head snapped up and he broke out into a wide, nervous smile.
"Hi, beautiful." He murmured, pulling me into his lap so that my legs were straddling his waist. Edward started to kiss me, his lips soft and tender against mine. These weren't like the kisses we usually shared, though.
These kisses were much more…significant. These kisses were leading to something amazing.
"Bella." He whispered against my lips, bringing a slightly shaky hand up to my cup my cheek. "I just want you to know that I love you goddamned much, baby. You're everything to me, and you always will be." Despite the cursing, his words touched me and I felt tears start to well up in my eyes.
"I love you." I breathed, my chest rising and falling rapidly. I let my fingers trail up and down his abdomen, feeling the flat panes of his perfectly defined muscles. "You're okay with this, right?" I asked, although there was no going back now.
Edward laughed against the skin of my neck. "Are you kidding me?" He asked, and I giggled softly along with him as Edward's fingers wrapped around the elastic of my underwear and tugged lightly, successfully pulling them down past my hips.
"Lay back." He murmured, leaning me down on his bed and kneeling on the floor at my feet. He gently kissed my left ankle, massaging my right one as he did so.
I lay back on the bed and fisted the sheets in my hands as he proceeded to kiss up my legs. My hips bucked involuntarily as Edward placed a soft kiss to my inner thigh, and my hands automatically left the sheets and found their way to Edward's soft hair, pulling lightly.
Edward stopped teasing my legs and his lips came up to reverently kiss the cleavage created by my lace push up bra. I remained silent, my eyes glued to him, as Edward unhooked my bra and tossed it across the room.
His hands came up to gently massage my breasts, and I moaned loudly. Our lips connected desperately again, and my fingers reached for the button and zipper of his jeans. I pushed them down to his ankles and Edward eagerly kicked them off, letting them fall to the floor along with the rest of our discarded clothing.
Edward's hand gave my breast one last gentle squeeze before snaking down my abdomen and then dipping between my legs, checking to see if I was ready. "Oh fucking hell, Bella." He moaned, and I ground my hips into his hand.
His hips gyrated against mine, and I eagerly lifted my hips to meet his. I groan escaped from the back of my throat when his very prominent erection brushed up against me again and again.
"Ready?" he asked again, and I nodded feverishly. Edward quickly pulled his boxers down and off, and then laced his hands together with mine. "You can squeeze my hands as tightly as you need to, okay?"
"Okay." I murmured, holding my breath as he lined himself up at my entrance and gently kissed me on the lips.
Edward slowly started to push into me, and I gritted my teeth together at the stretching pain. "Are you okay?" He asked, his voice strained and rough. I could tell by the tenseness in his hips that he was holding back.
"I'm fine. Just do it, please." I said, tipping my head up and kissing the sensitive spot underneath his chin. He took a deep breath and gently pushed completely into me, and I clenched his hands fiercely in mine. The pain was terrible, but I forced my eyes to stay open and stay locked on the beautiful man above me.
His breathing was heavy and the rhythm of his hips was uneven, and his eyes were screwed shut. The pleasure wasn't very strong, and I was already feeling a little sore, but it didn't matter.
It didn't last very long, and it definitely wasn't some kind of mind blowing experience, but it was perfect. As I watched Edward shake and come apart because of me, I had never felt more loved and cherished. And then when he opened his eyes and smiled at me, my heart thumped unevenly in my chest.
"I'm sorry." He murmured, and I stared at him in confusion.
"Why? For what?" I asked, spooning against his side and leaning my head on his slightly sweaty chest.
"I'm sorry for hurting you and sorry that it wasn't as good for you as it was for me." He said softly, and I glanced up at him, shaking my head.
"Edward, it was perfect." I whispered, kissing his collarbone gently. "Every single thing about it was perfect. I love you, and you're all I'm ever going to want."
"Ditto." Edward murmured, his hand running gently through my tangled hair. "Bella, I was thinking about something." He said several minutes later, his tone a lot more serious than before.
"Yes?" I asked, sitting up slightly so I could look him in the eye.
"I thought that maybe, after college, we should get married." He said quietly, his expression slightly guarded. I stared at him, stunned and speechless. So Edward hurried to clarify. "I know that you are the only woman for me, Isabella Swan. And I assure you that you can expect a real, legitimate proposal in a few years…but I just wanted to let you know that someday, I'm going to marry you."
Tears welled up in my eyes again, and instead of answering him, I simply gave him a long, passionate kiss on the lips. "I can't wait." I finally whispered, closing my eyes and nuzzling against his chest again. "I'm going to be with you forever." I said groggily, unbelievably tired.
"Get some sleep, love." Edward whispered. "I'll be here when you wake up. I am always going to be here for you, baby. No matter what."
There it is! So, tell me what you thought and review! I might do other outtakes, like when Bella finds out she's pregnant, when Edward and Bella get engaged, and maybe there wedding. I'll let you know about that.
Xoxo- Melodyella aka Mellie